1. Disappointment
2. Discouragement
3. Depression
4. Death

hmmm was greatly encouraged that I was going on the right path... been thru all the processes.. am in fact at stage 4... nope.. I'm not comtemplating sucide.. [I think I cannot endure the pain even if i want to... I have to cover my eyes when drama/movies showed portion of people trying to cut their wrist.. I have the shudders to think even of the action... but life is precious.. Jesus has given His life in exchange for ours.. What right do we have to end it.. moreover it would rendered everything on the cross useless... ] death of a dream.. the dream I thought that has vanised.. died-ed [if there's such a word.. i.e. died from the dead stage...] buried 6 feet underground.. until wed's nite... :) though I was not prayed for (didn't fall into any of the categories) but God's power is still the same.. just that whether we are willing to tap into or not...

somehow everything is cleared now why I'm the way I'm..

river of God... wow... tonite's sermon was more WOAh.. hmmm glad that I'm able to be in the main hall... was kinda distracted by some of the happenings going around me.. Yup.. I need to FOCUS... hmmm nevertheless... I know it will come to pass... :) [airing my thoughts out aloud. ignore if don't comprehend)

hmmm thousand and one things ran thru' my mind... Yikes, I realised that my taste changed rather fast... This was like a NONO a few days ago.. now I realised that I'd changed my mind.. Gee.. >.<

yeah... my blueberry muffins received a not bad response.. :) hmmm btw took a day leave cuz woke up late.. hence materialised the muffin mix I bought over the weekend into the final products.. kekeke..

hmmm huiling, hang in there okie.. anytime u need a listening ear.. yee will be here...

very blessed that these past two nites, I was given a ride home.. Thanks Terence.. else.. I think I will have to stand one hour on the busride home..

feeling feverish now.. I hope I won't take medical leave tmw.. :( my throat is acting up.. pain when I swallowed...