He reigns.

Monday, October 31, 2005

*relationship...*

the Sat service, the midnight conversation & the service online made me start thinking..[perhaps I was too preoccupied and hence forgot my PIN!]
yes.. most of our time is spent with people.. can't deny it.. relationship is very evident in our daily lives..

people don't care how much you know until they how much you care..

man(in generic sense),being flesh & blood, tends to look at things at their own point of view.. opinions.. yes. you're entitled to them..

Giving? Or receiving.. I want to be spoon-fed as well.. it's good to be on the receiving end all the time right? but can't always live in that stage.. when you have moved on, it's not a choice to look back.. and i don't want to & i won't.

God doesn't show partiality. So should we. Question:: at a boutique, is it fair that only important people that demands better treatment than a commoner? nope.. so.. poor service doesn't just pertained to the service rendered to the talented/ important.. the issue was that there is a breakdown in the serivce standard! hence, root cause is not simply only serving the important with the best.. but service level should be applied that same throughout!

talking in parables again...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:57:00 AM

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*revamp..*

not really... actually took the layout i created for claire's cg blog and twirked it a bit.. changed the pix and color scheme.. :)

andreas..thanks for the advance day wish.. :)

sleepy.. cuz ya.. it was a rather hectic sat/sun.. and yUp.. only get to zzz @ 4plus sunday morning.. was on the line..well.. my flesh was complaining.. but glad that this conversation occured cuz I actually wanted to call.. yet lack the guts to.. cuz not sure if it's appropriate to... hope that what was said help.. :)

silly me forgotten my ATM pin this morning.. happily made my way to the cash deposit machine and realised that GEE.. what was my PIN? yikes.. [made numerous attempts ` but nope.. not that right nO.. panick..cuz.. mind was blank.. the numbers that rambled thru my head were the irrelvant nos. [either the expired pins, the pins for the other cards, the telephone pins.. and weird strings of nos..] made a prayer out of desperation.. YET.. mind was still blank...but was prompted that the PIN will come back to me later that day.. so ya.. stopped worrying.. yet i thought of the worst scenario.. to reset my PIN tomorrow.. yikes.. I thought that I was suffering from amnesia!

hmmm suddenly, while i was replying to an SMS two hours later.. the digits just flash across my mind.. Praise the Lord! lesson learnt :: trust in the still small voice.. and wait for what was said to come to pass.. don't waiver...He is in control! [yes.. i will wait patiently..]

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:30:00 AM

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

*:: I'm not a minor...*

I wondered for the second time this week... my age starts with the "1" digit or the digit "2"... Is it pass the curfew of a 20+ to reach home @ 11+? [with full knowledge of why i have to be home late.. at least my mom knows.. but dad exaggeratedly declared that I'm home in the wee hours... ALWAYS.. ya monday is not a day in existence...] I feel like a child.. to have a curfew.. [working adult with PO? yes... that exist.. me..]

frankly, i'm rather sick of this... bUT i'm not gonna bow down.. to the works of the devil la.. yes... I'm stubborn to things I believe in.. I will not move... yes.. it's not a war wage against human and flesh, but to the principalities...

God help me to expand my time... and change and soften their hearts... what if I really go do what I want next year?? would they flip? at this present moment, yes... BUT one of the phrase that kept ringing in my mind after brother chee wei shared his testimony... "DO NOT limit God!"Indeed.. I would not... His words would not return to Him void...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:38:00 PM

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*new creation...*

it's bitter yet sweet.. an irony? perhaps..

sava.. ya, that's an acronym that rather apt at the moment.. ha.. disregard this if this doesn't make sense..

"Majesty.. Majesty. Your grace has found me just as I am,. empty handed but alive in Your Hands. "

fa?ade.. masquerade... a noun that some like to use to describe their lives.. ain't it sad? when you look at yourself in the mirror.. what did you see.. when you open the wardrobe.. which piece of costume do you intend to don yourself in today..

"Majesty.. Majesty.. Forever I am changed by Your love.. In the presence of Your Majesty.."

It doesn't matter what you say, what you purport to be your belief.. what matters is how you really feel, what are you convicted of on the inside.. Is your "OK" really an "Ok" or does it have a hidden meaning... man may be deceived, but Your Creator, who have sculpted you, who have conceived your being right before you set feet on this world, will not be deceived.. never...

so..live your life, the new life the Creator God has given you through His precious Begotten Son, the way He sees it, not thru' you eyes, but by faith, thru' His eyes!

2Cor 5 :17 " Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed awat; behold, all things have become new."

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 6:24:00 PM

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*new things...:)*

hmm...yay. my efforts paid off.. Claire like the design.. though now i further refined it.. think it looks better now.. :) perhaps i should do one from scratch for this sweetiesite.. :)

hmm.. really enjoyed brother bobby's bs..bible study made me want to dig deeper into His Word.. yes..:) falling deeper in love with My Creator, His Word, His Presence day by day....

Did certain things that I'd not done before.. attitude and response of some make my blood BOIL..I lament to myself.. "Why can't they be more sensible.. Why can't they be like me.?" revelation:: Cuz they are not me... but what I can do is to influence them.. it pained me to see the lethargic response -- the bochup attitude... and i really need to expand my capacity...I'm a new creation in Christ! the old me (with all the insecurities.. fears..doubts..) has already vanished in 28 dec 01..

looking forward to what He has in stall for me... :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:50:00 AM

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

*the perils of sleeping one hour..*

this shall be the last time this year to attempt this.. there is a litre of caffine fluid flowing in my system [yes.. I've drunk 4 cups of black coffee.. the potent "kopi-O"] to keep myself less sleepy.. [yes..still sleepy & "stony".. ] without my concealer.. I think I sure resemble China's guobao~ the "polar bear with eye-rings".. panda.. Was very tempted to curl back to my comfy nest when my faithful hps snoozed..

productive? ya.. sorta.. but i need to make "cold calls" after bs, b4 prac.. else no time.. and yes.. praying that the recipients would kindly agree to the recommended actions...

enuff said on the nitty gritty.. i need to work on something else... so that i zapped off promptly @530 to make it for bs@ 6!!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:45:00 PM

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*tired..*

finally finished what i'd promised claire... version One..

looks kinda sweet...will improvise another day... i'm tired... i need zzzzz

Violet... haven't seeen u in ages..miss ya too... promised to call u soon...

ok.. I need zzzz. will blog more sooooon...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:07:00 AM

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

*free & yet not free*

The organisation's main info system is down for upgrading.. [it's the phase II of migration of data from old to new system].. Hence, am rather handicapped now.. cuz I need the updated information to arrive at conclusion... anyway, am helping to clear the backlogs of my fellowteammates, else.. I would be pretty idle..

hmm.. but can't do what I need to do... can only do it at nite.. aft prayer meeting.. hmmm... hope that what i come up with, claire would like... :) I think i would use one of my oldold skin... to modify...

back to the backlogs.. yikes.. friends have yet revert if they are interested to attend the workshop.. one of them seems keen (cuz FOC, and yes.. grooming..) I did what I could.. leave the rest in His hands and His leading..... :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:51:00 PM

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*nose.. blocked.. hate dust..*

lesson learnt... I have more than enough clothes to last me till... end of the year... [no excuse for "没衣穿".. :( ]

wellwell.. had decided to sort out my wardrobe cuz.. ya.. it is getting kinda disorganised.(ya.. that's a mild word to use..) hence.. decided to hual all my garb and dump it on my bed for sorting... BAD decision.. but gotta be done.. else.. the mess will just accumulate.. [kill the habit of not sorting them out once the laundry is done...]
This is the mess @ 10pm, 24 Oct 05.

One hour ++ later.. [i managed to sort, hang and fold them while watching the finale of the next american top model..] Yay, I got my bed back!!

My bed now..

and runny nose... and DRY throat.. but at least.. I think i can stop visiting the stores till CNY next year.. [thank God!!] and ya.. i gotta hem up the longlong pants.. that i bought during GSS .. man.. I dug out 3 pairs of pink pants.. [the sweetieCandy pink and dark pink.. ]

okie, 'nuff said... think this is just a bimbo day...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:56:00 AM

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*the bimbotic monday...*

made a real blunder today.. haha.. mismatched heels.. ha.. left foot claded in the charles & keith('ck') pair while right was dorned in my URS one..

the best part of the story is. on the strap of the ck pair snapped
(ya.. it's rather antique pair.. actually both are 2 years in age.. URS one older.. ) after i alight bus no.3! but thank God I made it to office without people staring at the mismatched heels.. [fortunately.. i've another spare pair of heels @ work, but that pair was due for retirement too ..hence banished to office..] hmmm now i need another pair of heels.. but URS don't manufacure my fave design (the simple cross strappie one.. think I'd been wearing them since uni year 2? think I must have bought 5 pairs till date ~ the last being in 2003. ) in case you're wondering.. ya.. am from the acc graduating class 2001.. yesyes... when i donned my concealer and etc.. i actually looked younger than my age.. [heehee.. wendy-liling thought i was still studying in uni.. and sister karen actually thought I was the same age as michelle & herself...] haha.. what shall i say.. glory of God.. :) heehee... [perhaps i should pose a before and after photo.. cuz I chanced upon a photo that my ex-cg took @ winnie's baptism..

hmmm eugene looked sooo different... myself.. haha.. think i look less aunty not so round....keke that was the days before eugene and i was in choir.. in 2002?

comparison..me... [taken last fri evening before opm..] :)

finally convinced myself to don some make-up to work this morning... yes.. I only "paint" my face when i serve.. not good la.. cuz don't look sharp despite dress sharp.. shall make it a pt to at least concealed those panda rings...

sent a bubble parcel today.. forgotten to write my addy on reversed side.. nah, It will be delivered to the intended recipient!! :)

haha, today's post made it as if I'm this bimbo... hmmm..am in a cheerry moood... so ya.. the sky might fall but hey.. i know that He is in control... [p.s. am not donning any facade.. yes yes.. the baggages are still there..unseen to all but Him... but have faith that it'll be overcomed, it will come to pass...it's just a method of time...] Amen!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:33:00 AM

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

*'...Not by might nor by power, but my Spirit,’ Says the Lord..*

the year is coming to a close again... for the past 2 years, the same question revolved in my mind... why haven't i got pass it? Cuz.. I did not press in... i heard, yet I see.. yet i did not perserve... and yes... cuz I stopped moving.. He stopped..

Glad that I'd went to the overnite prayer meeting.. and stayed till 5am.. Cuz it was at the last stretch.. that He spoke to me again... about the dream that seem to be dressed in cobwebs... Indeed.. the mountains that has stood in the way seemed to be getting higher and bigger... and it seems even more difficult to level it.. and the chunks of verses that I read earlier in Isaiah just kept surfacing in me... Yes, it's not by might, nor by power, but it's by the Spirit of God... and yes, God is the Creator of all things.. yes, He will see that the mountain be moved.. what He has spoken, it will come to pass.. Strength, I have not, but ask and it shall be given... [shouldn't have worn marsara.. i realised that i resemble a panda after the opm..] And yes, divinely, the sermon this weekend once again reinforced this revelation. :) [Michelle.. thanks for coming by after the service to encourage me.. :) let's jia you together!!]

Never felt His presence so tangible in these few days compared to the past few months...

Andreas posed me a question on our way back on the bus, whether I've intention to do my Masters... nope.. was my immediate reply.. but didn't tell him what i intend to study.. why? cuz am not certain when it will come to pass.. (hmm the waivering spirit came upon me again... ) those who glanced at my wishlist would have the answer... :)

gonna end it well this year.. :)
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Zech 4:6-7:
“This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: ‘Not by might nor by power, but my Spirit,’ Says the Lord of hosts. “Who are you, O great mountain? Before Zerubbabel you shall become a plain! And he shall bring forth the capstone with shouts of “Grace, grace to it!”’

Isaiah 40:27-31

Why do you say, O Jacob, And speak, O Israel: "My way is hidden from the Lord, And my just claim is passed over by my God"?

Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, The Creator of the ends of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.

He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength.

Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall,

But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:33:00 PM

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Friday, October 21, 2005

*a little further..*

Yes, I want to go a little further... a little deeper in my walk with Him, when i pray... when i do the things He wants me to...

it has been a real fantastic week so far... and did quite a number of things that I never thought I was capable of yesterday... well, even though hermione's creation 1st mass product was being rejected.. (at least,I did the best I could... I know that the creation is certainly not up to the standard.. ~ 1st attempt & very limited resources and time.. ~ but at least the finished product look kinda good.. too bad the targeted audience are more of the sophisicated kind.. -- though yes, they are of my age grp but i guessed most pple out there are impressed by packaging...) ha.. am talking in riddles now.. but I guessed only those involved will comprehend.. certainly, it's not by my own ability... without Him.. don't think I can do it...

hmmm.. I think there are more things ahead.. Road ahead may not be a straight path, but hey, am not walking it alone... yes.. I must see beyond what my mind can seee.. See through the Creator's eyes.. not mine...

yay!! Let me grab a few winks before i attend the overnight prayer meeting... (yup.. took half day leave cuz (a) didn't sleep much last nite..(b) it's the 2nd day...and i will have to be up all nite.. not sure if the forces of nature will cause that to cause some upheaval in the middle region.. [haha..what a long and elaborate alternative term for two simple words..) and (c) pray... :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:33:00 PM

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Thursday, October 20, 2005

*I must be losing my stamina...*

It's only 1+ and I'm feeling sleepy...

signs of getting younger (well.. there's a saying that the older one's get, the less sleep one needs..)

btw.. I gonna turn a year "younger" soon since at the topic of age.. [Btw it's Nov 14!(Monday!!) ]

birthday wishlist? actually i thought I would have a long list but surprisingly... not really... cuz what I really wanted ... is really as per my wishlist in the "wishlist" tab... :)

not that helpful rite? heeheee... :)

okie.. eyes are slitting...(ie clOsing tight...) Oyasumi!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:42:00 AM

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*the first time i'm doing this...*

it looks very simple...

it sounds rather corny...

am waiting for comment...

I hope it will get the green light!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:07:00 AM

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

*Float or Ice Cream?*

Brain wiring of a strawberry is similar to a kiwi?
Perhaps. Kiwi’s art pieces does reveal a striking similarity in composition to strawberry.. Strawberry, like kiwi, is susceptible to external factors ~ don’t they bruise easily? They grow in the same climate too.. Similar in taste ~ sweet with subtle sour taste..

Inherent nature flaw .. creative things are hard to understand..

strawberry float or strawberry sunken in ice cream? Float is better.. recently, there are enough fruits & vegs submerging already!

strawberry knows that that He who created His creations (strawberry & kiwi inclusive..obv!)dearly.. strawberry is sure that kiwi knows that too, just that recently seems not.. He who created strawberry also created kiwi and He is not impartial.. kiwi don’t give up! don’t be totally submerged into the ice-cream.. it’s cold in there.. Swim up with Him! You may not know it but strawberry is rooting for you too!

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Yet another story.. “???” is your response? Well.. Duet 29:29 might help remove that “???”
Nothing in particular.. just another fruity tale... (:

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:35:00 AM

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*yay..*

I'd finished what I need to finish... (at least to the best I know how..)

It's gOnna be a bUsy day ahead...

:) zzzzzzzzzzzzz

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:13:00 AM

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

*nEW.. certainly new and in a much Bigger scale than I ever thought of...*

hmm.. I was caught by surprise that I was to be involved in this up coming event(s) in a way that I'd never done before... yes.. certainly a brand-new experience for me...see, i'm too used to be instructed on what to be done.. (ha.. my very comfortable comfort zone...)

well, if last night was a new experience, this will be my flesh's immediate response on what I had been tasked tonight (phew this did not came out!).. HUH? can I do it? You are certain that you want me to do it.. ? bu I never did anything like that before though..etc . It's flattering that sis SC had such great faith in me that she wanted to me improvise on the design that bro alvin was to come up with.. somehow it was decided that hermione gets to design from scatch ..
[ p.s. so far.. I've only started venturing to non*act cute/sweetie card designs recently.. somehow to me.. the cards are still eh.. not that pro yet.... and they are created offline and not*mass produced..] Great faith lo when i said yes.. (yes, i could have said no.. but then, I will always stay at that level & never move on right.. afterall.. it's a doing-something-new-month!)

The missed calls from long after I came into my room at 11+ topped my stress tank to sky-high.. the former is now on hold and yes.. it's gonna be another similar task but final prdt draft/proofed & delivered with less than 48 hours to go... and I need to make that happen!! [Amen, I will!] I guess now I gotta make it for bs at 6pm tmw no matter what.. and i need to bUy food for my printer then...

This is really something *new*... that I know I can't dO it alone.. hmm this might be new but I have faith that this will work... cuz I'm not doing it alone (thank you Holy Spirit!) and it's not for my sake..

ha.. sounds like a parable.. but no time to uncode that now if you can't interprete.. cuz there are three things I need to do before I zzz :: the draft template :: the questions to email:: and my daily conversation with my Creator..

Oh gee.. tmw is the ISO internal audit.. pray hard that I'm not the auditee selected (though I've this strong feeling that I might be... ) hmmm.. that's not up to me..

C'est tout for now...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:58:00 PM

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Sunday, October 16, 2005

*Promotion..*

:) yups.. am promoted to MM a few hours ago.. actually.. I don't think my cg knows abt this before hand, save for long & bro ryan.. oh.. and ziv (cuz jacelyn saw my name on the list on fri.. chorus board mah..). Well, not that I feel indifferent abt it... in fact.. it encourages me a lot...cUz felt that out of the 4 of us... I felt that I was the likely candidate to get the strikeoff (instead of them..) cuz the other three (if that really happened..) cuz it's like the other three were all taking some kind of leadership role (such as ICs. etc) in their ministry.. except for me.. been around longer than me.. seemed to be more spiritual than mOi.. I was kinda surprised to learn two weeks ago that I was the only one that made it..

a case of low self-esteem? Gotta be forward looking.. and cease lamenting.. Father God really dotes on me.. cuz despite of the AP that I showed Him at times.. He overlooks that...

Very touched by Jolene.. she's seems so overjoyed at my promotion... (& mario..thot that he could add the hon-prefix "sister" officially in front of my name... I claim that prophecy by faith! Amen) [interestingly.. my cg seems nonchalant abt it.. well. at least the least expected party actualy congratulaged me! _the sole one!)

Bro Ryan is really wise.. & very discerning.. what shall i say.. yes.. there hasn't been much of growth spiritually since THAT thingy last year.. but that had been dealt with.. so am gonna stOp letting THAt haunt me... actions speak louder than words right... I gotta make some RADICAL changes ... not easy.. but can be and will be done cuz it's not by own strength & myself...

lastly.. changed the song.. again... love the melody.. love the lyrics..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:58:00 AM

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Friday, October 14, 2005

*New...*

Nope. the skin is old.. but I changed it a bit.. cuz I like this and.. rather.. it's like a renewal.. :)

Two verses spoken by Pst CK during cg last nite that stuck me deep..
"Don't lose the ability to explore.." Very often, we get caught being stuck in the old mindset.. the old way of doing things..

Another thing that struck me deep.." How do i know that God is with me? That I walking right with God?" "Am i doing things that requires God's intelligence/ strength/ providence... etc"

Holy Spirit reminded me of what He impressed upon me during the last part of choir prac when we worshipped God.. "God has not forgotten about me.. He remembers..." I was sooo touched... tonight, during the ministry time the same feeling came again.. and also, things became clear.. I know why am I here for.. to get to know God on a deeper level and in return to help bring His message (the Gospel) to those who have yet heard..

Now i need to zzzz... yay! Sat is coming.. I think I'll be in PINK again...

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Lk 5:36 to 39
Then He spoke a parable to them: "No one puts a piece from a new garment on an old one; otherwise the new makes a tear, and also the piece that was taken out of the new does not match the old. And no one puts new wine into old wineskins; or else the new wine will burst the wineskins and be spilled, and the wineskins will be ruined. But new wine must be put into new wineskins, and both are preserved. And no one, having drunk old wine, immediately desires new; for he says, 'The old is better.' "

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:39:00 AM

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Friday, October 07, 2005

*zzzzzzzzzzzzz*

tooo tired... offline soon...

sayonnara!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:48:00 AM

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*nEat...*

yes, once again.. I'm gonna be a scribe again.. I guess I like order yet am rather disorganised... frankly.. I've a lot of notes yet transcribed into my notebooks..

meantime.. let me rewrite tonite's notes again...

ya.. am very C right? :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:52:00 AM

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

*discovery...self-discovery..*

hmm why the title? perhaps, i still trying to figure myself out.. hmm it's very enlightening to uncover aspects of yourself that you never realised until it was brought to light... Well, one would think that the person that knows one's best would be yourself.. nOpe.. cUz often, you can't see your own flaws, you can't see what the brain tries to suppress, you can't see cuz you were blinded... by the forces of this world..

frankly, without God, i reckon that I might have already become a resident of the hougang chalet.. seriously...thank God I didn't..

thrU' bible study this evening.. revelation to why I was feeling the way I was feeling.. cuz I created so.. I wonder when .. [the lovely dovey song from Snow White is playing in my head...]

It's abt 3am now.. I wonder why I'm still at this.. writer's block? cuz having been composing this since 1+ and this is all that I got out of my head.. cuz the filter just filtered most of what mione wishes to say... yet... not...

perplex.. complex..

I think I need rest... ya.. i do...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:03:00 AM

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*Princess's reCEnt Dreams

*Princess's Past Dreams