He reigns.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

*my Wednesday...*

hmmm.. somehow.. I just can't stand the" sweetness" of the new skin.. thanks ming for creating it.. let me switch back to the gothic girl, which ra8 said it ain't me.. hahha.. u never know...

attended an extremely dry full day seminar @ the Asian Civilisation Museum today.. had a hard time keeping awake.. it's on records management.. cuz am part of the project team looking into means to archive 90,000 files in the division.. Yikes...

finally got to attend Lesson 8 of GTOP.. it was like a wake-up call innerly.. too much details.. kinda personal.. had a small chat with peiyu.. happy to hear her progressing well.... Jia You ok...

Thanks Sis suzie, and her hubby for giving me a ride home after choir prac.. am really tired and am trying hard not to waste $$ on cab.. (took cab home on tues cuz I was extremely tired as i was trying to figure out the pivot table.. but don't know what went wrong.. would try to do it again later.. Yikes.. gotta get the branch report out BY 12noon later.. ]

and most of all.. Ivory.. thanks for your sms.. I wonder how you got wind of what happened over the weekend.. hmmm i attribute it to discernment?? anyway.. I will sure take up your offer.. just don't want to overtax ya..

let me finish up the songsheet..the preparation for the... and yay! the live recording is coming soon... ( and I've found replacement cell if the rehearsal gonna be on thurs..)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:27:00 AM

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Monday, March 28, 2005

*Myrid of feelings and thoughts…*

It was a week of activities..some grounds were tested.. passed some, failed some.. :)

Saturday
Easter Drama ~ it was entertaining esp. Adrian's rendition of “脱掉”.. yet was heart wrenching.. especially the scene on Jesus' route to Calvary.. The feel of drama was different from last year but never failed to touch the hearts of many.. Matter of fact… it is euphoric to see many respond to the altar call.. and to witness the miraculous healings.. e.g. the little boy of age three being healed of deafness..

Sunday
It was close to 2am when I got home.. many questions ran through my head but the gray matter was unable to process all of them. Took NR7 cuz I'd contributed enough to the cabbie's fund.. contrary to some.. cab is a transportation of last resort.. took a slow stroll back from the bus stop since the bus stopped 3 bus stops away.., with many thought balloons floating across my head.. some :) some ):

But by 8:30am.. I felt recharged cuz I was once again @ SIS.. always seems find joy in choir, .. :) a word of Thanks to some of the peeps I talked to prior to pnw that lifted my day:: Irene (ha now i know ya middle name!), michelle, Stefanie, Cynthia. You may not know it.. but chatting with u gals made me feel much better… )

~~~~~~ fact OR fiction~~~~~~~

Title:: An experiment gone wrong…
Subject:: An emotional being subjected to less than sufficient rest (though tiredness may masqueraded the real effects of triggers used)

Triggers
one :: Indecisiveness of where, what, how

two :: unable to reach a conclusion, part of the contingent left without a word or perhaps miscommunication?

three :: conversation topic on event that not all understood and one would felt less than appropriate to ask “ May I know what you are discussing about?” for fear that the response is “huh?”

four :: continue the conversation thread started by Trigger three, building on to discussion achieved in trigger three.

Catalyst ::natasofsdrow

Experiment:: the instruction::

Exposed Subject to trigger one and two. This would help Subject to get into the state required for step two:: frustration

Bring Subject to location to that meet the physical need of Subject ~ need here being hunger.(though at times there might be more than one needs)

Subject is treated to stimulus ~ trigger three. NOTE :: together with the chemical reactions of Trigger one and two, and some remnants of past experience.. Reaction produced :: A Phony fake smile (with the underlying emotion waiting to surface ~ rejection/ depressing thoughts) and politically right answers as well as airhead responses..

Environmental factors did not take into consideration of the apparent reaction of test subject:: expose subject to trigger four.. Adverse consequences when catalyst natasofsdrow leverage on effects of trigger four on the unstable subject...

Result ::subject felt like an odd piece in place; intrusion to tight conversation of

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:39:00 PM

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Friday, March 25, 2005

*seriously.. I wonder when I will stop..*

hmmm ming created this current skin for me.... : ) thank U!

as the name suggested::sweet...

i wonder how long will it be before i switch it again...and i shall be zzzzzzzz..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:31:00 AM

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*long distance call...*

29 minutes into Good Friday (which is today!), my phone rang.. hmmm was actually expecting the call to be from perhaps my cgl for easter stuff.. (cuz it was a call with blocked no..) ha.. turned out that a sweetie voice boomed out from the other end of the line.... it was someone that I missed a lot.. (ha not what u're thinking.. ) but pixie r8ch!!

Had a very good chat with her.. (just like old times, when we talked to each other hours over the phone.. or what my mom likes to call it.. "bow din wah jok") actually we chatted ard 50+ minutes.. guessed that it would be slightly longer if my mOm didn't emerged into the living room and lamented about me wasting electricity (cuz the TV was on) and chatting on the phone.. raCh.. don't worry.. yiyi doing fIne.. bouts of tempermental expressions was due in store last couple of week..hence the rather depressing pOsts.. But raCh.. very toUched that U called and really Miss Ya!! (will be ur "post-mistress" for ya special deliveries)..thanks for hearing me crap about the brown fruit~ surprise that it's not an acquired taste but you didn't know?kekeke), and hope that you will dream of that someone who shared the passion of grocery shopping like you...he's not a bad choice.. cuz firstly he's a MOG, fun, kinda blur.. but improved by leaps and bounds.. and oso kekeke.. shall not elaborate la.. U know, I know.. the rest won't!! :)

No cgm but the cell (part of it) came together for prayer meeting @ ziv & jace's.. hmmm it was good.. and really loved to linger longer in His Presence.. always loved to keep singing and worshiping.. :) had not prayed like that for long.. throat kinda itchy.. (was sandwiched by two gals who were coughing (and coughing.. and coughing in office for the past few days..)Praise the Lord that I'm not affected (or i should say infected!) blood donation this sat.. wonder if my blood ok to be donated.. Lord.. keep me healthy!

wondered if someone told someone about how someone felt towards someone's comments and perhaps also someone's feelings towards someone cuz felt someone didn't really seemed like someone's normal self.. perhaps someone's tired? too many someones? haha..

am gonna make sure I will catch up on the Bible reading Schedule cuz Sis Siew Choo challenged us to finish up so that all of us (if not most, to be one of those receiving the gift for completing the Bible reading from Jan to Mar)

hmmm yesterday, my colleague sitted on my left~ Angela, asked if I knew how to play the guitar.. Ha.. apparently, she saw me with the big black case before.. SAd to say.. I did not managed to master it .. (at best.. I can play the 4 chords, G, Em, C, D.... any kind soul wish to enlighten me? or my ex-teacher wanna take back this student?? ) YET... yup.. this is one of my goal.. so. AMen!! :) But aniwae very glad to have her as my new neighbour cuz she's oso quite an on-fire cHristian! :) [have yet to ask her where's she from.. but I know it's not CHC cuz her service ain't at SIS..] but she made my work environment :)

hope that aifeng & jayce would agree to my invi for eaSTer.. one came to service b4 (the pre-w110 days) and one went to the recent kukup trip..
okie.. that's all for now.. :)

Ming.. thanks 4 helping me to design a skin.. :) like what i saw.. :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:45:00 AM

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

*before i got to find out.. it's gone..*

hmm.. ha.. at least saw once... better than none.. however I didn't even smile.. too late now..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:07:00 AM

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

*a little magic touch...*

yes.eyes as small as slits... I do wanna blog longer .. but I'm tired...

p.s. I'm not in the state of depression.. [cuz violet read some of my blog entries and asked if I was feeling :( ] wellwell.. maybe only @ certain time that I feel execeptionally lOw..

right now.. feeling :) cuz I was given a Star-shape..furry pinky wand!! This wand was found in the parcel lying on my bed with a unfamiliar looking postage label.. and par avion.. pinkiepixiebeat me by her snail mail.. I will continue with page 2 of don't know how many pages. .. Thanks.. really birghten my day.. and I missed her lotsa..

gotta remind myself that I need to send out the emails tomorrow.. It;s gonna be a busy day..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:52:00 AM

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Monday, March 21, 2005

*Lost.....*

lost in what??

At loss what to be done...

Only four working days.. and I need to make up for the three days leave I took last week.. God, help me to do more with less...

Sunday 3pm@soupspoon I felt like an airhead with some of the remarks/comments that was made.. good-natured teasing? i know they are but this afternoon it seems that it was more than I can bear.. hurt? I try to look beyond that..but matter of fact.. my sensory nerves are functioning normally and so are my neural responses too.. and in case you haven't sense it.. I may not show it but there is always a time to draw the line... i may smile but am i smiling..??

Sunday5pm+@pcc I prayed that I have the capacity to do what I said I would do.I wonder how was I suppose to go about doing that.. somehow i can feel that sinking in again.. and the smile is on my face@ marina cove @ 7pm.. I put on a smile... i really hope i'm grining from ear to ear inner and outer.. am trying.. really i am..

You can't choose to be a victim of circumstances but you can choose whether to stay a victim.

Imperfect as one is, God loves us inspite of our imperfection.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:23:00 AM

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

*refreshed in Spirit.. exhausted in flesh..*

what more shall I say? Reached home ard 2am.. due to unexpected turn of events.. I hope things will just remain the way they are... I hope it's just a case of over-reacting..

happy.. many reasons.. but too exhausted now.. let me get some rest...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:28:00 AM

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Saturday, March 19, 2005

*slow it down....*

that's what i need to do...
Holy Spirit...help me to prioritise!!

Hmm..next week will be a hectic week.. can imagine the mountains/molehill and the whole chunk of emails waiting for me on monday (me on leave from wed to fri.. hence.. I wait in glee for monday!) but it will sure work out fine...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:34:00 PM

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*quote....*

chanced upon this while browsing thru somepages..

>>
You know a dream is like a river, ever changing as it flows.
And a dreamer's just a vessel that must follow where it goes.
Trying to learn from what's behind you and never knowing what's in storemakes each day a constant battle just to stay between the shores.
And I will sail my vessel 'til the river runs dry.
Like a bird upon the wind, these waters are my sky.
I'll never reach my destination if I never try,
So I will sail my vessel 'til the river runs dry.
Too many times we stand aside and let the water slip away.
To what we put off 'til tomorrow has now become today.
So don't you sit upon the shore and say you're satisfied.
Choose to chance the rapids and dare to dance the tides.

- Garth Brooks, "song "The River" co-written with Victoria Shaw"<<

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:37:00 AM

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*sad...*

no background music for the time being cuz I'd exceeded the bandwidth.. :(

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:47:00 AM

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*I wil get there...*

this song reflects how i feel...
I will get there somehow...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:10:00 AM

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Friday, March 18, 2005

*one drop... two drops... three drops...*

snapshot of current feeling:: not that cherry:: aka yikey day.

just ended an msn conversation.. person i can relate to went offline after her one-liner.. guess her connection was cut off?[ gal @ downunder.. miss ya..miss the "porridge" days]. I don't really wish to extend the conversation and when he asked me if there are any other matters i wish to share, i just said me tired.. . Kind intention, but then i just can't..

however the source of my comfort is not found in the form of human being.. but my Creator.. [the teachings of the past three mornings are not wasted..]

not in the mood to blog now..

all in all.. friday from 1945 onwards ain't that bright and tarry but ain't gonna let it bring me down...

consistency mione.. consistency.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:59:00 PM

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*new Look!*

ha.. i changed my blogskin again...
like this better... :) saw a lot of skins that I like... perhaps will change again, but u will see this for now... :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:05:00 AM

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*yay.....:)*

hmm my keyboard's spacebar is cranky...

hmmm very blessed by the morning sessions with Sy Roger.. [ha..I took leave to attend.. was not supposed to take leave on thurs.. but.. deliberated for a long time ~ while playing with lola & ke-ai on wed.. ~ they are very cute.. i prefer lola.. he's soooo stony... :) anyway..the thurs leave became a fullday leave cuz the session ended ard 130...] will share with the cg after i compiled everything.. [sis siew choo asked me to.. cuz am the only one with the exception of ah lai..to have attended all 3 sessions..:)

yay! I bought my 7260 [finally!] was deliberating over the white or black... eventually got the black one ~ with consensus from ivory and nixi..:)

btw.. vOry...am very happy for u on the decision u made.. :)
haven't met ivory for long time since.. eh.. xmas? :) got to see her consecutively from wed to fri.. and finally got to see lola and ke-ai.. :) [btw they are ivory & nixi's kitties..]

hmmm cellgrp was good today.. the atmosphere was different.. felt His tangible presence.. it's that same electric feeling.. (: had a breakthrough during pre-cell prayer meeting..:) felt encouraged when ian shared that the atmosphere was different when we have combined meeting.. :) but won't be complacent.. hmmm unexpectedly.. had an hour long conversation with someone after the cg.. hmmm was the last person i expect to call [it was 12am when the fone rang!].. but.. hmmm i don't think it will go beyond this ya... i hOpe so..wellwell..

JOanna.. sOrry.. didn't mean to spell ya name wrongly.. pai se!!

I finally told sis Joce that I can't serve chinese church.. not easy decision to make.. but gotta prioritise and be focused.. somehow the meetings are usually held on sunday.. and i know that it's time to streamline certain activities..

okie.. late.. gotta give ming & vory mornin call..

p.s. remember i was complaining abt my keyboard earlier.. ha.. it was stuck cuz my hairpin was stuck on it.. silly me!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:01:00 AM

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

*Blind (Inspirational)*

A very very beautiful and touching story..

Blind

The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg. It had been a year since Susan, thirty-four, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity.

Once a fiercely independent woman, Susan now felt condemned by this terrible twist of fate to become a powerless, helpless burden on everyone around her. "How could this have happened to me?" she would plead, her heart knotted with anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew the painful truth that her sight was never going to return. A cloud of depression hung over Susan's once optimistic spirit. Just getting through each day was an exercise in frustration and exhaustion. And all she had to cling to was her husband Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all of his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again. Mark's military background had trained him well to deal with sensitive situations, and yet he knew this was the most difficult battle he would ever face. Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city.

At first, this comforted Susan and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however, Mark realized that this arrangement wasn't working - it was hectic and costly. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was still so fragile, so angry. How would she react?

Just as Mark predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "I'm blind!" she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I'm going? I feel like you're abandoning me." Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. He made her laugh, even on those not-so- good days when she would trip exiting the bus, or drop her briefcase. Each morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back to his office. Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one, Mark knew it was only a matter of time before Susan would be able to ride the bus on her own. He believed in her, in the Susan he used to know before she'd lost her sight, who wasn't afraid of any challenge and who would never, ever quit.

Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself! On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying for her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year?

Curious, she asked the driver,"Why do you say that you envy me?"

The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches you until you enter your office building. Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady."

Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For, although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe -- the gift of love that can bring light where there had been darkness.

God watches over us in just the same way. We may not know He is present. We may not be able to see His face, but He is there nonetheless. Be blessed in this thought: "God Loves You -- even when you are not looking."

"Love all, but trust a few."
~William Shakespeare

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 7:14:00 AM

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

*another leaving...*

hmmm.. another of my teammate is leaving... Thank God that her workload will not be piled on me.. else I'll sure be buried under paperwork..
well... left office around 8 cuz today was a day of meetings.. didn't get to work till 530pm.. went to work today and realised that my team was in charge of the branch sharing and .. the morning flew past in a whirlwind.. afternoon.. was packed with 2 meetings.. one meeting was to split the workload.. [and listen to Ms C {boss} lament about the unwillingness of some officers to go the extra mile..and yet complained abt being a production worker. and some of them really get on my nerves.. the old mindset and simply being set in doing the things the old way.. just like the saying {is it from Ford?.." If it ain't broke, don't fix it. bad bad mentality}.. anyway.. took on another task.. cuz Vic going on long leave.. so gotta cover the branch report for her.. [ ha.. i think Ms C didn't know that I was doing the divisional report for a year+ when i came in.. she's afraid that I couldn't cope..hence she was kinda surprised that I told her that I could take on the task... matter of fact.. I enjoy doing these stuff than my actual work... haha.. aniwae.. will deliver the best that I could while I'm still there... Spirit of Excellence...

Thank God that mom's "black face" subsided when I got home.. hmmm caught the channel 8 drama @ 9pm.. haven't watch it for a long time.. well.. the desperate housewives seems rather slow in the plot development.. and afterwhich.. i continued with the Korean drama (the glass slippers.. the ONLY korean drama that I watched..though missing a lot of episodes.. at times.. I just wished I was watching it on VCD and hence could fastforward it.. Patience...)

seemed like I'd watch a lot of TV tonight... well.. haven't been doing that for past week.. though I won't indulge too much in that... need to do more things this fortnight..stretching week ahead..

O.. like this song playing in the background? ha.. loved this song when I was in sec4/Jc.. hahaa.. cuz the lyric was wacky!! :) and helped me to get into a happy mood... and yes.. I'm young!

okie.. gonna talk to a VIP now.. my Comforter...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:20:00 AM

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

*it felt like a mighty wind...*

Am finally back! HAd not blogged for a long time... and matter of fact... I'm kinda tired.. [some of you who were with me this afternoon may detected that I'm kinda spacey ya?] I had not been home early for a long time and my mOm gave me the black look when I stepped foot into the living room @1045...

however.. all in all.. It was a Wow... Weekend.. such a mighty move of God .. to witness the miraculous healings and never had I felt His Presence sooo strong! All the early mOrnings.. and queuing was worth it right guys...? Healing is not just a thing in the OT.. or in the ulu forsaken part of the earth... As long as you have faith, and believe in the Healer, you will be healed.. YupYup.. though it's not as evident and with a wOw factor.. I too received healing of that bothersome splitting headache that was bothering me since Saturday morning [due to lack of zzzz] and for that something else.. by faith I received it cuz felt such warm going thru me and was trembling ... let me go to the doc first... :)

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Service on Friday evening of the Benny Hinn's Healing Crusade was just the tip of the iceberg of the miracles witnessed in this 2 days event. Am really honoured to be part of the 1000 strong choir to usher in the Presence... And truly, never in my life have i felt His Presence soooo strong.... and actually it ain't that tiring cuz.. witnessing all the miracles happening in front of you really made the late nites for the past week worth it.. [the ics and helpers had put in much more hours than us and.. really appreciate them soo much!]

AM very blessed by the touch from God.. especially on the Saturday evening service when Pastor Benny "laid hands" at the choir.. It was like a mighty wind.. and ha.. never laughed so much in my life.. and the electrifying experience lingered for quite sometime..felt very light afterwards... :)

Sunday.. woke up @ 6+ [thank goodness that Joyce sms me..else..] and thank you terence for helping us to buy the brekkie.. reached SIS @ 8. Surprising.. there were a few groups in front of us... Queuing today was rather AN eye Opener for me... cuz I witness a no. of ugly incidents...

Episode One: the unreasonable lady dressed up to the 9ines
Tricia arrived a couple of minutes after us..so she sat down {alone} behind james's cg [who somehow managed to get ahead of us when we got up.. but that's another matter that don't bother me.. ] when i looked up again.. saw 2 ladies and a kid joining her [by then.. there was already a no. of groups forming behind Tricia] apparently.. uninvited.. well.. Tris being the nice person didn't get them to join the Q.. well.. thought of asking that lady.. who is the hubby i assumed, joined the lady at abt 9... well.. when tris' cg members came.. i nicely asked the lady if she mind moving behind tris and let her cg members in since tris was here first and she and her family wasn't really in the Q (she CUT the QUEUE, remember, and without asking..).. Guessed that she got real DEFENSIVE and added that she don't mind if just asked her if the cg members could join Tris but felt that she didn't like the fact that I asked her to shift behind Tris {she didn't let me finish my sentence and JUMP to the conclusion that I was asking her to shift behind}

this lady had the audencity to tell the usher [cuz she was sorta talking VERY loudly] that she came around 830 {actually later than that} and she saw that there were a number of groups behind tris so she said she asked Tris's premission to join her [note: this was fabricated!] and she was fine if she and her family was asked to go behind but Tris members gotta go behind too.. [and that hubby came up and asked with a bossy voice" "IS there problem?"] as if I was the person that cut the queue in the first place.. note he himself too joined his wife who cut the queue later...
[as much as i really detested her for ruining my day.. I told her that.. I'm sorry that if she had misunderstood me and resulting in her having an unpleasant day.. ~ quite evident who is a fault though.. but thought that she would want to end this amicably..

that lady caused such a big fuss and guessed what she said.. "Yes, you have certainly SPOil my day by kicking such a big fuss and I don't want to talk to you, let the usher settle it.." ~ wOah.. as if I'm dying to talk to her.. and well.. Mt5:24 came to mind.. so ya... i took the step to aplogize though it aint my fault...

the best thing was that when we arose to get into the stadium.. Ha.. She gave me that sharp piercing look.. Woah.. unforgiveness.. she can bear that consequence herself.. [If i really want to make life difficult for her, I could just ask her for her cg and cgl..but i didn't..]

well.. just because I was dressed in jeans meant that you can look down on me and use that condescanding tone.. So what if you're rich.. Blessed are the poor in the spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven~ Mt 5:5

Episode 2: youth cuting queue.. and their excuses.. and the audencity to challenge to call and talk to their cgl.. (glad that I witness and not the receipent of this challenge!)

BUt despite of the colorful incidents.. it was yet another great service... and the healing wave continued.. very :) to see Eugene's mom up on stage sharing her healing testimony! :)

went fellowship with cellgroup members after service suntec.. group dwindled to long, terence, emmy and sis siew choo by dinner time.. really blessed by the conversation with sis siew choo and sets me thinking..
have I thought of .. and have i seen myself..? Answer: Yes... :)

gotta be a stretching fortnight.. am looking for the challenge cuz I know that the group will unite and strive forth..

ha.. speaking in parables again...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:58:00 PM

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

*tag-board..*

my irritating taggie is down... :(
Should I change my tagboard??

Brillyan! U found my blog!! :) miss ya!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:41:00 AM

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*Tues... Wed....*

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Tuesday
At the rate I'm going at this job, I will age faster! A person who is much more senior in rank than me actually posed me a LOT of questions recently (cuz I’m her work approving officer despite her seniority in rank.)

Conclusion : I'm not cut out to be an auditor.. Was sitting in for a meeting. Nope.. felt bad to ask them to pay up and waiver proposal came to mind.. I'm no meanie.. yikes.. I wanna get out of here!

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Wednesday
Pastor Sun came to prac yesterday.. Hmmm it sounded really good.. and seriously, our choir should sing more in parts! Haven't be sight-reading/ singing at the same time.. [am very glad that the choir is doing the alto part.. else.. I think my vocal chords will be utlra-strained.].

Ha.. peiyu commented on the kiwi blog that I posted on my blogspot.blog.. heehee.. (btw that kiwi still sitting at my workstation..)

Strawberry kiwi Snapple came to mind.. hmm quite like that drink..sweetie sour.. strawberry & kiwi?? Kekeke!

Gotta start on friends for Easter..
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Wednesday/Thursday
Just cleaned up my room cuz there's a new addition to my rOOm.. i finally assembled the billy bookcase from ikea (free!!) with just a small hammar/ a screwdriver and my bare hands.. [within an hour.. started at 1030..WD @1145..] so gottA clean up my room to find a place to put it.. so ya.. shifted furniture a bitsy.. and hence nose running cuz of the dust...

hmmmm gotta zzz sooon....
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changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:38:00 AM

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

*thanks...*

no matter how hard I tried to hide..
He knows about it...
He loves me too much for me to continue in this downward spirial trend... He sents forth His Angel with a word to divert my path..
else I would have free fallen....

Just wanna thank this wonderfully patient man of God who thankfully "pryed" the deepest of deepest out of me.. and uncovered the hindrances that were masked under layers and layers of cobwebs... out of that masquerade that u'd seen thru...
truly learnt a lot from you this couple of years... thanks for your encouragement and your faith in me. thanks long! felt much better after "talking" to you... thanks for asking that question that spark off the chat... and scarificing ur time to hear me out.. and helping me tear down THAT VEIL...

btw.. gomeinasai to some whom have been hit by sweetie's missles lately....
two got hit this evening.. faith.. sorry ah... (though it will help if u're more decisive!) and summer..

now i need to rekindle what seems to be dying.. that flame...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:58:00 AM

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*yoYo..I hate it!*

sinking into that feeling again..... sigh..........help.......

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:02:00 AM

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*kiwi fruit...*

Kiwi... the lone fruit that's still sitting on my table...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:44:00 AM

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Monday, March 07, 2005

*hmmm...a very different choir prac*

reached home at ard 1245.. ... I think my whole of this week will be occupied.. Mon & Tues: Choir prac. wEd: ryan wanna meet us.(ya..gotta talk to him before he fly off again..) Thurs: prac @ sis ( now comtemplating should i go for the nature run organised by company @ east coast... think i would be sweaty and tired... hmm shouldn't have signed up in the lst place.. wellwell.. will see how..) Fri & SAt ~ @ sis. sun morning: combined service @ sis.. but it's gonna be great!

hmmm.. enjoyed today's choir prac.. songs sang was of different genere.. but the scores helped.. reminded the days of sight-singing in sec choir. looking forward to learn the parts cuz some of the songs' melody is way out of my range... really looking forward to Fri for the miracles and healing to take place @ Benny Hinn's crusade..

"nightmare" of the night: the dress code... man.. the sisters were to be dressed in black bottoms (easy enough) and navy/royal blue top.. First thought that cross my mind.. HUH!! man... such a dull color.. [eversince i joined the choir ministry.. wardrobe revamped from black/white to the brights and brighters ..]. gotta spend $$ to buy clothes..

hmmm while on my way home in cab ( i think by default mode of transport for mon, tue and thurs = cab.. ) after dropping michelle and huimin off.. while thinking of the need of getting a navyblue top.. the espirit cardi that i bought at a dirt cheap price in hk came to mind.. (seldom wore it cuz i don't like the color.. bought it then cuz it was cheap like S$10+) yay! I need not spend additional $$! PTL!!

Sipping awful Ginger tea.. was feeling rather nauseous (i supposed it was due to indigestion..) gotta pinch my nose while swallowing that down..

yikes.. just remembered that i got a meeting @ 10am.. Gee gotta be dressed in more formal attire later.. (cuz thought of wearing something more comfy for prac..)

oo.. i got another PINK item today.. it's a belated birthday pressie from Catherine and birthday gal Jolene.. It's a pink puma pouch/case.. yay..can put my make-up! am gonna try the shu-umera eyeshadow that gwen passed me on sat cuz she said the color "enhanced' her eyerings..digress.. anyway, jo, if u have any chance to be reading this.. Happy Birthday!! REally blessed to have ya as my friend..

will finish my awful medicinal taste ginger tea and zzzzzzzzz. [half a mug left.. ):]

Ooo.. something encouraging! Last night.. it was the FIrst time i prayed & laid hands for healing for another person.. I prayed for emmy for a longtime aliment and just before prac, i received an sms from her that the irregularity ceased!! Amen! well.. certainly my prayer for healing worked beyond my watch.. (eugene reminded me of that during service.. but seriously that crack was GONE..!)

got a sudden craving for KIWI fruit.. ah ha.. there's one on my table at work.. hmmm.. (:

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:06:00 AM

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

*the pUtting grEen...*

Wanted to blog on Friday.. but due to sheer tiredness.. I didn't manage to... [Didn't even get to give lian the bs I promised her cuz I collapsed under the power of sleepbug @ ard 2am...]

Friday was a yikes days... woke up with a HORRIBLE throbbing headache... (cuz due to the excessive blogging on Thursday... ) and coupled with stomach cramps... i smsed my colleague to tell her to tell boss that I would take the morning off.. prayed a little.. the pain seemed to ease away.. drifted back to zzzzzzzz and felt better when I woke up @ 9+.. Was kinda frustrated @ work cuz of boss, Ms C... to a point that I could feel the tears welling up.. (but still gotta maintain a smiley face to them...) She definitely knows how to snub one without being THAT obvious... Wellwell...I questioned myself... what am i doing here... definitely not because I love this job.. and certainly not because of the renumeration..and as for the colleagues... well.. engaging in "bimbo-talk" is no problem but anything more than that.. not many.. perhaps less than a handful?? Well.. will stay there till I know that I know that my time there is UP. (sounds like I'm serving a sentence there..)
on happier note... I zipped off @ 545.. went to PS to get Jo's pressie.. and a little something for myself.. a pair of babyPink shoes from x:dous.. my 7250 is on the dying phase.. it autoshuts while i'm having a conversation with someone.. and the keypad cannot detect my inputs...

Saturday.. attended Bro Kenneth's wedding.. it was a wedding that's full of joy... :) wonder how's will mine be like.. :) [still a faraway thought.. cuz right now, not my no. priority...]

Pinky shoes gave me a painful experience... after s2.. I literally took off my shoes and walked up the soundcrew stairs... hence peiyu.. sorry can go with u to JP to get wanling's pressie... Glad that pain easy away at s3...

reached home rather late.. ard 1250.. was rather tired yet they still blabbered on.. had a serious conversation with terence on way back in cab (i really dun want to take cab but it was 12+ by the time we left the kopitiam).. [the 1st serious conversation i had with him for the 1st time this week]
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Decision.. decision... now I know why March...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:32:00 PM

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Friday, March 04, 2005

*It's 04:48.. I haven't sleep..*

yikes.. bad habit.. gOtta stop this.. once i blog.. I can't stop.. (not really.. but was reading my palies's blog that resulted in me being still awake despite having the clear intention to sleep 2 hours ago...)

REally.. sleeping now... for 1 hour ++

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:50:00 AM

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*a peep into a side of me....*

You're an INFP

INFP

You focus deeply on your values and devote your life to chasing ideals... you often draw people together around a common purpose and work to find a place for each person within the group. You're creative and seek new ideas and possibilities. You quietly push for what's important to you, and rarely give up. You might be somewhat gentle or have a good sense of humor, you could be hard to get to know and overlooked by others...you like to make the world more in line with your vision of perfection. . kinda true...most of it...

If you're a teenager, you probably have a bit of a rebellious streak.[used to when I was in that phrase.] You might argue with others who hold different values than yourself..you probably have a small close-knit group of friends...you can relax around these pals and be pretty entertaining, since you see the world in a different and special way... that's why your posts on the Storm Palace are so great!

Inner harmony is the most important thing to you. You're sensitive and loyal. You have a strong sense of honor concerning your personal values. You'd rather communicate your feelings in writing... Which explains my few words and loooong blogs...

You do best in a flexible situation where the teacher/collegue takes a personal interest in you...you like to interact with your peers, but not TOO much ...you have both creativity and flexibility, and you like that about yourself....you don't get bogged down by details...your job must be fun and it must be meaningful to you...[ haha hence my full time job seems more like a temp job to me.. }.you don't wanna feel conspicuous so you'll sell yourself short just to avoid the spotlight...

You can be a gentle and subtle leader...being indirect and inclusive of others...you don't confront people head-on, but rather work with 'em to get the job done....you lead with your values in mind and let these guide you...you don't like conflict, so you don't confront situations directly.. you'd rather wait for a situation to work itself out.... [learnt recently that tis might not work all the time...]

Leisure and kickin' back is really important to you. sometimes it is hard to separate work from play, huh? when you find a new recreational pursuit, you do a lot of reading up on it...most of your leisure things are done alone, like reading, listening to music, and even BBSing....when you want to be sociable, you can be very charming and outgoing.. :) yupyupyup

Love is a very deep commitment to you...it's not easily attained...you probably pick out flaws or are disappointed when he or she doesn't match up to your ideal as to what love should be like...first dates are very well set up to make sure everything is taken care of so it can be "just right." you might have a hard time sharing feelings about others...you tell so many feelings inside that you forget to tell your partner that you love 'em or whatever....
If the relationship goes bad, you take it to heart, but probably don't tell many others about it....you have a tendency to overreact, huh? Other things to watch for...don't get so caught up in your dreams that you don't consider others' points-of-view...you might not adjust your vision to the facts of a situation...you may need a "reality check" once in a while... also, don't try to please everyone and be so hesitant to criticize... don't delay projects 'cause you're holding out for perfection...it's not gonna come...don't get overly critical because no one matches your perfect ideals... you could lash out and it could get ugly.

INFP: "I Never Find Perfection"
~ seeking to find the perfection in my eyes...

http://www.haleonline.com/psychtest/

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:31:00 AM

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*I'm 20!..*

last quiz i did before i zzzzzzzzz..
I'm.. 20! (this quiz thingy is getting boring...)

You Are 20 Years Old

20

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:58:00 AM

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*quizy time.........*

the cranky side of me appearing.. ha.. here's some quiz results.. :)

The Left or Right Brain... the right side wIns!! :)

You Are 20% Left Brained, 80% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

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me drama?? not many will get to witness it then... heehee

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

(You are more dramatic than 70% of the population.)

And the oscar goes to... you!

You're all about overreacting and just plain acting.

You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance.

And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times...

Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little.

(But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

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I'm an ideal lover..

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

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I prefer the number 7 though i don't know what it meant! :)

Your Love Number is

2

Of all the numbers, you are the most caring and empathetic lover.
Unselfish and humble, you find it easy to forgive your sweetie's mistakes.
At times, your need to please can be come a bit too needy.
As long as you remain somewhat independent, your relationships are perfectly balanced.

What Is Your Love Number?

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:50:00 AM

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*Duh... I'm the year of..*

You Belong in 1979

1979

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

the accuracy is in the year.. brash? me not.. give it my all?? ya.. kekeke

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:47:00 AM

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*I'm A Romantic.. :)*

You Are A Romantic

You are more romantic than 90% of the population.

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:42:00 AM

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*i heard and saw it again...*

the scene that played in my mind @ the Anglican Retreat Centre in one of the zone prayer meetings some years back flashed back during ministry time today.. and the last phrase that ran across the video [this video was a short 5 min video whereby during then..many thoughts ran thru' my mind... ] that the leadership course that i went on Wed kept ringing in my head.. If not now, when?? Ya.. it's time....

It's has been a looong week.. let me gather my thoughts and feelings and blog later...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:09:00 AM

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*I am.... back!!!.. and thanks!! :)*

ha.. as if i was away from Singapore at all...
It was an eventful week.. with the revival conference and the weekend services.. [not to mention more $ to the cabbie population.. a bad habit i MUST kick!!]

Came back from cg not long ago.. just ended a 30 min conversation with someone whom i dun think i'm really attracted to.. (but the same thing happend last wk, last nite.. and just now.. and heehee.. I'm glad it's only MARCH.. so.. hahhaa some of u know what I'm talking abt...) ya.. he's a nice guy.. and ya.. why does he always have to SUAN me... aniwae.. it's oni MAr.. so ya.. see what happends in June then.. for now.. my only love-- my Creator God! ha.. i hope i'm over-sensitive!! :)

A chain of encounters (stress.. unhappy) occured at work eversince.. Life ain't easy as a AO (aka Approving Officer).. Woah.. and my new manger seemed nice and easy gOing on the appearance but after working with her for a week.. can sense the prick among her words.. 话中带刺, but ya.. am sure I will survive!

Just finished typing my one hour long reply to Rachel..
Gal.. sOrrry to miss ya long-distanced call on Monday nite.. I was watching Hitch.. (it was hilarious.. and somehow.. i always enjoyed Will's movie)

Some words to peeps who read my blog:
Jo: thanks for visiting.. i love the rain and missed it... (literally.. bad weather.. very bad for me.. cuz dUst and I don't click)

Alex: hellOs!! will drop by your site soon...

Peiyu: I will miss ya but hey.. am very happy for you when u shared that you'll be taking more responsiblities in terms of cg and choir! :)

Lennie: heee... wonder how u manage to get tO my page... thanks 4 ya encouaragement!! :) am sure that 2005 for you will be a fruitful and fulfilling one! :)

~ am actually not at the best time of the month..(in fact the worst.. but i shall not bow down to it.. ha.. if u get it good.. if not never mind) and ya.. i gotta log off soon .. cuz it's a gonna be long day ahead.. cuz just volunteered my service to deco auditorium for brother Kenneth and Sis Wendy's wedding this sAt)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:07:00 AM

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*Princess's reCEnt Dreams

*Princess's Past Dreams