He reigns.

Sunday, July 31, 2005

*Rachel.. I will miss ya!*

Just ended my chat with rachel.. (haha.. she just realised that I'm 4 years older than her!).. just seems like the good old days that we used to “煲电话粥”in the wee hours of the nite.. (not that long ago.. just a year ago?) haha.. didn't realise that we chatted for more than one hour 5min (that's what's my call summary showed) gal... thanks for sacrificing your beauty sleep... Understood why you don't want us to send u off..

well.. hopefully the plans we discussed on phone just now will come to pass...

have a safe journey back.. miss ya.. catch ya online... :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:08:00 AM

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*Healing..*

God is good.. all the time God is good.

To my dear friends...
Guys.. thanks for your prayers! I'm healed of the nagging pain @ that lower back area... (else i won't be the energerizer bunny on stage for s2 & s3 earlier..)

Andreas.. thanks for sending the email to God!He has answered! :)

Cuiqi... I will pass the test.. funny how the test could have passed from you to me.. "cross-faculty" module? Gal.. u take care ah... rest well okie.. hope u dUn need to OT that much next week...

Huiling.. glad that u like your pressie.. :) [sorry.. not in time to make ya a card...] See ya at BS.. go our normal one okie? or the 6pm one?

Jacelyn.. I know that you will like ya card & pressie.. (cuz I adore them too..) haha.. memorable birthday celebration at the prata sHop just now right?

Ok.. c'est tout.. (for now..)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:19:00 AM

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*Glossary*

hmmm apparently, some of my cellgroup members (okok not really same cg, but was from the same cg prior to multiplication last yr) reads my blog now... hmmm they are confused abt the fruitbasket...
well.. it may seems that there are many fruits mentioned in my blog... but well.. there's only one fruit that i like ... unnamed...
Just to shed some light... strawberry refers to me. banana is huiling. out of scope, nothing to do with the fruitygame.

Glossary
kiwi ~ an inspiration, a role model that I look up too.. (unlikely to have any progress)
strawberry ~ when it's not me, it refers to another MOG. another inspiration...
blueberry ~ my friend.. good friend
~~unnamed ~ the one that I adore... do u know? i doubt so.. or maybe.. hmmm...~~
p.s all of them are MOG.. in case u wondering..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:44:00 AM

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

*Urgh...*

he thinks I'm not getting his point..
neither is he getting my point...

Urgh...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:20:00 AM

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Friday, July 29, 2005

*What the world would never take [the music]*

Just changed my background music... lyrics can be found in my earlier entry
http://hermionejas-thoughts.blogspot.com/2005/07/what-world-will-never-take.html

Hmm.. Cellgroup meeting was great.. Like what i told some of my pals over msn, it was like a continuation message from bible study on wed.

Gotta be ever hungry spiritually. Never quench the Holy Spirit.. I took down a lot of notes since my day one as a child of God.. What I need to do is to internalise them... :) let u peep at my notes taken at cg today(i mean thurs nite) ~ which i will transfer to my notebook soon... [am so C rite??]

* This my sermon note [pageone] for once.. i was that neat in my "draft" copy.
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* Page Two of my sermon notes ~ ha.. incidentally that's the songsheet for today.. :) a simple layout today cuz I was really tight with time. :)

wellwell.. things that He wants me to do... BIG! Let me just sum it up that I'm not gonna care what the world thinks.. the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

btw decided NOT to join pris & emmy @ their diving trip this Aug.. OUT of budget!! I wanna build God's house 1st!!! Am believing in my financial breakthru's!! cuz the pledged amount is BY faith!!

What's On 7th Aug? (it's a sunday!!)
Do you ever felt helpless and seems to be at loss what to do?
Do you ever felt fearful and don't know what to be done?
Do you feel lost even though you are among throngs of people?
Do you know where you're heading? What's are you here for??

Four years ago.. I nodded my head to all of the above... It was such a divine thingy that I decided to turn up for the vnr outing at the zhichar @ the foodcourt opp bras basah complex four years ago. Cuz if I don't turn up.. I would not have found out who My Maker is.. or rather... I would not have this relationship with My Maker, who never forsake me a second, who is always there for me, 24-7. {for the un-initiated, ming invited me to the anniversay at that dinner.. the rest is history!} to think i almost didn't wanna go to that dinner.. :) Praise the Lord that I did!! :)

Now my answer to the above.. No. cuz I've the Helper/ Comforter/ Teacher 24-7. hence if you guys wanna know Him too...come on down to SIS ~ singapore indoor Stadium this sunday morning!! you life will never be the same again!!

Each day that I live, I live it unto the Lord. :) ~ hence, live it to the max as it should be. cuz each day you live, you live it once.. and my life is redeemed by His precious blood...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:28:00 AM

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

*back... Praying for HEALing...*

hmm.. haven't been online for ages... (previous blog entries were all via email/ phone)

hmmm think the effectiveness of the painkiller is wearing off.. (the bone area feels like ripping apart when i walk ~ ya.. i usually brisk walk.. but don't think it'll make difference~ or any action that involves moving my lower body...)

Today's bs was great.. God's presence was soo strong.. even before the lesson started/ during the pnw.. was touched by His Presence.. (ya.. touch of refreshing from the horrendous day i'd) ALways to be led by the Holy Spirit. TO be engulfed by Him and always to be sensitive to Him... :)
~ not vai what I can see, but always to be led by the Holy Spirit.

had a very good chat with banana.. gal.. now u know all my fruits.. right from the start.. (but the fruits remained between the two of us okie?)hmm .. heehee.. ya.. wonder why u shocked that my kiwi = the other kiwi.. they are the same ma.. heehee.. but to me.. kiwi is like your guava.. why kiwi? haha.. it was actually before the other gal's durian vs kiwi... am very inspired by kiwi.. :) but hmm.. currently.. empty salad bowl... but it's ok... u know who strawberry likes best now.. but hmm.. no progress.. wellwell.. His timing.. :)
ling.. gald that this blog did inspired u bitsy... ooh.. forgot to trim ya brows... u want me do it on ya birthday? :) I'm free after serving s2.. :) sms okie?
oh, thanks for the little turtle on the leaf!!!!! :)

heehee.. buttercup.. me didn't get tripped by banana.. i fell cuz i lost balance.. shouldn't be the hump.. perhaps uneven ground.. speaking of which.. am feeling the pain still.. Hoping for a miracle healing by sat! :)

kiki.. miss ya.. let's catch up soon okie.. my two nos are still in use... call me/sms me okie?

okie... am gonna fellowship with my Maker.. ciaos...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:11:00 AM

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

*the malice virus had spread...*

not that i'm suffering from any illness.. [except for that lower back pain ~ which i must say that the pain-killer does wonder..~ imagine I can brisk walk, go up/down the stairs without feeling the pain, which i would without the medi ~ hopefully by sunday, which is when the medication will run out, I need not rely on it.]

what virus you may ask.. i reckon that some people just enjoy spreading things.. (nah, not your kaya on your toast). to the one who begins all this :: what goes around, comes around. Just sad that you gals are being used as tools by the devil in his feeble attempt to create an undesirable working environment for yours truly and trying to induce me to the IT mode... well you can't defeat me in this. Anyway, you won't be reading this a..(but if you do, just let you know that I have eyes and ears and ability to discern ) will be praying for you nevertheless.. gals.. it's fun to gather and talk.. just wait till you are the topic in question.. I've not done anything wrong so , whatever you say, would not stand with time.. (just like what you like to talk about boss).. well, at least you help me open my eyes.. anyway, if you want to soar like eagles, you do not hang around turkeys. let me dedicate this song by green day to you.. "time of my life". oh by the way the full title is "time of my life (good riddance)".

to the source of this malice virus.. hey.. we believe in the same God, why are you persecuting me? well, will be praying for you nevertheless.. gal.. if you wanna progress on.. move on.. if you don't.. go on and air your grievances & instigate others to feel the same way as you do.. afterall, you don't get to judge me.. My Maker does..(if you want, you can, the consequences is not within my purview) seriously for your own good, please stop. my God will not let me be tested beyond the limits I can bear...

back to work.. (i.e. doing the work of what ms malice virus should be doing but failed to do.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 9:35:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

*Hmm... wonder why...*

Some people are paid to walk around and gossip.. and I was tasked to complete their jobs (what they are to do but procrastinate due to difficulty). Well.. why don't the organisation rationalise and perhaps give me just 25% of their pay? (afterall, [paying me the extra 25% ~ me doing their job & streamline the extras would save 75% of the payroll on the extras.])

hmm.. lamenting? Not really.. Just doing the best i can to help! :) well.. everything i do, I do it unto the Lord. Well.. had the most unusual dream last nite..it seemed sooo real.. and i wanted it to be so.. especially one portion! the portion with the answer "yes".. the moment was magical! [the chorus to the song "When you say nothing at all" best described that portion of the dream]I woke up somepoint after... was rather :( that it was merely a dream... hmmm.. i wonder if this dream is a glimpse into the future.. woke up.. glanced at the clock.. it was only 4am..)

haha... back to work

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:09:00 PM

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Monday, July 25, 2005

*Just swelling, nothing major. ?*

Just went to doc. Likely that i've injured my hip bone. Swelling at that area, but unlikely anything broken. Praise the Lord! It was a tad expensive, $46 for è painkiller and gel to reduce swelling.

Well, at least i know that i didn't hurt my spinal cord. ?
thanks to my palies who sent their regards. ?

the bad thing is that i gotta minimise moving around.. Should recover in 7days.
Think should b ok by sat. Its my week 4 choir. ?

but later gotta go get present 4 bro ryan n chris. Hmm i think it should b settled quite fast. ?

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:37:00 PM

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

*In PAIN....*

hmm.. lesson 101 on blading.. Lean forward when u're to fall.. DON"T ever lean back and land on ur buttocks..

yup.. went eastcoast with the w285 peeps.. Shaoyang, Monique, Emmy, Priscilla, Terence, Chris Lee, Mak, Andy and Christina, Sis siew choo and her friend carol, (long joined us for dinner)

wellwell.. As one that has fear of falling (yet, I believe I've a high endurance for pain.. ), it's indeed not easy for me to try to try blading.. I guessed I feel more at ease when i'm totally in touch with the ground? BUT .. i like to play... hence.. despite of the stinko guards on loan.. yup (gotta psycho my ultra-sensitive nose to endure the "BO" emerging from the guards to let them touch my skin!)

well.. special thanks to Shaoyang, who patiently teached us (chris, pris and me) on the basics.. for myself.. I guess I'm a stick in the mud.. but at least.. I got pass the stage of clinging onto the railing and ya.. did ventured on the road.. did touch ground with the tar road a no. of times.. somehow, I just forgot sHaoyang's repeated comment ~ keep ya cg low, lean forward. Fall forwards then backwards.. cuz u're "fully amoured" ~ refering to the guards . Well.. was making kinda progress when i slipped and ya.. fell HARD backwards.. hmmm I must have landed on the tailbone? or some other bone.. hopefully did not the spinal cords area.. the pain was beyond description.. well.. that's how i felt.. well.. really wanna thank shaoyang who helped me up and shared with me his painful fall.. and haha.. his sweet (so that i won't cry!)~ ha,, thoughtful guy!

well..despite the painful fall.. I still wanna learn.. (well. if I'd learned cycling without falling.. why can't i conquer this?)

well... if some of you think i've wandered to space at some point in time during the steamboat dinner.. well.. IT struck..... but i tried to overcame it by distracting myself. ...

Can actually save the trouble of walking if I take the bus 15 to the interchange & transfer another bus but I chose to walk to east coast rd and take bus 12. (every step that I take is with pain.. I think i cannot lift my legs .. the walking movement & climbing of steps actually HURTS but I walked on~ hence i said, I've high endurance of pain.. just dun let me see blood!). Walking cleared my mind.. :)

one thing i realised.. I thought the fruit game is hard to be stopped.. I tried and failed. strawberry needs another fruit to accompany her in the salad bowl.

hmmm thanks to the thoughtful ones who asked me how i was. mon & terence. thanks.. :) hopefully the pain will subside when i wake up.. (it's a TORTURE to lie on my back now) will be laying hand on that area now..

in pain... physically, emotionally.... but will strive on....

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:49:00 PM

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*Do you know where you're going to?*

Do i?

I know I'd heard this week sermon before.. the law of potential.

Potential is the unexposed ability and hidden power ~ It's not what I'd already done, but is what I can do, but have yet to do.
God is the source of all potential. ~ potential: came from the word "potent.' God is omnipotent (God is always powerful.)
Every great thing starts potentially with a "seed idea". ~ seed has already been sowed.
Nothing potentially great in life is ever instant. ~ certainly.. in the waiting phase.. like the clay vase on the self.. waiting..
Potential is released by hard work.
To maximise potential, I need to use my talent and ability to its full capacity.~ the stretching!
Constant comparison with others can harm potential. True success is not measured by how much you have done compared to others, but how much you have done compared to God wants you to do.
Past experiences can hinder faith and harm potential. Yes.. Allowed that to happen but not gonna to again.
To maximise potential, I need to obey the law of limitation~ law of limitation (operate within the boundary given by God. boundary defined by God's laws and commandment.)
Potential is maximised when you share it with others.

Well... I know that I'm actually operating under capacity.. am not going the way i should be going.. steering myself towards that... believing by faith that I can proceed ahead with God's plan. I really need the financial breakthrough.. else.. I would still be doing what I'd done for the last 4 years for quite a period to come. i will not intro myself as a tax auditor for a loooong period of time..

Question :: do i know where i'm going... well.. with the same idea stuck in me for past 3 years, I should think it's clear.... the path is clearing but i've yet reach there yet...

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1 Cor 2:9 ".. Eye has not seen, nor heard, nor had entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him."

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:30:00 PM

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*What the world will never take*

With all i'm holding inside,
With my hopes and desires,
All the dreams that i've dreamt.
With all i'm hoping to be,
All that the world would bring,
And all that fails to compare.

You say You want all of me,
I won't have it any other way.

I've got a Saviour, and He's living in me.
Woah, i wanna know,
I wanna know You today.
You're the best thing that has happened to me.
And the world will never take,
The world will never take You away.
No one could ever take You away.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:50:00 PM

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*IT (part 2)*

man... I hate it when I feel IT creeping upon again!!

In the midst of the virtual-conversation I had with some in the yahoochat room.. I just feel that I'm like an EXTRA in midst of the conversation... somehow or another, felt rather intrusive in their conversation.. hmm.. Y??

am not seeking for attention.. somehow, felt that at times.. no one seems to be listening.. if no one bother to listen.. shall i even air my views?? not of importance perhaps?

Gee.. can't help it... Am wondering if there is an IT season??

Frankly, the last thing I wanna do is to head to east coast later.. the thing i wish to do now is have a pityparty... but shall not do that... else.. am heading on downward spiral again!

gee.. why is my sight blurry? can u stop flowin...

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My soul cries out for more of You
My Lord, My portion and soul
I close my eyes, and feel You near
There's nobody else that can take Your place
In my heart

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:46:00 AM

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*Blogging from phone*

Hihi.. Tis a test to try bloging from my hp. ?

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:13:00 AM

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

*Mission accomplished..*

Finally finished the 3 cards.. one of them is my personal favourite.. hmm.. no special treatment to anyone of them. hmmm jacelyn's still in the pipeline...

good nite!

oh my gosh.. It's close to 6am soon... [i gotta stop this late nights/early mornings!]

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:37:00 AM

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*Friday.. A day that totally went... haha not my ideal day*

from the two posts previously, you must have reckon that I'd a very eventful Friday!!
I think the source of feeling like crap was due to sleeping only 2 hours last nite. [Like what my friends say.. i never sleep?] was up cuz was fine-tuning this new skin.. :)

R8ch.. sorry for being the super-touchy gal just now.. I make it up later okie..

buying an umbrella makes me happy... at least this was what brightened my day! I bought this PINK umbrella from espirit.. [last piece in store!!] at $9.90.. okok.. know that it ain't exactly cheap.. but.. it's PINK!

THink i was tooo tired. I was waiting for the train on the north-bound platform instead of the south~bound! and I happily wondered why "train to arrive in 2 minutes" never seems to crystalise... Yikes..to my horror, I was waiting for train towards the north direction!! Instead, spent 6 more minutes waiting. Below is the picture taken with my hp while waiting..

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sleepy.. but I got to do up the three cards.. haha!! And to create a box...

hence.. I'm outa here..

yay! I'm going WILd WILD WET later!!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:51:00 AM

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Friday, July 22, 2005

*IT*

hmm... shouldn't be feeling this way... Let me paint the picture of my mind.
The picturesque scenery on the snowy white canvas is peppered with dark clouds. I know I shouldn't feel this way. Man, i hate it creeping on me. I nearly flared up at rachel just now when i saw her sms to delay the meeting time.. Let just say that this just one trigger point {i'm not even angry.. I just hate it that i nearly sounded irriated over my sms reply.}

mione, why are you such a emotional creature.. ?? hmmm Praise the Lord that blogger has this email function of blogging.. I blog when i wanted to release what's building up inside.

My brain seems to register things in my mind that I have no idea why i can recall, those incidents, which at that moment in time meant nothing to me then. Recently these hidden memories came poppin out at the most normal places that i go to... and bring to remembrance things that I tried not to think of.. For example.. the food court I went for lunch today.. I could recall certain portions of the conversation... [btw this is nothing negative... just normal conversation.. don't even know what struck me to remember that.]

I should start writing stories.. I think too much? Do I? I think I'm highly imaginative or over-imaginative.. Or too sensitive? Too dramatic?

The nagging thoughts in my head and the "interesting" things that happened today aided in those dark clouds appearing.. Shall not fall into the snares of the satan. Man, hate it when itcomes. [it is not = pms in case u're guessing.] shall not let it cause any upheaval again!

My form source of solace.. God, Jesus & Holy Spirit.

So I look to You, so I look to You

No one else will do, No one else will do.

A cheerful heart is good medicine. Proverbs 17:22

Yikes.. I may have to go to my bedok nth tmw morning.. my medi just ran out.. hmm troublesome to travel all the way there.. haiz.. serve the procrastinator right for procrastinating to replenish the supply. another $35..

yay.. received rach's sms.. time to go! tata!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:52:00 PM

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*Spices and Sugar*

All man created by God has a pair of eyes, a pair of eyes.. etc and a heart to feel. And being of a substantial physical form, it not easy to NOT to spot a human being walking pass you.

Hence, it's not likely that a person (with no physical disability) could have walk passed and don't hear/see what's around him/her. Unless he/she is invisible? Hmmm.. or perhaps, some people's eyes have the additional function called fitering. Obviously, he/she is aware of the things going around, even if he/she pretend not to see anything.. [hey, he/she perhaps should consider moonlighting at mediacOrp!!]

Hmmm, it's human nature to air their grievances or the supposedly undeserved treatment they received to people around them, or gather their support group against the "target board" [support group formed via canvassing for compassionate votes using the most powerful organ in the body ~ the tongue!] . However, before you point the finger at others, have you take a look at the plank in your eyes? If what you were correct, would anyone in the right frame of mind create additional chores for you for no apparent reason? Well, the perceived suffer would likely complain and for some who are worse, would actually bad-mouth the unfortunate-well-meaning-helping-you-to-improve target.

Do you like to be ostracized? A normal person with feelings would abhor that! Hey, principle of seedtime and harvest applies to everything in life! Hence, what goes around, comes around! Remember, you are not the one who judges all things in life!!

Food for thought.

Would gossiping/complaining about a person in the face of the person, but done in a hushhush manner, be considered “talking behind people's back”?
No reaction = Not reception? [translate: no reaction to the surroundings translate that he/she did not know what's going around?] chances are ~ unlikely!

The most dangerous killers are those that operate in the dark!

This write-up is dedicated to people who "spice" up my life! Thanks for being the tests!! You guys certainly add color to mundane tasks! and the motivation to keep on moving on!! (:

For the sugar candies that sweeten my life, I thank God for you in my life as well. :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:42:00 PM

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*Push your experiences to the level of your faith*

This is the phase in the whole cellgroup sermon that left a big impact on me..

well.. if you apply the converse, you will never step out of where you are, to get to where God wants you to be.

All you need to do is to step across that boundary that you have draw, raise the faith ceiling that you have set on yourself...

This week was a week of breakthroughs for mione.. I guessed sitting on the stage for 1hour 45min with close to 60pairs of eyes staring at you, waiting for the CORRECT answer instantly, had delivered me from the "stage fright" or rather "fear of public speaking". for once.. I did not have the jitterys when i was giving testimony today.. guys who are in the same cellgrp as me for the past 4 years would know that u would rarely see mione's hands in the air during testimony time.. as evident from my blog, there have been many praise-worthy acts of God in my life.. Just that mione had this fear of speaking out loud! it's easier to get me to sing aloud that talk aloud! heehee.. in short.. lack of confidence cuz felt inadequate in the language department.. [amazingly, my spoken mandarain is far better than my english.. ] wellwell.. glad that I'd overcame this language hurdle.. or rather self-judgement..

New skin/ song is in line with a renewed/refined dream.. During the cellgroup sermon, God implanted a new dream in me.. not that the new replace the current unfulfilled one.. just that this redefine the dimension of the unfulfilled dream.. During ministry time, God gave me a vision.. I saw friends sending me off at the airport.. I was on my way to pursue the course of my desire... Timing? I don't know.. It ain't revealed.. or should i say, I wasn't sure..? hmm... the old and new put together now make sense to me the two words that Holy Spirit put in my heart last month... Am in the decision stage.. ya... it involves letting go of something.. (actually a lot of things!) well.. let me seek Him for the direction...

I think I wanna stop the fruit game for the time being.. perhaps till my birthday? More important things to do... well.. it's His timing.. not mine!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:20:00 AM

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Thursday, July 21, 2005

*the longer post on my wednesday.. the epc seminar..*

Hmm… Guess where am I now.. yup..am now in office… VERY tempted to report sick again but failed to convince my mind that my headache is still there.. hmmm.. reason for reporting sick is that I just wanna laze around at home.. (my bed is really comfy and many a times I was lured to slumberland by a few minutes on it.. ~ or maybe I was toooo tired?)

A brief update since my last real post…
Was really worn out on Tuesday.. rachel gotta run errands for her dad, hence was out alone.. good anyway cuz I need to buy birthday presents for two sweeties whose birthday happen to fall on the same day!! Bought this really sweet thingy @ Jo’s craft, looks very nice on me.. but gotta spend wisely now.. Can’t shop at will now, fortunately, I’m the unofficial birthday IC, hence, I’ve the opportunity to shop still!! Lugged back my acts/regulations/ notes in hope to read up for the seminar on Wednesday [cuz my technical knowledge kinda stink!] wellwell.. I zonked out after one round of rehearsal cuz of my headache…

Wednesday, woke up at 5am with that headache still [laid hands on my head & throat, praying that headache will go away & my voice be restored!] Tried reading the notes… went into hypnotize mode.. yikes, woke up again at 7am.. did my make-up (usually, I don’t apply make-up for work) and chose the stripes suit.. reached Le Meridien at 845! Yippie, headache gone!! Yikes.. the first two speakers spoke real fast. We had our break at 940 instead of the scheduled 10:15!! Well, the presentation was alright.. though at one point in time.. some technical hiccups but it went well.. [though at some point in time, I felt like I was speaking in tongues!] the grueling Q&A session lasted about 135minutes long! And I was sorta left to my own to answer the questions (cuz was separated from the rest of my more experienced colleagues). I was tempted to pass all the paper slips to them but didn’t. Racked my head for the answers ( I’m not really a walking gst guide.. I lack the passion for the techie knowledge!). Was really desperate.. and prayed silently for Holy Spirit to give me wisdom for the answers!! I nearly panicked when people from the floor directed the questions to Ms Choong.. Yikes! Thank God for the wisdom and managed to gave the answer. Miraculously, I survived the session, but at some moment in time, I don’t even know what I was talking.. but since my other two colleagues did not correct it, I reckon that I did not make any wrong remarks! Praise the Lord that it was over.. (but will be on the panel for gst class in sept again).

But guessed that this was rather stressful for me, which resulted in my nauseous and headache after the session (in fact, the pukey feeling came upon me while I was on stage). Hence, took half day leave and went back home to rest. Didn’t really sleep much.. think at most 30 minutes? Chatted with Rachel for about 40min.. haha.. missed the good old days that I chatted with her endlessly at nite.. ended up watching the canto drama serials till 530.. and zipped off to meet huiling for Bible study!

During bs, felt Pastor Zhuang spoke right into my heart when he was talking on having the zoe life of God. [ I was contemplating with taking mc on thurs..cuz I sorta dreaded to go work..] well.. I know that it is definitely not a good testimony to be always on MC. Hence, stopped psycho*ing myself to induce the headache back! Haha!

Hmm.. I think I can be a walking jukebox/ songs repository.. keke.. sang the bridge part of Glorious Redeemer over the phone to Gwen just now.. (wow.. she very up to date hor?? ) felt kinda weird cuz office is rather quiet and haha I gotta sing!! u need any lyrics to pnw songs.. just call me keke..

ziv, as much as I had blogged earlier in expressing my desire to leave this current job, it ain't the time yet.. haha..btw if you really want to invest in hermione's creations.. haha.. I can be the one-sweetie-operation churning out the products! haha!

Okie.. back to finish up my work.. am serving God via working.. haha..
yeah! cellgroup later..

One thing I ask, that I may dwell in Your house forever....

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:03:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

*Sad... someone flew my plane..*

Haiz... but then.. it's good.. cuz I'm not feeling well.. feverish now..

Think I will nap a bit... then rehearse.. then read up on the notes... seems like going for exam..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 6:11:00 PM

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*Oh my GOsh!!!*

the "sotong" syndrome strikes again!!

The EPC seminar is on WEDNESDAY (tomorrow) and NOT Thursday!!! Oh man.. Thank God that I've decided to do the slides last nite.. else... I think I will panick BIG time.. Thank God that Aifeng reminded me (cuz I had originally signed up for another talk tomorrow morning), else.. gee.. I think I will need to revise my GST Stuff this afternoon... Yikes.. And take the legislations home... haha, for those who will see me for Bible Study tomorrow.. I will be super formal.. Yikes.. gotta dig out the suit again... (haven't worn them in AGES)

Think I gotta cut short tonight with r8ch.. :(

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 10:12:00 AM

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*yay! I finished my scripts to my slides*

Finally... I finished what I wanted to finish.. think will spend tmw nite rehearshing then...

Wellwell... Did sOme 'spring cleaning'. Well.. guessed whatever was dumped had served its purpose. [hopefully not the adverse way!!] Maybe they should not be there in the first place... Yikes.. reckless!!
I guess if I do drive... I will be a reckless one.. [which is why I've not book my basic theory test till date].. if you don't catch what I'm trying to say.. it's okay...

I'm tired... yay.. going to glaze stars @ near the esplanade with rachel later.... so romantic right??

hahha....

Won't be romantic but will be fun cuz it's with my bestie palie ... the pixie r8ch!

p.s. hopefully the reckless candy have not caused any massive destruction... had she not learnt?

To everything there is a season,

A time for every purpose uner heaven

Ecc 3:1

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:45:00 AM

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*i give up...it's hard to multi-task!!*

I think I blog after I finish my slides...
Can't blog/ chat/do my slides concurrently!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:20:00 AM

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Monday, July 18, 2005

*my monday so far...*

Realised that I can actually blog via email.. [actually I knew it long time back, just that didn’t activate it till last night.]

Matter of fact. I almost didn’t want to report for work this morning. However, my voice was back, hence no legitimate excuse not to.. hence currently now at novena. Well, glad that I did.. cuz I realized that I have not prepare for the public seminar this Thursday! And praise the Lord that I did not lose my voice… Else, my replacement would need to take over me.

Hmmm. Breakfast consisted of the yummicious Tim Tam Dangerous Liaisons biscuits that r8ch flew them back from aussie. Very sinful and bad for my throat.. but finished the packet anyway… here’s the description of the biscuits “ An irresistible streak of white chocolate surrounded by dark chocolate cream & rich chocolate biscuits, all enveloped within seductively smooth milk chocolate….” Yummy!! here's the pix!

It’s lunch time soon but I don’t think I’ll be lunching ... gotta finish up my slides for the EPC seminar.. and read up the notes.. cuz gotta sit in as the panelist as well... yikes.. my technical knowledge rusty already..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:57:00 AM

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*Problem Solving*

Judges 7:6 'Then the LORD said to Gideon, 'By the three hundred men ... I will save you, and deliver the Midianites into your hand. Let all the other people go ..'

When you don't know what to do, work out what NOT to do.

Methodical elimination will leave you with your answer.

Make a list of the possible answers and delete the least likely.

Identify 'who' and 'what' won't work.

You'll be left with the best.

Don't think that big is always best.

A little may achieve more than a lot.

The entire world is founded on the seed principle.

Big things come from small seeds.

They're easy to overlook.

The process of elimination uncovers the best answers.

from the leadership files

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:18:00 AM

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*Misunderstanding?? the Power of the tongue*

Don't belittle this little organ of yours..

Yes, it lays hidden behind your teeth most of the time. without it.. whatever you consume will be tasteless. Without it, you won't be able to speak.
Most importantly, the words you speak can either bring edification or bring one down to the pits.

The tongue, though small, is a lethal weapon. How does things like gossip/ slander comes about? Have you been the victim of wrongful accusations? Not exactly a great feeling to be falsely accused.
How about broken friendship due to misunderstanding as a result of misrepresentation of facts from others??

Without clarifications and discernment, one will tend to take in everything at the book value. but that doesn't mean to be skepitcal about everything.. but discern!

lesson learn today :: watch your tongue! watch what you say. Don't give devil a chance to use your words against you!

hmm.. nope. I was not the target board this time round. but I'm glad I'd sort things out and well.. despite that the log in the other laptop was not "submitted", i really believed his words. Not being biased or what.. well... anyway... it's all history.

Death and life are in the power of the tongue,
And those who love it will eat its fruit.
Proverbs 18:21

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:07:00 AM

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*happy...*

really I am...
I think only one person knows why cuz I called her... or maybe two (if the second person is senstive enough)

gee... minty minty!!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:09:00 AM

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

*am not in the best of mood today..*

am still wondering should i go to vory's graduation party tonight.. cuz

think i've overstrained my voice.. hopefully, it's not a case of losing of voice again... no longer i speak.. i "croak" ~ sigh sigh... ya.. i lost my voice... :(
am not in the best of mood at the very present moment.. due to?? I don't know... something that's not even in existence??

Is this it? or am i over sensitive? Or the things I do aren't appropriate ? Or perhaps.. I'd missed the kairos time?

~~~ sighsigh~~~~

read jo's msg to me in friendster.. Gal.. I missed ya birthday... happy belated birthday!!! hmm.. am i rising up? in the process of... :) hope to catch you this wed? (that is provided if I attend the bs at Heart of God. )

think i should be going... to vory's party.. promised her already... anyway.. that'll cheer me up i hope!

The joy of the Lord is my strength. :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:29:00 PM

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*period of silence...*

am feeling rather mixed up inside....
haiz....

was rather tired today (slept like only 3 hours? before getting ready for s2) but i just dOn't feel like talking.. hence I chose to go with the w285 gals to makan instead of going home via mrt... we headed to bukit timah for prata, was rather fun.. haha.. hmm.. I feel closer to the gals of w285 then my own cg.. but I gotta take the initiative to gel the gals together... esp to fellowship after service.. (brother ryan spoke to me briefly just now, in midst of his conversation with max ... actually just yvonne & the new gal friends that ryan hoped that we could retain)

Actually.. think my mind was at another planet while at supper at bukit timah with the gals.. sigh..
after sending the rest of the 285 gals, emmy and I had a good long chat on route back to pasir ris.. hmm seems that monique ain't the only one who sensed that..... but sigh... I also don't know... do i or do i not???

actually i'm sorta affected by what I learnt from joyce last nite .. if you have anything to comment.. why don't you tell me direct? why did you complain to her abt me? are you shocked to learn that i do actually talk to her? (unles that's before u told me abt it.. but since it concern me, why don't you tell me direct??) gee.. why am i so concerned about your opinion ??

Haiz.....

got more impt thing to focus.. let God do the rest!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:07:00 AM

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*precious...*

What's precious to me will be precious to God!

hmmm.. interesting months ahead... Sensed in the Spirit that something major on the way.. gonna be a long gruling period ahead... the warfare already started way before the pledging... it was a gruesome day on Tuesday.. those who knew abt it.. thanks for ya prayers.... frankly.. after the horrendous incident on Tues.. I was having second thoughts if I should go choir prac after bs.. I'm glad I did... (though this move was reciprocated with more harsh & hostile words on Thurs morning... ) but God is good.. all's cleared by thurs 3pm..
in short.. be viliglant in ALL areas.. he's gonna attack all areas...

but I really wanna thank long (for his encouraging words) and rachel.. yay! my best palie is back from aussie... She'd made me promised not to tell anyone until sat service cuz she wanna spring surprises on them... haha.. i got to see the prize look of huiling & ivory when they saw her.. the most "exciting" would be long's reaction... hahaha.. he spotted her before she "accidentally" bumped into him at convocation on friday.. long & joyce's covo was fun (haha.. we ~ huiling, vory, r8ch, sister zhoumin & me had such a fun time snapping our own photos.. haha!! as if it's our covo!!)

hmm... actually I've lots to blog.. but... hmm... perhaps another time... ? let me freshen up 1st! it'd been a tiring week.. served for prayer meeting and s2&s3 this week.. and glad that I'm given the opportunity to do that...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:36:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

*the counter is working...THis is Post no. 407!!*

Was pleasantly surprised to see the no of posts at my dashboard to changed to 405 when i logged on! (ie. before I blogged the previously post!) The counter was STUCK at 132 for at least half a year since Nov 04?

man... I'm really long-winded gal...

haha

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:40:00 AM

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*An eventful monday*

I got a mysteriously phonecall at 11pm on sunday nite... Surprised? hmmm yes... haha.. I can really act right?

Caught initial D.. with my dearie pal.. Edison is soooooooo cute! Watching the show makes me feel like finally making the step to head down to ubi to take the BT. ..

Gee.. felt rather bad that my pal's wallet went amissing after the show.. it was only after I bought my drinks at Spinelli that she realised that it was missing... retraced our route.. even went back to the cinema theatre (thanks to the manager who relented and let us in to search but to no avail..)
Met Andreas outside Tangs.. sorry.. kinda ended our conversation abruptly cuz was gonna catch a cab to the police station to lodge a report..

dearie pal.. am sure God will lead the wallet back to you! see ya really soon.... ps. I love the fairy and fairy dust u gave me...

MAx.. thanks for ya encouragement!! AM really sorta pulling my hair.. am up now cuz had just ran thru' second trial of my training later ( My 1st training session using my self-created ppt!) Gotta thank God for the ability to finish everything by noon time. It was a rushrush monday for me , cuz I gotta a tight schedule (gee i forgot to check the price.. of the multitab for the project.. yikes.. gotta call suppliers?? ) .. am gonna start working on a team member's cases.. Ops.. I'd yet sent that email out to inform Urgh... well. it's over.. Tuesday will be Fine!! :)

and thanks to the brother whom I chat with over msn that helped me destress a bit...

Now I'm left with 2 hours to sleep...

byeeeeee I'm out of here.!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:39:00 AM

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Friday, July 08, 2005

*change it or love it...(while i'm still at it..)*

Andres, thanks for dropping by....

Yup.. I know 6 months is a long time to pass disliking the way I pass my time from 8am to 530pm.. (but I'd went through at least 2 cycles of 6 months.. ) well. I guess the most logical one is to start my reSume writing again.. else, I need to love it (which is not that easy.. ) I reckon that the job lost its novelty? Or simply.. it was a make-ends meet kinds job cuz I just went for ONE interview and accepted that offer! (ya.. I was that.. "lazy")

Guessed what I did today.. I only READ one case.. from beginning till the end! (too mind blogging to arrive at a decision.. but then again.. I was on half day leave today.. hence not that productive.

am in the process of making one of that decision!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:25:00 AM

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

*リ一イ一のとほほん族*

haha!! These noddy therapeutic toys from Tomy never failed to cheer me up. (ha, I can remember that they used to be nodding their heads, now they shake their heads from left to right, and right to left.) Kinda regret not buying the 1st generation ones.

Bought the Hello Kitty のとほほん(NoHoHon) on Tuesday. Dunno why, but a look at it just shake my blues away! (easy to please right. )

I think I want to go back to school... Perhaps I shall surf by LaSalle or NAFA site.. Or maybe.. I should save up enough and go SCA in CCC Australia! :) [won't that be fantastic?]

Back to my のとほほん. Looking forward to acquire more of them!!

This is the pink のとほほんthat I'd placed in my office. (next to it is my iPod mini clad in PINK silicon casing! Well.. I think I'vee almost maxed up the storage space of 4G (with 702 songs/sermons at 3.59G)

This is my Hello Kitty のとほほん. So sweet right? Hello Kitty ain't my favorite sanrio character but it sure looks cuter than the pooh bear.

Looking forward to more acquisitions? Certainly.. but not in the near future… Arise and Build!!

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Was talking to huiling after Bible study. Well.. didn't tell her that I share her sentiments too (thought I would sound so “encouraging”. Well, I can't be possibly sms-ing attendance of “4 + 0” rite? (and that's certainly not what he told us..)

Pastor Zhuang shared with us his testimony of giving his wedding fund to the Arise & Build prior to commencement of bible study. Was very encouraged by the move of God. Certainly, the amount to give unto the building fund has increased by 20%! (and this is coming from someone who dun really have much savings! ~ thank God for the “insurance thingy” I bought last year.. at least that helped me to save some $ per month!! ) Told you I'm a bad at accounts (personally no, well, for others.. not too bad! )

I will pledge by FAITH.. cuz I don't have the amount in my savings account! [by my human sight, it would mean my year end bonus, my AVC, and a hefty performance bonus (which means I will need to super-excel)]. But I believe that I will sow in tears and reap in joy!!! And in abundance too!

Haha.. that would mean no vacation, no cab as means of transportation as much as possible (in fact had drastically reduced to responding to the whims of my body.), no upgrading of my phone.. (the nokia 6681 is sooo chio! so is N70 & N90!!), no more shopping! (time to keep the plastic away) not complaining cUz it definitely more worthwhile to invest in the things of eternal value than material possession. [p.s. dear readers, u might consider blessing me with some of those above in the month of November, on the fourteen day!! ]

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:59:00 PM

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*When Will it be the time..*

that it will be the last time I leave the gates of revenue house??

Attended 2 out of the 3 advanced gst workshop (running consecutively from mon to wed). Technically speaking, all participants are to take part in the group discussion after the presenters present their technical paper (i.e. their thesis/ paper to be graded out of this advanced gst course). Guess what.. I'd no questions at all, neither do I see any issues to raise... On monday, I thought I was plain tired, hence brain not functioning... well.. today (wed) guess what ran thru' my mind during the group discussion? well, from I can see.. almost everyone has points to contribute to the discussion.. and they were all very engrossed in the debating of the issues raised.. me.. I just wonder why I'm doing here?? everyone seems to be so passionate abt this.. for me... it didn't even raise a muscle.. frankly, I've no opinion/concerns or whatsoever on the proposed framework.. in fact.. my mind wandered to another realm.. my own fantasy world... or perhaps.. a glimpse into the future... a line that Pastor Kong shared during Saturday service rang in my mind.. "what I have a passion for predicts my future" If this is the last day on earth, would I be living my life the way I'm doing now? NO!!!

certainly, accounting IS NOT my NATURAL inclination... well.. choosing accountancy is definitely going against what I wanted to do.. and really... silly of me to shift my 1st choice to 5th! well.. everything in life has a purpose... but certainly... I know that I would most probably not make it to the 5th year at iras ... the longer I stay... the more negative i can get... i try to pursue spirit of excellence in the things I've been assigned.. but I've NO passion towards tax admin & really.. not inclined to playing office politics!!

After the discussion, realised that dar (who was sitting next to me) shared the same sentiments.. oo.. two of us very much have the INTENTION & MOTIVATION to tender our resignation after getting our bonus in Jan. just that she can't find one that she truly like and me.. sot didn't work out...

for my dear pals who are fresh out of varsity or looking for a job... know what you really want!!!
for myself..not that old yet.. and ya.. it's time.. to get out of that "well" & live the life that God has called me to...

exciting time ahead!!!!!

2Tim1:9
Who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:29:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

*????*

When things seems to be fine.. things just happen… I must have woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

Question:: what difference does it makes? X who report for work at 8am, showed face, bought breakfast, eat and chat till 830; and Y who came for work at 820am. Well.. the similarity is that official working hours start at 8am, start actual work ard 825-830, hence same working hours. The difference is that X get the nod of approval for being punctual in reporting for work (though the same didn’t apply for actually working) and Y is late (though Y start work same time and X)

Irony? Double-standard?

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Movement detected around the earth plates around mt Sweetie at 12:05. Lava spilled a bitsy… thank God that there is no causalities!! Ended up back at office cuz just can’t face any HUMAN being.

matter of fact.. I don’t enjoy what I’m doing… detesting every second of it… hate myself for lacking the guts and motivation to QUIT. Really, if you ask me any tax related stuff.. I won’t be able to rattle off tongue.. cUz what’s not appealing would not stay in my grey matter for long.. how I wish I could turn back the time and go ahead with sOt. But then again.. 2005 is not the year.. so ya, everything is right in God’s timing..
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bingeing .. I hate this.. I realized that there’s two outlets to my depression ~ I either binge.. or starve!

The highly emotional candy bar now crave for RUFFLES.. (though she won't get any...)

Or perhaps, I should head home straight after work and sweat it out at Pasir Ris Beach. or roam ard.. hmmmm

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yikes the training falls on the SAME week as the public seminar! Oh man!!!

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Man.. I’m in a highly emotional state… PMS? Haha… likely… ~~~~~~~

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:35:00 PM

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*Fell asleep...*

I guessed I'm that tired... I fell asleep while waiting for the downloading of iTunes... thought I just take a ten minute zzz ... which became a real good sleep...

had some weird dream... was rather suprised to see something flashing that coincide with my dream when I woke up... haha...

yay.. let me talk to Daddy now! :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:24:00 AM

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Monday, July 04, 2005

*shOpping.. and I sorta dreaded it...*

hmmm.. spent 3 hours ++ to source for the birthday pressies for 3 out of seven of my cellgroup July babies... well.. actually, managed to get susan's rather fast... (within 15 minutes ~ kudos to the person who flew my kite (who argree more or less to accompany to buy the presents ~ asked for help cuz I really dOn't know what to get the 2 guys with $20 budget. ~ well. at least u gave me suggestion for susan's.. Thanks!)

Spent 2 hours roaming ard Wisma/ Ngee Ann City ... trying to find something ... ZARA having sale.. (sad.. didn't bUy anything for myself.. Saw this pair of pastel yellow slip ons with straps.. so sweet.. Thank God, they don't have my size!) Saw this PINK pants at Espirit @ 50% & another pair of PINK pants at $29@ Zara.. but.. they aren't in my shopping basket either.. Figured out that it's not practical. U don't wear pINK pants every other day! ...anyway.. no more newbies to my wardrobe.. cuz building fund is coming.. (and I saw this tote at ProjectBloodBrothers which is of the right optimum huge size to replace my 1.5year old WORN out red espirit cordurory bag.. didn't make it home either.. am cash-strapped!! perhaps I will indulge on this when i get my AVC on July 12)... Saw this mulit-colour sheep @ hushhush for 19.90.. it soooo soft & cuddly!!! so cute!(within the $20 budget! but not my birthday!!) hmmm.. perhaps, i can buy my own birthday present? haha..

Evidently, I didn't managed to get much joy out of this shopping trip... but at 8:45, i finally made the last purchase for gift for one of the brothers (which exceeds the budget by $9.. well.. hermione sponge up the remainder.. (p.s. am not that affluent.. but it's a blessing to give right?? freely give and freely you'll receive!) i reckon that I couldn't be able to find what I promised him for $20 & I'm really tired by then.. hence decided to just go for the kill.. haha... hope that they will like what I bought..

while combing thru' the lanes/ shops for the presents.. am lamenting inside.. WHY ME??
Seems that no one care... or they just assumed that all will be taken care of... hmm they are tooo busy.. I'm too freee... Or perhaps, I'm overly concerned with the wrong things? perhaps, it's not that important at all.. (well.. I like receiving presents & nice cards.. it's a good feeling to feel remembered cuz I'd the 1st hand experience of going out with bunch of people on my birthday and they did not even know it was my birthday!! and I was rather new then... .. it's definitely not a good feeling.. henceI don't want others to feel how i felt... ) Or maybe I've tooo much free time, idling and have nothing to dO?? (btw.. I still have yet come up with my training slides ~ gonna start the training soon~OH MY GOSH!~ and my speaker nOtes to the seminar 2 weeks from now is not yet done.. and my report not generated... )

Free? what's makes u tink I'm?? haven't been spending time at home and I'm detect the black face syndrome again... Urgh!!! must i face black faces at work/ at home?? hmmm.. but.. haha.. life ain't bed of roses.. which is good.. cuz I pose a threat to devil.. else... I should have a easy life.. instead of having to battle with the negative thoughts.. the lamentations.. the black faces ... Don't be weary of doing good.... Stop complaining!!!

The shoPPing trip that BRIghtens up my horrendous monday... (yup.. it was a BLaCK monday.. though I was wearing white! haha).. I have to stOp dozing off at class.. i guessed I really CAN't STAND what I'm doing now...

And one other thing that brightened my day.. the "ImPorted" PREcIOUS SMS I'd recieved at 18:53:09 (her time) with the area code +61! soooo touched by rachel's msg.. gal.. I miss ya tooooooooo!!! pop by the blueberries corner to find out more okie.. (u know what I'm talking abt!)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:55:00 PM

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*last words before I hit the sack...*

came back from choir outing not long ago... rather tired.. (actually not really)

met up with Carmen earlier.. went (jalan)2 at taka b2 (for food) and went to find lili.. hee.. bought this aromatherapy chandelier lamp .. (and some essential oil.. )

hmm... continued jalan bitsy and met the rest of choir team b at cityhall.. had our quick bite @ carvana chicken.. then head to superbowl..

haha.. I did worse than the two times @ JB.. (haha no motivation? or no coach? hahaha?? )but at least i didn't end up being the least scorer.. after the bowling game, some of us (Sis Jocelyn, Adam, Cuiqi, carmen & I) went to Cafe Cartel to satisfy some of our caffine crave... haha.. realised that Adam's from the same pri sch as me.. (ya.fellow tao nanites!!)

reached home rather late,ard 1230... will pOst some pix & stop blogging!!

my "newest daughter"! Carmen!

my dear choir helper .. pretty wendy!!

Handsome bRother frankie and me

TEam B8(two of which are incidentally my cellgroup members!)

whole of teamb @ the outing...[less max & beixian(she left halfway..)]

a candid snapshot that carmen took (ahha quite like this.. cuz it made my cheekbones high!)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:25:00 AM

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

*Not obvious?*

hmmm.. supper place changed to lau pat sat today.. hmm.. interestingly, we went to the cafe @ Fullerton.. hmmm just wanna take something alcoholic... (hmm the playful streak strikes.. but nah.. i dOn't club.. the last time I step foot into one was 2years ago.. ~ devil's bar.. boring... (ha.. think i was reaching out to Tien then.. she was not in fcbc then... )

wellwell.. I seems to be the TARGET of verbal jibes.. haha.. and I seems to be enjoying it? Perhaps.. hahaha... well... let me destress too... we'd an interesting ride to the Fullerton and back home.. man.. I was one of the victim of being squashed.. and ahhaha.. I learnt something.. I'm not the only one who is afraid of being tickled.. [yes.. I'm very ticklish.. I remembered I was "attacked" from back while going up the stairs from Canteen B to MLT... and I let out such a loud and piercing scream.. so malu .. cuz it was rather crowded as it was lunch time!!]

well... I should say Monique is observant.. hmmm.. is it THAT obvious? (secretly, I wanted what you said to be true as well!!) I'm not showing response?? I thought I was rather obvious! no... but am rather daunted if my antena is working.. it like it seems to be.. yet no... Do i want it? well.. yes... but can it not start with me?? Can it be crystal clear??

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:27:00 AM

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*The Purpose I was creAted for...*

Evidently, I'm definitely going the wrOng way with regards to my job... I'm definitely not gonna stay there long term..

TOnite's sermon is on the Law of Purpose.. Certaintly a word in time for me... well during cellgrp, during the worship song... I was very ministered... Cuz God spoke thru brother Ryan.. to me... Certainly.. Am at the crossroad of deciding where I wanna head... and wonder how I can make it to what called me to do... (translate.. the building fund... the stUff I need to pay monthly... and my plan to quit and be trained at sot.. it seems sooooo impossible... ) certainly.. what was impressed upon my heart was from God... :)

Anyway.. the 9 Laws of Purpose is summarised below:

Everything in life has a purpose.
My purpose in the mind of God.
My purpose is constantly and unceasingly calling out to me.
Where purpose is not known, abuse is inevitable.
My ability and nature predict my purpose.
What I have a passion for predicts my purpose.
Purpose brings with it the anointing for maximum succes.
My purpose will prosper me and the kingdom of God.
Where my talents and the needs of the world intersect, therein lies my purpose.

hmmm.. very true.. I am on the right track...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:07:00 AM

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

*Eyes are tired.. but hair is wet..*

Just got hOme from O'nite prayer meeting... It was real stretching for me cuz I think I slept less than 12 hours in total for past 5 days.. Thank God for the strength...

Cellgrp meeting ended rather late at 1040.. so cab down..

Gee... I think I should get some sleep.. serving later..

very tempted to cab down with Gwen later.. (o.. managed to catch up with her a bit on the Pasir Ris bus home.. :) ] Gwen looks so cute & young with ther bangs..

oke.. good morning and sweet drems!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 6:49:00 AM

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Friday, July 01, 2005

*Instant Messengers*

hmmm this must be a blessed invention!

Well, through this mode of communication.. I got to know better some of my friends/cell members.. who are my closer friends now.... I guessed I'm too used to hide behind words.. cuz I get to think through when I typed...

haha.. I never expect to share my testimony with Ziv.. haha.. was chatting with him via yahoo messenger.. hmm.. am sure he learnt something abt me that he will never do via normal communication... hmmm had a good chat with him though I'm very certain he didn't know the deal abt the fruits and strawberry...

Confidence... An area to work on... I'm not a natural leader.. I prefer to follow then lead.. I'm too laid back... Today.. I'd my mid year review.. AS expected.. I did not perform to par of the HIGH level of Expectation she had of me (in some of my colleagues pt of view, they deem her expectation as unattainable.. unrealistic).. Well somehow.. her words serve as the reinforcement to the words that long spoke to me on Tues. .. just felt as though God is using boss to speak to me (not just in area of wOrk) but spiritually as well.. PROACTIVE... VISONARY... I thank God for the favour with bOss that she willing to groom me.. but then I need to respond.. Management of people... how to work with the people with the big "A" in them ~ the APs (AP =X= arithematic progression!)

Seriously.. would i still be at the organisation a year later?? or two years? I don't know.. but I will take upon the leadership roles at org in preparation for bigger expliOts for God!! It's not my timing but God's timing...

What's true for the spiritual speaks for the natural... It's not when it will happen.. What I need to do.. is to be obedient to His Word, to His Voice, and activate the FAITH button.. cuz am functioning AT the NExt level now..

yay! am due for interesting stuff in JULY.. work wise :: gonna give my 1st training lesson at work.. gonna be a panelist at public seminar... as for spiritual wise.. it's gonna be challenging too.. but the prize will be rewarding..

Like what sister bel said during choir prac on Sunday "You got to pay a price for the prize!"

was talking to one of my colleague.. She was telling me that she thought of joining her church's children minstry.. but she afraid she cannot commit to serving twice a month! she wanted to serve but she's afraid that she can't fork out the time.. HEnce, she consider usher.. cuz only need to serve own services... (she got a SHOCK of her life when I told her what our church ushers do~ I salute all the wonderful ushers in CHC!! They are the dedicated ones!! and their hardwork are oft not seen!) I pray that she understand why she serve in a minstry...

And I need to sLeep before 3! I slept at 5 and woke up late... but i love praising & worshipping God. but.. I wanna learn the guitar so I can play while worshipping instead of just acapella!! :)

I'm out of here!! yay ! overnite prayer meeting!!!! Prayed that I won't get the naggy or slam fone when I tell my parents later.. but did spent some time with them this evening.. hopefully it make up for the lost time..

yay! choir outing this SUNDAY!!! I'm two year old in choir oredi! can't believe it.. It;s such a privilege!!

changeme.
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