He reigns.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

*transparent...*

trAnsparency... gOOd or bAd...

i think @ times... I can be as transparent as a piece of cellopane paper... and yet at times.. like wood.. U can't see through...

today.. is a day of reminiscences...

the aunty nature strikes... I was watching dvds of one TVB drama serial that my bro had brought back for review.. hmmm it's abt school life... man... i really missed thoSe days... yes.. i missed my unifOrm days... finished 3 episodes.. yay....:) missed schOOl...

while i was whizzing pass the east coast beach along ecp... the mel feeling sank in... tsk.tsk.tsk.. i dislike this time... (on way to fetch mOm for supper @ the lagoon hawker center... but me no appetite... just had a couple of mouthful of satay beehoon.. i like the satay sauce... but gotta avoid cuz of my dear thrOat..) little things along the way just triggered memories... happy.. sad... crazy... recent.. past...

sOmetimes.. I just wish that I cOuld sink and unwind...

gOtta aVoid listenting to sOppy sOngs.. hmm passed the age of blasting my ears with the roCk, metal music... (i's since learnt that I've only one pair of ears... and I thank GOd that my ears are rather sharp despite 2-3 years of near max vol. music piping thru' my eardrums.. it really feels good to blast awaywhen u're feeling frastrated.. momentarily relief... pure torture.. pure pleasure... haha! hey.. i was still young amd naive then... the white & blue metal bUttons uniform days.. )

merMories... I thank everyOne whom my path had crossed with... the experiences.. happy or sad.. had made me who i'm..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:53:00 AM

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Monday, November 29, 2004

*where's my mark darcy?*

the sweet One wOke up at 720 with the TV on... with mOm looking rather mad at the sight of the TV on...

knew that my voice is not there yet.. so changed into semi causal and hoped on bus to Pasir Ris interechange to draw $$ and head on to bedok nth to my GP... wellwell... my condition did not imprOve.. the sticky, yellowish phelgm had refused to dislodge from my respiratory systemm (or whatever) and hence... i had a hard time coughing to get it out... was put on course of medication and antibiotics.. and given 2 days mc (today and tomorrow) to rest my voice... (40% voice regained..)

walked to bedok interchange... i missed the route that i always took before i shifted to pasir ris... with my croaking voice... sweetie composition was made to the Lord.. i just love His presence around me for the 15+min... (longer than usual cuz me was strolling...)

hmmm.. thought that it was a rare chance to be free on weekday... so me went to watch bridget jones: the edge of reason.. (actually I'd read the book and already knew the ending... ) ha! century sq cinema was so empty.. think there are only 6 pple (including me) in the theatre.. I plonk myself into my favorite row.. (some where in front right in the middle...)

the movie was great... love renee.. though she looks a tad bigger than the part One.. mark darcy was soooo sweet.. and i wonder where my mark darcy is... (and... i thought i saw "him" in my mind... and i was... HUH?..... this person actually met my minimal criteria listed earlier though.. but.... huh? ) anyway.. I'll just leave it up to Him..

i realised... i need a miracle to see miracle happen when i take a look at my bank account... it will happen...

now... i wanna take a shower and then recharge my spiritual battery...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:15:00 PM

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*berryberry-edited*

so the story begins... ( reminds me of the blur song..COuntry house.. out of pOint...)

sweetberry.. happy... confused... happy.. wild

sweetberry's view: cranberry & blueberry with a heap of whipped cream in between... cranberry was rather sweet... sweetberry was rather taken with the surprise ... very observant... blueberry wise... is just soo... berry... always will be... and will not be... whipped cream...will never be in the picture cuz whipped cream is not a berry... it's a fact.. but will be related to berry though...

a fusion of strawberries melted it all...

strawberry and champange..... still a sane & sober berry! always sweet with a tinge of sour...

wonder---wonder--wonder-- think--think--think
-still no answer...

why???

a berry berries blog...

p.s hmm someone said that he sorta got idea of what and whom.. hmm well... like what u say.. watch for events to happen.. though i don't know what... kekeke

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:07:00 AM

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*the Wedding... *

ha.. not my wedding....

hmmm am glad that my duties had been discharged... matter of fact.. I'm not that close to the bride before her wedding.. became closer to her after helping her with the preparations... I'd never thought that I'll be that involved in their wedding.. did many things that I'd never did before...

bridesmaid... hahah.. revelation.. now i know the meaning of bridesmaid= bride's maid.. hahaha.. no la.. cuz me preception of bridesmaid.. is to look pretty.. realised that there's more to that.. hey me not complaining.. it's kinda fun...walking down the aisle before the bride during the march-in before the bride at the church wedding was.. actually quite nerve-wrecking... cuz... so mani pair of eyes on me.. and me not the center of attraction though...

the sa-bo queen... dear brothers entourage... [DISCLAIMER: The liyi at goodwood park teasing the groom and ah-cheks is not really the real me... I'm really a sweet and demUre sweetie pie...]
emmy and i were the oni two sisters that were dOing the teasing-thingy.. and I was placed as the person in charge.. cuz met up with the malaysian friends only on the very day and they seems very demure... so ya.. divided into two parts.. the sabo part at emmy and my side.. the nice side.. (angpow bargaining) at the other three sisters's side
i was made the huai ren (gary.. sorry to make u do pumping didn't know u choing down from o'nite..) I thank God for the creativity cUZ.. friday nite.. I was really dazed... was on this medication.. [which explains my husky voice now.. cuz over-strained] and i was really ah.... hmmm still managed to cook up a delicious receipe of appetizer. sandwich, desert and the healthy drink.. (i love the healthy drink best.. cuz.. it's Just the Apple-chu.. haha! ~ translate.. apple-cider.. ~ I appluaded the brothers who glup in down in one gup... haha!! the RARA me u see is really not the me.. bUt situation calls for, so... I'd no choice.. but to rise up to be the rara one... ah. i like this the best.. (it was not intended, saw sUgar during my grocery shooping saw the sugar.. emmy suggested icing sugar...though icing sugar taste better) long.. i didn't know that icing sugar will melt in your mouth...SOrry to suffocate u.. never my intention to.. Thanks for volunteering... U're a good spot!
I guess i did a good job. cuz mOnique had engaged my professional "ah-yee" service just now.. ahhaha..

had a good time at the "naoDongfang"... can see that jacelyn was rather... xing tong to see us "tOrture" her ziv.. though i think ziv had a really good time playing.. he was wild!

I was tortured by the taxi-Uncle of carplate 6740.. lydia and i really dun feel like talking to the uncle (who started telling us his 'oh-my-gosh-what-a-coincidence-the-passengers-i-drove-led-me-back-to-the-place-i-pick-up-the-first-passenger." I heard lydia praying in tongues.. knew that she was ... we told uncle we wished to rest.. he apologized and said he tell us a last coincidence.. but it went on.. so lydia started conversation with me.. (i think the guy was eveasdropping) cuz.. lydia and i ended up talking abt education.. and this over-interested driver actually asked so she's a teacher... told him no.. he further probed.. what does she do.. I shUt him off by " Uncle, I have a bad sore throat and i don't really wish to talk." he then ask how long u have ur sore throat le.. [I repent.. I lied cuz i'm losing my voice not because my throat is sore.. but cuz of the cough... and it was only since 24 hours ago] told him one wk+ in a barily audible voice.. he out of concern told me his andedote of stewing apples... AHAHHAH.... A test of patience again... Longsuffering....

Out of this event.. I grown to know a couple of cell members better... like mike, terence, ( haha.. the bao-naming thingy we had at ziv... hahaha.. and the interesting shots... long.. think u very spoting on sat.. ahhaha... very comedian like... drama?) yvonne and joyce.... emmy.. the bride and groom.. and some others... I really loook forward to know u guys better...

max.. u really did a good job for the photOs.. despite of the technical glitch... brother, u take care of yaself, ok... rest a.. so late still online.. and thanks for ya pinkie cutie gift.. it's so me.... thanks! (^.^)

looking forward tO sat cuz me getting the certificate of christian foundation... i hope that next year, it will be the other cert... yes, i need to talk to my leader now.. no more excues...

thanks for scrolling to this line... C'est tout! BOn nuit! *that's the remaining memory of my LF80!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:48:00 AM

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

*i can barely crOAk...*

i think i'm lOsing my vOice.. help.. to be continued.. cuz i need to be at goodwood park @ 5 and i've yet made-up...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:23:00 PM

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Friday, November 26, 2004

*mor3 thoUghts*

noVEmeber is fast apprOaching to an end... and that there're ONLY 30+ day left of 2004...

i wOnder... what if I'd... what if...

what if... dreams and desire will neVEr materialise of they merely exist in your cavity @ yOur head..

sOmehow.. this verse that pastor preached a couple of years back... jUst stUck in my head... serve God at your b3st... it was when i know I was called to sOmething bIgger than I can imagine...

mandarian... yes.. despite being not in touched with this language for close to a decade... (ya..& i dOn't listen to chiNese pop nOt read the chinese papers...) I realised that I still recognise the squarish characters.. speak rather fluently.. gUessed cUz.. of the fOundation built up in pri & sec... and i amazed my colleagues at the recent wedding dinner that I can actually speak mandarin rather well.. (& that i could actually translate the scripts there and there.. heeheee..) (eh.. dO i look like a kantang? pleeeeeeeaseh.. i think otherwise..)
LAst sUnday.. i went to Service 4... yeS.. His presence was immensely stRong.. (:
China...many unreached areas... chinese mostly speak mandarin... (if not their dialects..)
wOw... Interesting... if you can see it... you can have it... yay!!!
Ops.. writing in piecemeal... Gee... mind concuss.. if u can get the linkage.. good.. if not... never mind....

did a search on my name at yahoo search.. gee. that's why my profile foto became mikan!

straWberrry thinks she's uncovered sOme sweet secrets... haha (hmmm this year.. my bday cake not from sweet secrets... Ops.. digressed.)

wanna sleep b4 sun rise... sO.. tata...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:32:00 AM

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*miSSion aCcomplished*

Fianlly.. at 0245.. I finished the guest book/hand corsages & ang pow box... very last minUte i know.. sOmehow.. I think I thRIve under tight deadlines.. can be ratheR topsy hurvy bUt.. hey that's me...

am suPposed tO rest.. that's the whOle pUrpose of medical leave.. but.. hmmm.. tsk tsk tsk...did the contrary...

Pretty pleased with the new look of my rOom.. but my softies have no place to go now.. tsk tsk tsk...

time check is 5am.. pretty wide awake... ( I think the medication worn off its effect.. was rather concuss when i took it ard 9+.. fell zzzz while waTching Tv.. wOke up by mom's grUmbling..

hmmm.. it's gOnna be a loooong week... wOuld want to go overnite prayer meeting tonite.. but don't think its possible.. hmmm maybe ask emmy whether she wanna go... we can stay till 1am..

gonna talk sooon.. spirit of doubt building its influence...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:59:00 AM

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

*On.. medical leave! yAy..*

the mucus buildup is driving me crazy.. soo I went to my gp... hmmm.. was given a day of medical leave.. (hehee) guessed what i did when i went home.. i turned my room upside down... essentially, i rearranged my bed, my table... my lazy chair.. actually all the movables.. (cUz i was rather upset with the heaps of stuff lying around when i left home... heehee.. so i re-deco my room when i reached home from clinic @ 10am..

hmmm found out that a couple of my friends did themind profiler ..haha.. attempted to try it out but was always unsuccessful..till a few sec ago..

hErmione's Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 21%Visual : 78%Left : 35%Right : 64%

hermione, you are somewhat right-hemisphere dominant and have a strong visual preference, a blend of characteristics which typically apply to persons with an "artistic" temperament.

In all likelihood, you naturally act in the way that people have come to expect artists to act. With your dominant visual learning style you are active and seeking, working to absorb all of the facets of your environment. Your mind rarely rests, for even when you are not scouring the environment you are turning your searchlight on your own internal processes.
hmmm that i didn't know....
You are intense! In continually processing the data as you do on a multidimensional level, you spend little of your time in reflection -- or sometimes in social niceties. There is a high probability that you are "out of check" -- though not out of control -- sometimes, swept away by the feelings of the moment. You are one of those individuals that may well attempt to assemble a complex piece of equipment without reading the directions or following a sequence, though you might look at the diagram. Sequencing your own behavior is problematic at times.
uphm.. am i that unpredictable??
You are rarely reflective about yourself or your motivations. You know when things are right because you feel it, you intuit as automatically as you breathe. With others, you tend to "go with your guts," not needing rules or expectations to govern your friendships.

You absorb material rapidly and randomly, it is filed "helter skelter" internally. Listening or learning from materials presented in a purely verbal fashion is not your "strong suit" and your performance in situations designed for left-hemisphere dominant persons will not always measure up to the expectations of others. If you have particular learning needs, it is to sequence material and remain focused while you are processing, to develop "structuring" techniques, and to become more efficient with your spontaneity and creativity.
perhaps... i like pictUres....

hahaha... I think the shifting had made me a happy mad hatter!.. let me take my medication and zzzz!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:15:00 PM

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*continuation.. rest of my wednesday..ended with 7 kisses!*

Despite that my wednesday kicked start in a horrendous manner... it ended with an impact...

met michelle @ clementi.. me late cuz took tooo long to make-up..

I admit.. I was mouthing "wo de mei ren" during the 1st praise song... cuz just blank out on the lyrics... Ops! maybe cUz didn't take dinner.. haha..

I just love the Word.... hmmmm caught parts of the SOT trailer while waiting for peiyu to talk to her cell members...hmmm my limited mind really can't picture how next year would be like.. bUt sure... it'll be exciting...

cUiqi.. U take care of yaself ah... see ya later.. (though I'm pretty sure that you're in slumberland now after takin ur "concuss"-ing medication... am sure that it will be resolved... and really.. thanks for ya encouragement... :)

had 7 kisses for my suPper/dinner... yummicious... sinful...
but hey.. I was hungry and that's the only accessible hunger satisfying article lying ard.. hmmm watcha thinking of...

i love the nite... it's sOoooo peaceful and tranquil... but i need to zzz..

r8ch.. i'll see what i can do abt the black fonts on black background later...

I still need 5 white rOSes.. and.. ah.. hmmm tmrw noon time finish the roses and afterwork. .get the reminder stuf... hehehe... Ops.. fortunately i didn't say wat.. cUz one of ah-chek may be reading..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:12:00 AM

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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

*my wednesday sooo far*

I dOn't understand why people complained that we are high-handed when they themselves are such a pain when they require information. The public expect you to be at their beck and call simply because they are excerising their rights cUz they form part of the stakeholders that fill your pocket every month. They demand information and expect you to entertain their request when you refer them to previous correspondence. They are supposed to keep track of their own records and yet expect you to do the same for them despite it's their responsibilty to do so.

Yes.. I'm extremely irritated by this lady who never fails to improve my blood circulation and help me to develop the fruit of LONG-SUFFERING everytime i talked to her.... my flesh longed to lash out at her.. and this person is representing a organisation funded by a church (definitely not my church). She may or may not be a fellow sister in Christ but i should think so. Am now happily singing Jn 16:33 to myself cuz you have just made my day.. I longed to tell this to her, "Thank you for being part of the long-suffering fruit developement process since Feb this year. YOur words are harmless but the condescanding tone makes me feel like a mice. and my phone is angry at me cuz the headset will often land itself back to its cradle twice as hard .. AS much as you desire.. I would love to settle the issue once and for all, so that u get what u want.. i.e. the money...and the lifespan of the telephone set prolonged... "

lalala

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:28:00 PM

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*The Incredibles..*

ha.. I haven't blog for days.. am really tired by the time I reached my rOom.. wait till Thurs Nite.. then i blog.. cUz.. not wOrking on Fri.. and by then I would have finish the deliverables... cUz I got a "neat" sUrprise last nite that the gUest book is toooo puNy... (ok.. tis oUt of my own lingo.. ) so ya.. me took half a day leave today and head tO papier @ esplanade for the handmade paper.. (the sales assistant there always made my day.. heehee.. she remembered me cuZ of my harry pOtter character name.. and one of the rare ones who pronouced in correctl.. as in her-mi-O-nee

hmmm spent another $15+ on the paper... Oh.. btw I really wanna THank Holy Spirit for the out of the blue idea while I was walking home last nite.. after meeting @ziv..I was real desparate and ya.. so i said prayfully for His Inspiration..

(heehee.. It's 80% dOne now.. so.. Hallelujah!) and i realised that I was sUppOsed to be the "head" of the bride's entourage.. HUH! is my respOnse. cUz thought will be someone more experiened la.. and I'll be her bridesmaid..

I really tired.. and man.. sleeping 6 hours for the past few days were heavenly...

ah.. it's raining again... okie.. sleep soon..

o i took a half day leave rite? .. so..decided to pamper myself a bitsy.. so.. I went to catch The Incredibles.. wOw.. heehee.. my favorite character is edna mode.. haha.. so eccentric.. actually wanted to catch before sunrise (cUz of the yUmmicious ethane hawk.. then... decided against it.. good thing i did.. else I'll be caught in the rain.. and won't be able to complete the task of sourcing for paper.. o.. this movie only available at cathay.. )

time*check.. 2:18am.. need to zzz cUz. it;s a long day ahead.. yay..seRving later.. sO Vicks, if u reading this.. can't jOin u fOr dinner on thUrs.. cuz.. me will be at the seminar later tonite... (dun want to deprive peEps of seat...)

Bon nuit!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:20:00 AM

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Sunday, November 21, 2004

*ten sentences...*

Ivory gave me this sentence limit: that I must keep to 10 sentences for this blog entry cuz I need to sleep cuz attending service 4 and yes, i'm tired & though i'm still rather hyped up & i got lots to say, but I'll summarise and continue later.

eunice's wedding dinner was an experience for me as I was called to be the emcee only on thurs and gotta translate the script to mandarin at 6pm & rehearse it through. Thanks See Choon for agreeing to share burden of emcee-ing with me at the eleventh hour (to be cOntinued!)

I was rather *i**ed when i realised that things for certain event didn't turn out the way i wanted it to be when i read yili's sms. I know my reaction was tOoo extreme bUt, I'm still flesh and blood. Xinyi, thanks anyway, sorry that I upset u and yili thanks fOr keeping me awake by yOur smses (fortunately I drank some red wine-2 glasses & one glass of champange, if not i will faint when i see your sms!)

Max, ivOry & rachel told me service was great & wOrd in season for me & vory was telling me that after the service, my decison will be stamped/ chopped guaranteed, WOW! My last sentence: I'm going QT & zzz and get ready for the Word!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:29:00 AM

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Friday, November 19, 2004

*gibberish*

i realised the last part of my blog this mOrning was gibberish.. ha.. didn't know I blog in tongues too!!! haha.. am down in the resOurce center to download my scripts for tmrw.. and.. dunno why ziv told me that I've to go to the rehearsal.. okie then.. since the groom ask me go..

okie.. back to my work!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:44:00 PM

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*i got more pressie..*

hmmm thanks w110 & w285 fOr celebrating my bIrthday..keke.. really felt that I was like 21 again...

today.. volcano erUpted sOmewhere (p.s. not mine) ... have to talk to this brother.. attitude was uncalled for... i guessed today.. i see my fruit of patience.. full of smile when i waited for 30 min for lunch to be served... and.. despite witnessing this volcano erupted before me.. I didn't react... I should have talked to him after the cell.. but he left early...Prolly he was in a bad mood.. but...really need to speak to him.. of the thing he said and reacted... eh.. funny that the sister should do the work.. but the guys helper.. one is busy with his wedding.. and the other.. I dOn't know.. never mind.. I can do it...

to one of the brothers in my cellgrOup.. I know that you may not be reading this... i really hope that you will arise above your fears.. It's good that you want to strive for excellence.. but bearing the past mistakes and not letting go of them will hurt your progress.. Brother... so long u have the anointing.. U can do it... seeing you act on my comments during service that week really bring a smile in my heart (1st time in church i saw him did that..) You may sound as if you think you are correct and dun want to add on my adice.. you may not like to hear from me.. but.. I'm glad that I'd spoken at th prompting of the Holy Spirit... add oil brother...

to my lil brother eugene.. just continue and pull thru' We're behind u!

oh dear w110.. thanks for the lovely gift.. max i dun have my card yet!

Brotter Eliot: thanks for the "digi cam".. haha.. me still young girl a.. play with paper toys!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:30:00 AM

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*the long One.. *

blogged�� I didn't blog for ONE day�� Achievement.. Ha.. I think I've sorta grown addicted to blogging

had minimal hours of sleep just now .. cUz was finish up the rOses fOr the guestbook when to my dismay.. my ribbon had ran out again! has started doing the rOses since 10+ when I started to watch amazing race.. (which by the way.. I felt sorry for the two guys that were eliminated�� they were somewhere in the middle of the race.. just that they chose the physically less demanding detour.. and there is this couple that kept quarreling,. and hey this was only the 1st day! names.. didn't managed to catch cUz mutli-tasking.. ) thought that I could pass Jacelyn the guestbook.. alas.. realized by 3am.. I'm short of materials for 10+ roses..ah.. no choice.. begun on the assembling of the Ang Pow box.. heehee.. it looks great.. funny that hOw my mind work at nite.. cUz I was thinking.. man.. this look boring.. and hey pesto.. I found some stuff that I'd purchased (at times which I thought was spur of moments) and.. heehee.. it looks great.. now I know why I bought them.. Holy Spirit knows!

and.. was actually wondering..how should I do the hand corsage? note: I don't have any manual/ reference book with me.. bUt.. hey I was just trying out with this lilac organza ribbon when.. idea struck..simple it may seems.. but I think Jac will like it.. haha.. cUz it's so me.. haha.. sweet! ended up sleeping at 5:05+ I was actually smsing someone.. but ended up dozing off without sending the message..

woke up really late.. 7:25am.. with the big bulky ang pow bOx. I need to take a cab.. (not to mention.. I'm late!!! ) went to the market to withdraw $.. hop on the cab.. alas.. my dear phones are snuggled up in bed still�� spent $5 for nothing.. retrieved my fones.. and was stuck in a jam at PIE (should I know, I take mrt and will reach the same time.. I arrived office at 8:50am!) but then.. I managed to take 40 winks and lo and behold the headache/ nausea feeling that I woke up to was gone.. (Thank God for the instant healing. was contemplating with MC when I woke up)

noPe.. I'd not tell my cgl yet�� cUz.. he's off to Taiwan.. when he called me on Tuesday�� I realized something.. I gOt another chance to do what I failed badly at the other time..

last night.. I was actually thinking of how to compose my farewell email�� ha ha!

come to think of it.. my prOspect at iras is rather bright.. bUt my good = X= His best.. the enemy of best is good.. (which reminds of a song my pri sch teacher taught.. Good better best, Never let it rest, Let your good be better and your better best!) Sounds silly right? but it's so true

hmmm was asked to be the mandarin emcee for my friend's wedding.. ah.. she sms-ed me ard 3+, asking me if I interested to be the emcee.. (btw her sms got typo error.. I read it as "mandrain mcee".. my reaction.. "huh, Man Drain Mcee what's that?" turned out that she felt that me mandarin standard can make it.. (and she got the feeling that I was very experienced .. Huh? Me only went to eh.. at most 3 wedding dinners.. and never really helped out until.. ziv & jac.. kekeke.. ) cUz her brother-in-law can't speak mandarin.. so ya she looking fOr one effectively bilingual person who will not be afraid to speak publicly.. hmmm I take this a cOmpliment.. (conducting a class to an auditorium f 100+ with scripts ~ hmm recently "promoted" from speaker-class to panelist.. ha! I'm scheduled to be on the Q&A panel in Sept 05�� ha ha.. most likely.. I won't be doing that..

hmmm wonder how's everything gOnna turn out.. man.. I've not missed my own service for a really long time�� somehow.. I just feel more at home @ my own service�� I guess it's the atmosphere that makes the difference.. Gee..

as I was happily composing.. I wonder.. what's going through the mind of the person reading this.. hmmm at least for those who tagged me.. I won't.. and seriously.. I guessed this is one good avenue for people to know me.. cUz.. I'm usually silent..

have u ever wonder why more =x= best? heard of the phrase : " Too many cooks spoil the broth?" given a chOice.. I would want me bedroom.. to be this large and spacious room..no bed.. just a raised platform of parquet.. and my mattress.. and lotsa pillows / cushions.. (hmm now I feel like sleeping��). .simplicity is beauty��

recently was actually chided for not wanting to "socialize". she asked me.. "Are you're happy that they'll be celebrating your birthday with you?" actually.. I told her, I don't mind.. I guessed she was rather shocked at my response.. well.. it's not that I'm not appreciative of their thoughts to celebrate with me.. (hmmm maybe that time was the hOrmonal changes.. keke.. ya.. blame the hormones! ) but at that very point in time.. what I want is to spend time with my close pals.. not having the necessity to "entertain".. hey.. I do concur with your point that "if I were you, I would want to get to know them better." but.. a part of me just want to be totally at ease��ya..comfort zone.. I think I'm rather like xy. I totally agreed with her views on the attendees of her special day a couple of weeks agO.. remember about what u said about "maggie's father?" (if u don't comprehend.. it's ok��)

hermione is trying her best.. "dead-meat" is what she wants to attain.. hmmm I think at times.. I such a perfectionist.. ah..

a flurry of activities arOund me now.. yes.. I'm blogging @ work again.. they are all so excited for the wedding dinner which one of the manager had invited them to.. (his daughter is getting married).. am I going? I was invited.. but I declined.. cUz.. Thursday is my cellgrp day and.. never had I expect that ryan is not around�� okie..time to go�� for cellgrp.. I guess I would share all that I'd experienced after I'd done what I'd procrastinated for soo long.. ivory, r8ch.. I will not put off any long ok?

*ahh�� I love this song on class 95 now.. U2's With/ or without you.. this just remind me of the "closure episode: the one that Rachel & Ross finally became an item.. btw season One of Friends.." avid fan.. sad that it ended already�� like the ending that I envisioned.. Rachel is paired with Ross..

I think I'm losing my sanity�� kekekkee��

~ the sweetOne said this while @ work.. blogged from 9am to 6pm.. (i.e ya.. created during wOrk..haha)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:21:00 AM

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

*Colours / Cranberry*

gee.. anOther presser.. yes.. it��s more than a month.. yes.. I��ll do that.. yes�� Please spare me.. if I can resolve this instantly without the red tapes.. I would have done it immediately��

green.. haha.. I've wearing green for 2 days in a rOw�� come to think of it.. do I have any favorite colors? Actually since joining choir.. my preference in color takes a drastic jump.. used to adore black.. then went into the pastel phase.. Ever since the requirement to be adorned in bright colours.. I think I like many shades.. my preference for colour.. is dependent on mood.. hmm which explains why I used to love black.. one thing proven. Acquired taste does exist�� think I have a very colorful wardrobe..

Cranberry.. Another type of berry.. another acquired taste�� the more u eat, the more u like it.. I enjoyed eating cranberry bread.. the juice.. not bad.. the dried fruit by itself.. not too sweet with a tangy feeling.... Hmm some who are reading might be frowning.. ��is this yet another parable?�� let just say.. it's some thoughts in my head that need a little airing.. sOmehow I have a penchant for berries ah? heehee.. Trying to draw parallel? Don��t bother, it won't get you anywhere...Oh.. recalled that I'd a cranberry orange @ Orange Julius on Sunday�� ya.. I know this is out of Point..

ha.. hermione.. the berry-raver!

Nose.. I think my nose is really sensitive.. if I clean up my room.. I would become Santa's fave animal.. the reindeer! and they would commence on their 2.4 km run.. yay...valid excuse for not doing housework!! and I can't stand weird smell�� my definition of weird: anything that fall short of smelling good & fresh.. ahhaha ambiguous!! I guess my tolerance for unpleasant smell.. is really low�� much lower than my endurance for pain�� I detest cigarette smoke.. it stinks and irritates my throat��I abhor the ��scent�� permeate into my breathing space from another person. I guess that��s me.. Seeking for the perfection. Actually this is so achievable�� Just clean & freshen up! *Anyway, guys�� cologne must cheaper than ladies'.

~~ P.s. I better refrained from blogging while working.. Not productive at all today. I think I��m falling sick�� feverish now.. Started with bad throat.. today.. fever�� am definitely not taking anymore of the trashy food�� I hate fever.. makes u weak.. the bones aches.. ah.. need to rush on the wedding project.. promised Jacelyn 2 mini tiara.. okie.. me gotta go tampines later.. to SpOtlight��

p.p.s do I come across as a indecisive person? actually.. if you pose me a question and my reply was anything but a definite answer.. it means that I��m really clueless and I have no preference..

hmmm passed by m:phosis during lunch.. was in town cuz me went town to settle bills.. Bought this black knee-length dress, (not too exp) I think I would wear to Jac��s wedding dinner.. saw this pair of white heels at charles and keith�� hmm getting the privilege card from friend so can get discount.. hmm�� gotta be aunty.. Cuz trying to reduce wastage..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 10:36:00 PM

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*another day has begUn... a morning of revelations:*

(a) i actually love to sleep.. ha.. despite of my owl-like activities.

(b) u don't need to have a reason to love, to feel... (happened to on the radio~ eh, the dial was at 933 ~ can't be bothered to change.. but soon.. after Sun's song.. the song, 娌℃��浣� was on air... ��娌℃��浣�锛��ラ��变��娌℃��扁�� the feelings just cOme..p.s. me talking about my love to my Creator Father... I dunno why.. but I just can't help but to love Him.. I wonder if 10 years ago, had i responded to the altar call at a yOuth outreach by eh.. dunno which church though but definitely not CHC.. (i think then, they held their meeting at a building near CCH branch) near the badminton centre.. where will i be now... (hmm actually i had raised my hand inwardly.. but shy .. perhaps, they weren't sensistive enOugh... just that nO one me encouraged me loh... scared mah) but then again, God has already pre-destined me to be in CHC.. would i ever leave.. unless He called me to another place��

(c) genuinely amazed at God's pOwer.. sitting at different parts of the SIS, GOd spoke to me.. and knowing how little faith I'd concerning this matter, the Holy Spirit prompted Max to sms me.. actually i was surprised to see max's sms.. until I read his blog early this morning.. i realised why he sms me! wOw! (Max note.. I know it's not abt sot.. )

(d) my deco at my workstation is minimum and my "pantry supply" at my work station was running Out.. didn't replenish cuz.. won't be here for long...i told iVOry.. how i hope I was retrenched.. then it will be easier... bUt then.. it will be so unglorifying.. still can't imagine what would my colleagues reaction would be... when i tender my resignation... cUZ.. almOst all left cuz of career advancement...

e) i enjOyed ��painting�� others' faces.. dOn't know why but Michelle seems to like me to ��paint�� her cheeks�� actually I don't really know how to apply make-up..and think that my skills rather bad prior to joining choir.. but then again.. I guess it's just a matter to bring out the colours.. so.. haha.. self-taught skills.. sOrta had some skills in make-up that.. ahha..some of the choir sisters that I painted their faces dUring the SIS told me to consider make-up ministry�� ehh�� As far as I like.. this is definitely not my calling.. :)

f) limited mindset.. people would think.. this gal is definitely out of her mind to throw her education/ career away.. P.s. you get to live this life on earth once only.. shouldn't u be dOing what derives most jOy.. and.. to live is die and to die for Christ is gain... (ha.. but that doesn't mean I gonna do a kamikase on the anti-Christ.. eh.. that's foolish.. cuz it doesn't change anything... ) come to think of it.. how would i feel if I'm one of thOse hostages that are going to be executed by the terrorist.. would i still be soo garang... death is just a process.. the only difference is how u go thru' it.. the carnal mind just can't bear the painful death.. me..? I dunno..but i won't deny my faith.. Oh.. morbid thoughts in the morning...

g) why I was feeling restless at work�� cuz no motivation.. was actually relocated from my usual kakis.. so now.. am couped up in my small cubicle�� no one to talktalk..

~~God really knows me... and i just feel soooooo loved..~~

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:32:00 PM

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Monday, November 15, 2004

*Thanks to all my lovely friends...*

had a very happy & memOrable bIrthday this year.. (this was a cOnstrasting difference from last year... jUst recalled that i got to see the same person on my birthday.. ahhaha.. so happy.. heehee gUess who ah? strawberry !) btw it was on 14 November.. (cuz was toooo tired to blog last nite.. was out till 10+.. really concussed when i gOt hOme.. like what max said.. pOOr gUy.. no updates fOr him to rEad!)

hmmm .. jUst felt so privileged tht I was serving God on the chOir stand on my birthday.. actually was very tired.. so am supposed to wake up at 6 to make-up and have my breakfast.. but the sleepbug strikes! I woke up at 5 min to 7! mad rush... wash-up.. only managed to put on minimal make-up.. and went out...

serVice was Wow! (Cuiqi, Jolene and I was sitting at the west balcony ~ thanks to qi's darling, if not noOne look after our bags...) man.. I was sooooo touChed when the song "crossing over" was sUng.. had tears streaming down... was bRought to mind 3years ago that i walked dOwn to the altar call area (@ SIS itself).. aaahh.. Just felt soooooo thankfUl to the Holy Spirit to get my stUbbborn feet to walk..:) and... ah..

Okie.. being sitted at the high end of the SIS.. with the Oh so romantic subtle lighting and less than 3 hOurs of sleep.. i fOund my eyelids drOoping.. think for 5min+ when Pastor Ulf began preaching.. bUt.. was reaLLy blessed by these 2 services... cUz.. it's not just inspiration.. it's transfOrmaTION! (yes r8ch & vOry.. me wOn't procrastinate any longer ya...)

Hmmm very blessed.. cuz these couple of days have been like celebration day for me... wednesday.. got my 1st gift.. thursday... some of cg celebrated with me... friday... got some more pressie..sat.. got more pressie.. & God's word.. Sunday (the actual day).. some of my cell members & leader had lunch with me.. and dear ivOry & claire to spend time with me after rUshing from SIS... and then dinner with my mum & brother.. today.. (monday) went Out with r8ch & claire.. caught a movie... the forgotten.. (though the movie was not that fantastic a movie... I was really moved.. of the love/ bond between a mom & her child.. there and there I was reminded of God's love for us.. when we're lOSt.. He too will search for us... no matter what, we would not be forgotten... )thanks gals for the mOvie treat & the slice of cake... & Vory.. thanks for the thOught tO spend it with me.. hmm hOpe all's resolved ah?

hmm.. they revealed that they wanna pass me my pressie on sat.. gUys.. I won't be attending service this sat.. me got wedding dinner to attend.. so meet me sUnday can? or wait till vory's paper over? (haha.. U nOtty guys dun want to let me know wat u getting me..)

somehow.. this year like my 21st bday... [my 21st was a humble affair]... I'd been celebrating my birthday.. ( priniciple of sowing & reaping as a birthday IC? hahaha!)...

so to end my day before i zzzz...
THanks to the following:
* rAchel: hey gal.. thanks for spending today with me.. and hey if u wrapping stRawberry up.. pls dun let it suffocate.. fruit will decompose! be Jovial ya (hahahaha!)

*ivOry: thanks gal for sacrificing ya revision hours on sunday... I really appreciate it! and dear.. Jia you for your exams.. dun worry.. U can do it!! (will be praying for U!)

*claire: thanks dear... for coming out today (despite having ur sOt paper on tues.. ) I feel really bad.. hmm add oil ok.. am sure U will get yr cert in dec! dear sister claire! (heehee.. ok.. U'll always be my dear "dotter"

* jolene: heehee.. thanks for ya birthday sOng.. :) (the 1st one i heard on sunday!)

*cuiqi: thanks for ya lovely gift.. and really enjoyed the time spent with U.. and trully... like what ur "parting" sms as the choir helper before re-shuffle..really got to know u better.. sister cuiqi.. very fUn to be with.. and heehee.. I like the present that will be given tO u late.. U take care of ya voice ok!

*peiliong: haha.. thanks for ya vritual birthday song.. hahha.. I'm always sweet.. wrinkles? eh.. the only wrinkle i like is wrinkle cut potatoes! (p.s. see comments 4 eugene as well)!

*huiming: thanks.. for the pressie.... (i will put them to good use... ) and kekeke.. will try to let my cells to not over-reproduce!

* max: yo brother.. am really speechless when u told me u only slept ONE hour on sunday.. brother.. what u've created is really a masterpiece ya.. I feel really bad to make u go on ur coffee/milo diet.. U better dun stick to this next year.. thanks brother!!

*eugene: lil bro.. thanks for ya wish.. (heheheee... I'm very clean that day. compared to wat u & long did to me in sEptember.. ha.. see I'm in ONE piece and clean!)

* Vicky: thanks thanks for ya wellwishes.. ur turn very soon too rite.. p.s lesson will resume after ziv's wedding.

*joyce: heehee.. i dun mind being the bday ic... but heehee.. maybe the treasurer wanna take over? hmmm.. thanks girl for ya sms.

*strawberry: thanks.. for the one-liner that u sang when i was asking where u were. after i ended my sentence and u appeared singing "happy birthday to you!". thanks for ya treat as well..

* jayceln & ziv: thanks for ya gift.. am still growing rOses... so.. glad that u're not reading this.. Ops! they will be reaDy by the rehearsal on fri!

* sister gene: thanks for ya birthday wish.. wonder how u know.. :) miss ya

* wanling & yUshan & cat: thanks gals for ya wishes.. wanling & shan: add oil for ya papers ya!!

* meiwen: thanks! hmmm been a loong time since we go out ya..

* to the rest of my friends who remembered... thank U..

despite knowing that most of them would not be reading this.. really wanna thank them for remembering... and most importantly.. Father God.. who has answered my birthday wish for an answer and for finding the lost me back! :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:55:00 PM

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Sunday, November 14, 2004

*Calling... Nuture, and protect it*

Wow... Today's sermon was wOw.. :) I was like.. man... the peRfEct timing! elaborate later.. I just like to give a lowdOwn on toDay

o.. i wOke up at 10:30.. replied irene's msg and konz a bitsy more.. Ah.. 11am.. call time was 1pm.. showered.. and made-up (half way.. only foundation.. and brows.. hey irene.. I can try to shape ur brows..)

hmmm.. had my 1st meal (and last meal) a chicken pau frOm cheers. (not berry nice.. but no time to eat prOper) and this became my sOle-dinner.. (and i left my $$ at home.. and the AtM only dispense $50.. so ya.. i withdrew $50 ~ the sole piece of note that I'd have)

rehearsal was :)... being at SIS reminded me of the easter prOduction.. the memOries.. the 1st time I became more invOlved in cHoir.. :) and the inevitable also came to mind.. cuz that period marks the beginning of my depression state... and kinda bad.. that it haunts me a bit here and there when we were was going thrU the rehearsal.. somehow the stigma still haUnt me..

glad that I bRought another top.. the red mango turtle neck.. cuiqi.. it looks very nice on U..:)
and thanks for the glitterly earrings :) ~ I'll wear that tmrw...

rain... it rained at 5+ ting flew my plane... so did my parents..

the overall atmosphere was great... actually.. i was rather.. dazed at the stage.. cUz..for the whole day.. i only had that pau @12:30. and.. I happily gave God the last piece/ sole piece of note in my possession.. the blue one.. (ha.. reminds me of the member who wanted change cuz mentality was that couldn't expect me to give $50 rite.. usually i give only $10).. i almost wanted to do tis limited mind capacity thingy.. but.. i was reminded of my indignant towards tis member response.. and haha.. I did something I heard peOple talked about.. the one having the last note.. and heehee.. I know He will provide me with more..

p.s. the SIS platform was haha..if u realised when the choir jump..the figure 2 & 0 (that makes up 2004) at the left -side of the stage shook when we did.. and it was a shaking experience..

Kudos to my cellmembers (dUnno who or maybe it was sis siew choo or bro ryan) who boOked the seats.. cuz i managed to sit at the floor area.. and really the message tODay was for both the young and matured believers and non-believers.. calling... my calling... this is the theme for my blogs fOr quite a long time now...

I asked GOd.. for the pUrpose I was created for.. I asked Him.. what's the path after sot.. I feel like Abraham.. and today's message on my calling. was a confirmation upon confirmation of what He had spoke to me recently and in the past... (as Pastor Ulf had put it.. the asian/ singaporean mentality.. huh.. really?) I was instantly reminded that this was how i reacted.. and.. o.. I really agree to what Pastor said.. When GOd calls you, He will always call you to do the impossible.. I was instantly brought back to my hermione education fund... I know that the $ will come..

Indeed I will protect and nurtur my calling...

A.. tired.. let me sleept soon ok..

(p.s. Max.. I know that rising up = sOt.. bUt it's an avenue to my calling to serve him ft!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:29:00 AM

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*Thank You...*

I got more pressei.. me tired let me recupoertate..
see ya ard michelle
later reporting time 8pm.. ket e ttake cabf with jol.. hmmm i wanna sleeping.. byeeeee

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:29:00 AM

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Saturday, November 13, 2004

*I'm finally going offline*

I can see the sun.... yes... the Sun is up.. I'm awake for 24 hOurs!! tmrw's my biRthdAy!!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 6:59:00 AM

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*it's dawn time*

Okie.. I should be sleeping now... It's 20 minutes to 6am... I know my dear bio-techer friend will tell me abOut the cell mutation.. i know the repercussion of insufficient sleep..I know I ought to protect this temple.. okie... i will sleep soon.. gotta type gently.. i tink dad's awake..

was sOurcing for music clips.. hmmm used to like blur.. (hmm they used to be in rage when I was in sec sch..with oasis.. ya.. that's my era..) wanted song 2 but think it's tooo noisy for some to bear..

Today's the 13 th Nov.. One more day.. I will be a quarter century old..

went to yUshan's blog.. kekeke.. she commented at my parables writting... (ha..Peeps reading my blog and yet i was clueless. guess this is the perils of having an online journal) I guess this rather transparent.. but... hey, it's just me.. so.. dun think this would hUrt anyOne.. haha but my parables can be crap on surface.. hahha.. bUt.. there is a meaning...

hmm MAx asked me this qUestion.. (cuz we were tokking abt something and since he shared his view.. i guessed he wanna hear my side.. ) what do i look for in a guy... to be exact, my future partner to be..

wellwell.. (a) he's 1st love must be God.. then me.. :) (b) so he must be a MOG~ translate man of God, stronger than me spiritually and able to lead me.. (c) he should be in the same cHurch as me.. cuz i'm rooted in CHC.. :) (d) character.. well a mog should poessess Christ-like character (e) no BO ~ sorry i have s very very very sensitive nOse.. and obviously well-groomed *hey i see hair from some brothers' nostril.. and it's eek... I'm particular abOut the overall look.. o.. i'm shOrt..yes.. I'm under 1.6.. haha so.. no height factor.. ha.. nothing to be ashamed of.. remember keyong and i used to pride ourselves to be the under 1.6 club in vnr (o that btw is my JC eca.. ventures and roovers..and nope.. i was never a guide.. and i'm so "ku-niang" now..so can't imagine rite?) (f) he must love the night.. cuz I'm a dUsk person... and haha..able to bear my "pOrridge"...and share my love for muSic..
Not too tall an order..

in case some might wonder who/what the "strawberry" that appeared in this blog.. sometimes it signifies me.. sometimes it signifies him (dun ask me who.. cuz no answer).. sometimes it reall the fruit.. sOmetimes... (too many sometimes... remind me of the the patty smith song... ) had been awake for 23 hours le.. I need tO blog off le..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 5:59:00 AM

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*I'm a long-winded Soul*

hmmm.. revelation.. I can't use the blogskin that most put for use at blogskins.. cuz my chinese characters would becomer gibberish...

second thing that i realised today.. that really your countanence will fall when you're not walking with God.. ha.. this was informed by max.. brother.. I'm not surprised... I was indeed in the pits of the pits in the July/August period... (think this blog does have the lowdowns - abridged)

and... i'm insanely sleepy yet I'm still blogging.. was on msn with iVory.. then with Max..& kiki for a while.. Max.. ur server very very unstable.. and it has been an enlightening chat... and :) ganbatte for next year...

O.. and the numerOus tags i recieved...& my replies..
eLaine* apple! Hihi... ur bloggie very interesting now.. :) yes.. u can blog with tags and links..missya happie laughter...

Cuiqi* thanks... :) yup... I wanna go bible school next year.. and really enJoyed tOkking to U... and happIe bIrthday in advAnce.. ( can me add ur link?? )

Yushan* xiexie ni for your encouragement... Ganbatte for ya papers.. U will see the pOinty grades (i.e. As)

Eugene* the one who call me da-jie.. yo.. brother, thanks 4 ya encouragement... :) looking forward to fun time dUring x'mas ya? Meville PArk again?

Max* the one who might "terrorise" me for extended period of time next year: Brother.. ur testimonies led me to see u in a different light.. and actually.. i quite enJoy ur caffine-high-antics haha... next year.. exciting year..

ivOry* heehee... i entertained u with my silly pompom jokes ah.. hey i wanna see lola.. U kept saying he's sooo cute... tempt me... hahaha.. u're definitely the "brain".. me the pinky.. ahha

mIng* reAllly appREciate for all U have done.. and the bag u gave me went on its 1st day of wOrk..and it's sooo me...

~ At cuiqi's suggestion.. i went to bro jae's blog... actually i was already very encouraged by what he shared during choir prac 2 weeks ago... cuz i totally identified with that..and truly.. I'm very inspired by him.. after reading his blog..

one thing i realised.. I know how peOple reacted when they decided to read my archives.. cuz i did that myself.. its looooooong & confusing...

dark ages.. I'd been thru'.. very scary... hmmm maybe u guys may have detected it.. or may not.. but I thank God for His faithfulness.. when i'm faithless.. and to reserrect the dead dream that I had and given me a new dream.. :) and my dear friends who knew abOut it.. and prayed for me and encouraged me..

ah... it's 4:30am++.. I need memOrize the chinese lyrics.. only those that never sang in chinese church...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:34:00 AM

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Friday, November 12, 2004

*pink/red *

as of now.. I swarmed with pink/red coloured pressie.. ( I'm not complaining.. haha..I'm sweet ya.. like attract like) ~ evident of the hyper-effect on hermione..
let me list the pink/red items...
1. red dkny watch
2. Pink flowery bag
3. Pink bedroom sleepers..
4. Pink/forever friends 7250 handphone cover.. haha even my phone get a pressie!
5. pink/red pen..
6. a very bright red/pink flowerpint wrap skirt ~ thanks jenny & sharon! :)
~ i have a feeling i got more pink items on the way...

the sweetie strawberry skips by...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:14:00 PM

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*I say...*

today.. concentration span not there�� just heard a story on radio from a listener on her brother taking his life�� sad story.. Thank God it was a failed attempt.. life's short.. really short.. and life is fragile..

why does one think that ending his/her life would solve all problem? It won't.. ultimately, what comes out of this is only.. temporary escaping from reality. Escapism. Kinda sad to read news article on people ending their lives cUz they can't resolved the issues by themselves...

Just like the chiongster.. the momentarily feeling of high @ the expense of your livers/ lungs.. is it wORth it? matter of fact.. I actually like the jarring music.. hmm the drinks. .well.. I'm sorta prOud to say... I've yet disgrace myself by being drunk despite being saboed to drink half a bottle of vodka mixed with ribena.. haha.. High... eh.. funny to say... the "highest" moment in my life occurred when I was praising God in midst of praise & worship... ( 2 of my friends flew my plane for clubbing...)hmm it was fun when u're there... jumping ard, with the moves etc.. but afterwhich.. the problem is still there... the lonesone feeling is still there.. U feel worse than ever.. and u can't escape forever.. u can go raving when u're young.. how about when u're in your middle-age.. do u still have the energy to party your blues away.. (even u have.. eh..chances are people u find at the clubs will snigger at u..) ending ur life is such a feeble attempt to solve the problem.. the only party that is happy will be the devil..cuz one more to enter the gates of hades..

hmm... can i do anything about it? Yes.. all of us.. the little Christ can.. we are light among darkness.. don't belittle the spark u have.. (e.g. a small candle can fill the whole room with its warm and light.. )

I think i'm getting more and more long-winded..

Erratic thoughts.. @ work
(A)strawberry cRush..the recipe
Ingredients: strawberries, ice
1. Take the strawberries (washed) and subject them to a mad/whirlwind blending with ice.
2. Pour into glass and enjoy the sweet/sour/cooling sensation
what a weird recipe�� anything in between the lines.. haha�� Just had my cuPpa. sO.. hmm maybe a continuation from this morning chat with r8ch.. ha..

(B) more strawberries some might wonder..
what's with strawberries.. hmm .. I guess the sweetie image that's attached to strawberry makes it so irresistible to write about.. do i like strawberries? hmm i do.. oso like blueberries but then again.. they are not always in seasOn.. strawberries.. aH.. I think mOm bought some of them on wed..

(a) & (b) are self-explanatory�� Je ne comprends pas? hmm why don't we just leave it as that ?

(C) one strawberry pop
hmmm another strawberry note.. hmmm tried its best le.. its friends in the neighboring vines not ready for harvest.. or had it did not do its part well enough to spur them/ influence them on? don't let the plantation rot.. already over-ripe�� no time to wait.. it pops and scans through the memory bank.. who else had I yet not talk to�� some of them seems so ulu.. and the others had insisted to clang onto the stem.. not wanting to be harvested.. time to move on��its boss said�� not enough�� keep on keeping on�� Moral: the harvest is white for harvest.. where are the workers?

(D) the ever so jumpy strawberry
the little strawberry bounces up & down�� very excited that it finally stop its nutri-drip and get different kind of nutrients.. looking forward to its new phase of life. Moral of story.. don't settle for the least when God can and wants to give us the best.

eh.. dun fret if you don't understand the strawberry stories ~*the sweetie strawberry skipped by~*

mOre thOughts.. am really using quite a lot of my grey matter.. how can i make my last cOuple of months cOunt... christmas.. my last attempt.. cUz i'd sorta a close netwOrk of contacts.. those that I'd know.. i'd tried to reach out... grOund rather hard...

last thought.. yay!! I overcame my fear of inviting my dad.. though he was sorta ridiculing us worshipping.. Mom not happy that I will not be around.. ask her to go... she dun want.. I pray that sunday can take her down... devil's @ work.. but he will not prevail.. btw.. that create a rukus that I'm too "mi".. translate.. my parents think that I'm over-indulging in my "religion"~ Note.. Christianity is not a mere religion.. it's a tRUe relationship with God Almighty!
question is.. will they go? I pray that they will (see if they're saved.. my problem of PO will be solve more easily.. but note.. the red horny one will try thawt this .. I'll pray..)

as for ting.. she still had not confirm timing.. but sure will go.. I pray that she and her bro & mum will come into SIS... cuz she asked for service timing... so.. likelihood she interested.. praying hard..:)

just short of 30+ rOses.. for jacelyn's guestbook.. and the slit for the angPow box.. AH.. the corsage i will do after this weekend...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:01:00 PM

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*Quiet time.. 12/11/04..3am*

I asked God for more. Indeed more was given unto me/required of me. How much more?

No doubt I'd made the choice of (yes, finally) ending my "career" in the tax line to another phase of life that I'd never thought that I would be going into. i.e. to give up my "iron-rice bowl" into the realm of the great unknown�� Like Abraham, who gave up everything he had to go to the Promised Land. Despite not knowing what's ahead, he pressed on. (Was reading Hebrews 11. on the faith heroes.)

Just occurred to me that I'd never made such a strong decision to the extent of "point of no return", i.e. had given whatever I'd to the extent that there's no point to turn back. (Was reading bimei's blog on her recent bs. (I believe it was on the Armour of God.) Once again, I was reminded that the shield was only for the front. i.e. the only way we can head is forward, cuz if you turn your back against the battle. U will not be "insured" against the flying arrows/ the on-coming assaults.

Do I fear God or do I fear man? 1st commandment is to love God with all my heart. another commandment was that I should respect my parents.. the red-eared devil indeed knows the Goliath in hermione's life.. but.. 2 years of waiting is long enough.. really.. God's timing is the perfect timing�� indeed if I'd gone bible school in 2003/4 or to do part-time sca in 2002.. I don't think I would have made it.. cuz I nearly went under many times��. every time I fell.. I was lifted up again.. with each fall, the level that I climbed was higher.. (though the fall was also harder) and yes.. I still do think with my little mind�� let just say I created headache for myself cuz l like the letter "Y".. reasoning with a limited mind that can't see beyond the 3-Dimensional��

10 months had passed.. it has been an eventful ten months.. went in and out of near-depression-state.. suicidal thoughts? nope.. (ha, it's a sin/ crime to commit suicide!) backsliding? Yes.. (especially in the May/June period). Quit ministry? yes.. cUz my self-esteem was on the decline.. was it self-inflicted? Yes.. cUz I relied on self more than I lean on God.. But, Father God who created me, knows me.. if I don't fall, I won't learn.. God chastens only who He loves.. when I gave up on myself, He never did.. When I look at my mistakes through my magnifying glass, He blots them out.. (o.. was just skimming through' the past entries.. and realized that Vicky had commented in one of my downtime entries.. ~ ha I only read this 3+ months later!)

digressing.. anyway I was asking God what does He want me to do after bible school. and I was lead to turn to Jn 21:15-19.. Yes.. I read this verse before. My focus was only on v 15 to v17.. last night.. what linger on was v18 & 19.. my immediate carnal response was.. "��" (jaw-dropped)" really, am I up to it?" (immediately, morbid thoughts came to mind as I visualized v18.) What's the extent that I love God? Does it means jumping higher during pnw/ crying buckets? God looks at the inward. not the outward�� I told God.. wherever He leads me to.. I will follow��exciting times ahead�� (Yup, this is the "more" I was talking about at the beginning.)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 10:28:00 AM

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*black...*

just occurred to me that the overall look of my blog looks soo gloomy... will do something abt it when i have the time... I still have not "grOwn" the roses yet... gotta go spolight.. think my ribbOn running Out... O.. btw.. I got my lilac dress for ziv & jac wedding.. yay.. need not go combing for clothes...

ok.. I know the effects of depriving myself of sleep...

the caffine is not wOrking... haha.. I think it's kicking in.. I'm gOing a bit insane.... haha...Or maybe it's just past the hOur..

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:20:00 AM

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*blessed... very blessed...*

felt very blessed... TOday... (though it ain't my bday.. ) I got a no. of friends who came out to celebrate with me..
(actually felt as if I'm celebrating my 21st.. thOugh it was eh.. 4 years agO..)

slept till 11.. felt like a princess..heeehee.. that I can finally bury myself in the softy cushy bed till the sun is shining brighty over me.. met munhon @ 145 tO pass him the linkcard.. then zipped off to meet Ming.. girl.. love ur hair color! Thank U for spending time with me... in ur oh-so-high/unwalkable heels... Ur lovely presents will be put to good use.. :) especially the One in paper fOrm.. I really appreciate that.. and today.. i learnt a no. of things from u as well..thanks for speaking into my life.. (though my flesh really disliked that... ) but... THank U! o.. i guess i'll be sUper-pinky for now.. cuz i received a lot of pinky items.. :)

oso... thanks to the 4 brothers from my cellgrp/ex-cg who came down to dine wif me.. Thank U terence, chris lee, mak, and max (the sole one who is reading this..). and Chris-zhengliang.. thanks for messaging me after waking up... Really thank U..

max.. Jia You.. U've have come a long way.. am sure what you've been thrU', it will not be wasted.. and yUp.. looking forward tO next year.. (what U shared @ pacific coffee really let me see a different perspective of max.. the serIOus max..) and brOther.. am really in awe of my bday card...hmmm now gotta crack my head fOr yours.. (p.s. can don't drink too much coffee.. not all can withstand the afte effects of caffine on max)

hmmm now i'm serving only sat svc.. happy that I'm off on my bday? not really... but there's definitely a purPose for that... :)

hermiOne's education fund is now in action... I never expect it to kick in soooo fast...
had too much coffee.. actually gUessed that I'm just overwhelmed by God's move today... Just in awe of His love... It will not be a easy way... 2005 will be a very different from 2004... it has already started.. am threading on different grOunds now.. and I'm not the navigator... He is....

took 518 back.. no particular reason.. but.. i enJoyed the walk.. (a mere 2 busStops away) very tempted to take the bus to interchange cuz ezlink now in deficit.. bUt.. too late.. ya.. so tmrw i shall walk to the mrt station.. Strangely.. I love to walk..(longest distance was frOm.. eh.. siglap, thRu the landed prOperties.. up the hill... to home.. I was staying @ bedok nth then.. in sec 3..with joanne whom i lost contact with.. should be a lawyer now..)(ha.. i walked home from sch b4 too.. from dunman rd to marine dr.. not that long.. haha) dunno why.. bUt.. i enjoy walking..cUz usually I'm alOne.. and thOughts are more focUsed.. and yes... where I started some conversations with God.. :)

okie.. time to continue the conversation...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:10:00 AM

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

*wOrship...*

was feeling very cold and hungry... (refused to take panadol cuz fasting till 6) but persisted on.... at 4:30pm ~ when i'm really freezing.. and head kinda cracking..~ this taxpayer decided to come without arranging for appointment.. I really dragged my feet dOwn.. hmmm I guess I looked kinda kiddy/ newbie to this uncle.. so he sOrta like tried to bUy me over with his tale.. (I was like.. God .. help me to say the right words! Btw this the 1st time I'md dealing with tp alOne.. ~actually should meet up with another colleague ~ just in case their wORds turn against me la..)I'm rather surPrised that I actually was rather firm and hahha not intimidated by this uncle.. in the end.. his soppy tale of his unfortunate biz.. his quarrels with his wife/ partner, inefficient ex-accoutant. bad business... failed to buy me over.. and ya.. he had agreed to settle... haha.. 1st time acheivement in the lone settlement of such tp.. but..guess what.. I dOn't feel a thing..
ACtually I feel very very free after I'd made the decision.. Cuz.. really got the Peace of mind.. though I don't know how it will come to pass.. but it will... (ps. I dun have mcuh savings..so ya.. it will be a miracle..)

today BS was.. wOw.. I really love the Word.. and .. today's topic was on :How to be a true worshipper.. one of the criteria.. "fullness of fatih" .. the "healing of my crack in the watch" came to mind.. just like the disciples cannot imagine with their carnal mind that Jesus can walk on water ~ they actually thought He was a ghost at 1st, the human mind cannot imagine miracle to take place.. BUT to me.. I actually witmess a non-lvining healing.. haha.. So if God cares to heal my broken watch face.. what more wOn't He do for me.. (Today was reading Jn 15 & Jn 16 ~ was prompted to read this.. ) this verses kept popping Our" Ask and it shall be gvien to u".this was repeated twice.. ) and i really love the WOrd.. not just to pUff up my mind.. but trully to be fully equipped on the Word.. to fulfill the pUrpose HE'd created me for.. Right from the start.. I was created with a pUrpose.. yes,, to serve him.. ( I totally agree with what Justin said.. It's an honour / privilege to serve God.. ) to some.. it might be "OT" to sing extra services.. or to be involved in big days.. to me.. It's an honour and privilege.. to serve in the chOir.. and to be involved in the SIS and hehee.. Christmas Caroling..

Tonite. Pastor really imparted alot to us... and he urges us to spend a year at bible school if permits and felt led to go... mione..it's really the time... I really look forward to discovering more aboUt His Word ~ God's love letter to us.. our word of life next year...

p.s. today told jojo that I might go SOT.. (might cuz.. i haven;t fill form & tell ryan).. and Justin was so cute.. he intended to find a school bus to fetch to sch next year.. too bad me stay in the east.. ahha.. i think it'll be like back to NTU life.. just that I stop one stOp it enters NTU...

heehee.. cat loves her birthday card.. dear.. I made it @ the stRoke of inspiration from God! (actually the ribbons were there to cover some flaws..ya it was never designed,, jsut flow...)

okie,, i sleeping now.. wonder if got last min SIs rehearsal later... yay!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:05:00 AM

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*My 1st prEssie*

My 1st bIrthday gift... :)

hmmm kinda divine.. (ya still living in the divine state..) cuz slept rather late.. so ya, woke up with a bad headache.. and i juSt wanna take sOmetime to wOrship God.. so ya.. i took half a day.. i prayed.. yes..more convicted (like what max sms me this evening.. welcome to the club..) and heehee.. after praying.. fell asleep.. and.. woke up at 11:45.. really dun feel like working.. but... sOmehow sense that my colleagues would want to pass me my birthday pressie.. heehee.. indeed i gOt my pressie.. hmm (though it's not the prefect gift of the spOnsership of my stUdies.. it's another watch.. Yup.. somehow they think i like red ~ but the red look goods on me.. heeheehee.. ren mei dai she me dou mei!~ last year they gave me a red swatch.. this year they gave me a red dkny..(thanks gUys! haha none will be reading this.. I can imagine their eyes pOpping Out if they learnt of my deciSIion...see previous pOst)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:17:00 AM

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

*decided...*

was talking to God that i can't stand it there anymore (guess what I dozed off while typing my report.. i was that tired it was ard 4+)

yay.. nice song on air.. Wilson Philips' You're in love.. (i love this album.. think I was in Pri 6? but can't seems to find it in cD shOp now)

hmm.. went fellowship with the anGels from chOir b4 Prac.. Prac was.. :) and PAstor Sun's tummy was Gigantic.. and she looks ever radiant!! :)

Prac ended ard 23:20.. (actually not really ended but i guessed there will likely be another prac b4 the actual day)

shared cab with qiqi, andres and irene.. hmmm funny that qi asked me if I'm going SOT next year ( I don't think I'd ever told her..).. apparently she felt led to ask that question.. then.. i was chatting to ivOry on msn.. she also pop this question... and ya.. had a long "chat" with her.. (like old times.. just that it was via icq.. now msn..) gotta talk to ryan soon.. after the big day...

am sooo excited abt this weekend!! (not withstanding the fact that it's when i turned a quarter century old.. approximately at time when the sUnday service commenced.. *yup my birth time ard then..* all i hope was that my friends will not tua me.. and they will proceed from the carnival area to the hall...

hope to save at least one soul b4 i leave iras... nitessssssss!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:22:00 AM

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Monday, November 08, 2004

*moRE thouGhts..*

haha.. i think i'm a chatterbox.. chatted with Jaycelyn for 1/2 hour..

tested grOund.. I think my quESt to stUdying next yeAR will be a mOuntainous one.. Causally mentioned that I might quit.. and my dad bombared me with qUestions (in a harsh tone..) This aIn't gonna be easy... bUt.. I'll sTrive on...

Is 49 came to me when I was very frastrated @ wOrk.. Frastrated not cuZ of work.. but aiyah...

heehee.. bro Jeff called... caroling sounds fUn...!

yay.. there will be SIS prac tmrw..

late... i wanna konnzzzz...

BTW if u had not nOtice my countdOwn bear.. I turning a year sweeter in less than 6 days!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:14:00 PM

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*erratic thoughts*

headache. hate it.. can't concentrate.
message passed down not specified. am I expected to second-guess the intention? instruction not given and yet expected to relay it. can I don't do it..?

flesh is very rebellious today.. system is down. very slow�� mind.. wandering.. at this rate.. do I need a shrink? [noPe.. I need sleep!]

Gee... why did that catch my eye again? am now making stupid comparison now.. I don't wanna think about it.. bUt somehow, it just get to me and make me lose concentration. I don't want to.{but I want to..} Things are better the way it is now. (but I just get it out of my head)
Words in italic are my wants.. my reasoning.. what matters to you most is what you think about most. my mind wants it.. Spirt & soul know that it's not correct...

am listening to cheena station now.. no particular reason.. just wanna change from soppy love songs on class.. bad.. apparently cheena hits also kinda lovey soppy.. apparently more than 70% of the pop songs are about Love.. (yups. love is the greatest of all) (1Cor 13:13)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:59:00 PM

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*monday.. color code: black*

my day in JB (double-click if u wanna know more!) no pics cuz me no digicam..but ming took a lot..:)

(heehee.. I'm dressed in black today.. sO ya.. the title.. and a little to do with my reluctance to work...)

This morning, was very tempted to take leave. I woke up at 5+, then again at 7+ (which meant that I went back to sleep after muting my alarms). Was dragged oUt of bed by the Holy Spirit. very tempted to take am leave cuz running late. but I didn't. Guess what. my boss is on Medical leave today.
r8ch sent me this email this morning titled "divine setups" which led me to my wandering thoughts again... don't waiver! Read this Psalm on my way to work, Psalm 46.

Psalm 46
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling.

There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
God is the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice, the earth melted.

The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge.

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who had made the desolations in the earth.
He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth.He
breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariots in the fire.

Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!

The Lord of hosts is with us;

The God of Jacob is our refuge.

Just like day and night, after 12 hours of darkness, the sun will rise from the east again. What comes after darkness? Daylight. Hence, when we are in the times of darkness..dawn will come. Ps 46:5. We may not know why we went thru', going thru certain periods/seasons of life, cuz His ways are higher than our ways (Is 55:9). He will not tempted us beyond what we can bear. Just be still and know that God is in charge (Ps 46:10)..

And the rainbow will come after the rain...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:56:00 AM

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Sunday, November 07, 2004

*quiz*

haha.. did this IQ test .. guess my score.. (though I know that I no need to take this test to prove that I'm not S-L-O-W)

Results of Your IQ Test IQ Score = 117
What does your score mean? Way to go! Your performance on the test was well above the population average. Typically, people with scores in this range perform very well academically, can relatively easily make it through university and generally achieve success in life.

Long time never do IQ quiz le.. think it was in P6.. after the PSLE results.. to see if qualify for gifted scheme.. haha my command of english not up to standard (though i was sure i did rather well at the other 2 papers..maths and the reasoning portion)!

easily made it thrU uni? haha.. i made it.. 3 years ago.. (not my greatest acheivement though... I think my greatest achievement was still the 3 days rOund s'pOre canOeing expedition during Jc1 ~ in attempt to get the youth award thingy ah.. but me no do social work... hahaha didn't get it eventually~ but it was fUn & memOrable.. hUiming.. agree? haha.. ) bUt i believe that my suCcess not determined by my intelligence quotient.. heehee.. it had already been mapped out in God's blueprint...

okie.. it's 15 min to 4am.. i better sleep...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:45:00 AM

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*wORship... *

during service 2.. during the 1st worship song.. i literally felt the veil lifted and walking into the Holies of Holies.. and visualising what I'd learnt in GOTP... I was really mesmerised by His loving touch.. His Shekinah presence!! and another dream birth forth.. i'd failed in this area once.. but I believed I'll make it the next time round... wow.. 2005 will be a year of WOW for me...

today.. Pastor Kong prayed for the members who are in the stage ministry after the word.. ... I was blown away by the message ( i believe that I may have burst some blood capillaries by clapping hard on my wrist.. ~ pen in hand.. hard to clap..).
During the sermon... was brought to mind how the hunger I used to have when i was still a "babe in weaning".. (I used to linger in His presence by worshipping for hour++~ note acapella~ in my rOOm.. especially when i 1st got my own room at beginning of 2003..) not that I'm not hungry now la.. I should eliminate the practice of taking bus home and walk.... usually on my journey home thru the park.. my conversation with God begins... I pledge my heart to be a worshipper all the days of my life! I will be a carrier of God's presence everywhere I go.. *this reminds me of a cheer from sec sch.. everywhere we go.. people want to know.. who we are.. where we come from.. so we tell them.. we are from XX.. mighty mighty XX.. so on and so forth..
Yups.. that's shall be the way!

God hears.. I saw a change somewhere in the congregation during praise.. someone's feet finally off the ground!! heeheehee... I'm so gald that I've acted on the prompting and instantly there is a change 2 days later!

God is good.. He is trully our Jehovah Jireh.. I thank God for the blessing for the JB trip.. cuz it's all expense-paid.. as u know.. someone bless me with the trip.. and my mOm blessed me with the ringgits to shop.. Hallelujah! And I believe in His Words and promises.. If He can bring $$ through me, He can bring $ to me!! God says it will be provided and Amen.. it will..

was talking to Diana online.. Girl.. know that u might not be reading this.. cuz u dunno this blog ma.. but really happy to know her.. Congrats on ya water baptism in advance! "happy birthday".. My water baptism didn't come that easy.. I was water-baptised on 29 Dec 01..and I have to get parental approval aka to sign the form ( a mustmust for the under 21).. I was 1 mth into my 22 then but brother andrew insisted that I get approval.. prayed.. after many tears.. it was signed.. from then on I was recognised as a Christian by my parents. (cuz to them.. not water-baptised.. not really Christian.. so ya glad that I made it open before them!)

gOing to play with my vocal cords.. acapella..& pray.. that all the new friends going to the JB trip will turn up for the SIS carnival at the bay too... and for good weather.. yay.. hope jayce will come since ting had confirmed on her attendance.. not sure sat or sun yet.. yay! It's harvest time! (there must be some lost souls to be saved b4 i leave iras... )

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:29:00 AM

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Saturday, November 06, 2004

*Survey...*

two years ago.. at around this time.. I did a organisational climate survey ("OCS" for short).. was rather upbeat then.. two years later today.. i did the survey again.. ( it's a bi-annual thingy).. hmm I guessed this will be the last time that i'm doing this OCS.. this question in the survey pop at me.. "seroiusly, have you considered leaving the organisation at the present moment in time." 3 choices.. "yes/no/don't now"... my response: a big fat cross on the box "YES".. hey.. i dOnt lie..

actually.. today.. i actually had a good day at work.. to be frank.. if i stayed on and willing to "pia", i can surely rise up that ladder... Question is.. "Is this just it? Am I willing to settle for the good?" currently @ good.. am not satisfied with just good.. the good is the enemy of best... best ain't gonna come easy..

hmmm was very blessed.. heehee..got new make-up.. Metro having store-wide 20% .. so ya.. bought some loreal prdts and heehee.. got a freebag & freebies and it's a early birthday gift.. plus.. mommy gave me the spending $ for JB trip..

started on the "ang pow box" at 11pm... mission accomplished at 1:30am. yay.. now left the guest book and corsages..

was kinda bored with the look of this skin.. but bearing in mind the chinese characters.. so ya.. no choice.. created another blog.. for fun.. and the skin was sooo sweet.. the last link at the sidebar!

it's one hour from dawn.. serving later.. yay! let me pray for the NTU students in my cell before i zzzzz.. OhaiYo!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:59:00 AM

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Friday, November 05, 2004

*the kairOs time...*

Yes.. it's staring plain at my face nOw... (btw just realised that the entry that I chanced upon was an unedited version.. here's the aftermath after the ��瑷��璇�... (extracted from the other blog)

"attended a teambuilding course in the morning...man, I was late.. but Praise the Lord.. I made it in time... [didn't sleep much last night..man..Oh man..hope I need not relive it again...nOpe...never want to...that would be the one and only time!]

The course coordinator showed some inspirational quotes...(actually was a 5 min video of quotes...) what stuck in me?the last phrase.. If not now, when???

actually I have this thought that flashes thru me...what are you doing here?? are you happy??
my mind was actually blank.. when posed with this discussion question during the workshop...what do I want to see in the division.. how can I contribute to the vision of the division?
my inaudible reply ? I wanna take flight!! now this phase is stuck in me...If not now, when?
I'm not an advocate of procrastination...but I tend to practice it a lot..which is hmmm not right...
I know I should leave soon...cuz this is really sucking the life out of me...
I have thoroughly lost the passion for work...
reason for staying: stable job?
reason for leaving: many?
Does this sum it all? maybe I'll have an answer sooon?Or I have the answer? Did I choose not to hear?
if not now.. when??
I read Psalm 143 last nite...sounds like the cries of my heart...."

[P.s. This was posted 23rd July.. .. also after cellgroup meeting... ] three months plus had passed.. It had never occurred to me what was the decision.. Now.. it just seems so clear...

Prior to cOming to cellgrOup.. was praying in the handicapped cubicle.. (haha, my secret place @ work).. aniwae.. Ya.. was indeed clueless how it's gOnna come to pass... was also complaining a little on having to go to JB.. {Can u believe it.. I got 5ive friends.. (actually it's 1+4..i.e. the 4 friends I dunno who they are..).. It's God at work... } cuz ya... am sorta in vit m deficiency.. malnutrition ya.. and God hears.. and a dear person had blessed me the trIp.. Thanks dear.. U know who U're.. (at 1st I thought u wanna sPonsOr me to.. hence i repeated huh? ) hey thanks dear.. I still believe I'll have an extraOrdinary pressie from Heaven this year!!

oo.. cellgrOup.. Message was titled. Following thru' our encounter with God.. Actually when Chris was sharing his testimony on how the things in his life just fall into place.. though he didn't realised it while he was going thru it.. I was reminded of the "��瑷��璇�" blog that I chanced upOn while housekeeping my files in my office PC.. (ya.. I was that distracted at times that I blog... ).. why was I lead to this particular file.. to remind me once again that... this is the time.. I wanted signs.. He gave the signs... and I was reminded of my "huh" reactions.. and indeed.. this is the time... cuz i wanted to follow thru' the encounter...& when ryan asked us to break into groups to discuss on how can we follow thru' our encounters.. long said.. write it down... I was further reminded.. yes..my manual spiritual diary.. indeed.. I'd quite a few... ( it's actually a joy and heehee.. fun to read thru them and I marvelled at times.. cUz ya.. some things had came to pass..(e.g. seRving in chOir and cellGroup) some had not.. cuz i doubted...

this dec, I'll may not be wearing the graduation robe when i receive the cert.... but next year I will!!

heehee.. got home today.. saw anOther two birthday card.. one was from NKF.. so cute.. the NKF life-drop sent me a card calling me "sister Hermione" with the pix of a little girl name zoey wishing me happie birthday.. and a card from sister evelyn.. the sticker insider with the kitty is so sweet..(o.. btw she's my insurance agent... not really la.. she helped me with a bitsy of financial planning...dun know what to call also.. hahha I know.. My 1st cgl!)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:14:00 AM

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Thursday, November 04, 2004

Reached hoMe 12:10 (cUz me shared cab with Cuiqi & Andres)..Haiz.. if i know, i would go to GTOP then take cab down with the rest.. but then.. i thought I might as well go pract.. aniwae.. i can go to the other class for make-Up lesson ba...

prActice was awesOme.. saT with AiPing.. one sister that I got to know last week.. anOther Teacher...seems that I got to know more and more teachers.. O.. I'm ON dUty this week.. cuz replacing wendy.. she got exam.. heehee.. I love singing.. actually like wat qi said.. no need to replace cuz very troublesome.. but me got 2 wedding dinner consequetive sats.. so ya.. I woUld be attending service 4 or 5 on weekend after big day.. (sad ah... alone.. who wanna accOmpany me..?)

O ya.. yay! I got 3 friends going to the JB trip this Sunday. (I invited ting, she didn't want to go kukup.. then I sms jayce..(an afterthought.. I didn't even pledged her) and she very onz on the trip.. and got another 2 friends.. (actually I really dun feel like going.. the Martha side emerging.. my excuse: I'm serving ChineseChurch this weekend le.. But.. the Spirit took over and yah.. me going JB lohs.. highlight: Strawberry would be there.. heehee) and I got a confirmed friend for next weekend.. YAY! (and I persuaded her to bring her brother as well.. hmmm.. told her about carnival mah.. ) can't be complacent.. keep praying..

hmmm as bRother Jae was sharing after prac just now... the events of April to Sept ran thRu my mind... totally identify with what he said... bUt His grace is sufficient for all... Amen! (now i know why i'd butterflies in my stOmach at 5+.. as if I know something will happen tonite.. and indeed... God hears..

am glad that I helped out in chinese chUrch.. cUz singing for bilingual will be rather easy... :) the rother sitting next to me was rather sUrprised cuz i can sing the chinese songs.. hehee. actually me chee-na not bad one.. but.. jUz that i dOn't listen to chinese pOp.. it's a habit cultivated since P6.. hard to revert.. so ya.. if i go KTV and I'm silent.. cUz i dUnno them.. bUt i caTch them quite fast...
aniwae. One way in Chinese is pOwer! wOw! hmmm the song item we're singing for the SIS was awesome.... looking forward to the rehearsals..

hmmm now.. am famished.. but.. too early le.. gotta pray and zzzzzzz .. and ya.. the songs for cellgrp..

o ya.. dear stUdents.. ganbatte... heehee if all goes well.. I'll be having my exams again too... Yay!

hehee.. i just realised all the muslims would be celebrating on my birthday... I'm sucha multi-cultural person.. 3 years ago.. Deepavali falls on my bday.. and this year is Hari Raya Puasa.. heehee...

okie.. QT time.. bye...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:30:00 AM

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Wednesday, November 03, 2004

*waited.. and waited...*

ha.. not that I'd nothing better to do to stay awake for sooo long.. actually fell asleep while waiting for the microsoft update to run.. wow.. it's super long... started downloading at 12+.... just completed and rebooted... haha... gotta play safe.. so downloaded the updates.. else i'll fall into trap of the "ingenious" peeps who decided to explore the loOphOles of ms systems... ya.. enOugh of viRus attack..

am tired now.... sleeping.. cUz it'll be loooooooong day ahead... I gUess i shOuld reach home tmrw bah.. cuz pract predicted to end at 11.. gOtta leave to catch the last mrt... cUz me low on vit m.

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 4:07:00 AM

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Tuesday, November 02, 2004

*Happie 21st birthday!!*

hmm today's my best buddy 21st! heehee.. me wOke up @8am (got home 12 cuz of jacelyn's jiemei meeting... then installed my new modem.. then blogger down so blog else where... . due to some reason... was feeling ultra sleepy at 3+.. but still can't fall asleep.. was very compelled to pray.. so ya.. breakthru' came.. and I was wide awake after praying... heehee..) my original intention was to take half day leave.. now take full day... hmmmm sad ah.. received sms from brother jeff.. cannot attend lessOn 8 of GOTP cuz got SIS prac at 915... my bs usually ends at 10+ so how to make it.. think my lessoon 9 also can't make it.. heehee.. so happy.. am serving on my birthday!! heehee... i think me will join the later GOTP class then for my missing lesson...

as I'd said, today is my dear pal's 21st.. hmmm i can say she's one the closest friend I'd in life.. Let me say a thank U nOte on my blog...

Got to know her on the Thursday after the 12th Anniversay.. my 1st cellgrOuP meeting @ think it was at Telok Blangah..? Near the WTC..now known as Harbour Front... she distinctively dislike my initial impression of her... i.e. Ah-Lian... eh.. cuz I guess it was by the way she speaks... heehee.. a bit san-ba. and HA-ri! (ya.. I was rather judegmental and opinion-based then.. sorrie dear)..heehee..1st impression was WRONG! hmmm then the next week.. i believe it was my 1st cell meeting combined with n79 ( haha just my second cellgrp meeting) think it was at liyi's.. . then the non-NUS w80 peeps became part of n79 ah..... and ya.. sOmehow r8ch & i grew closer..can't remember hOw la.. bUt over the time lo.. heehee..and we're the two remaining "surviors" from the w80 to n79 merger... sad to say peiling had went the other direction.. and shujUan.. gone after gOing to sMu.. still remembered that shuJuan was the one who accOpany me to the CIC class at the lion city hOtel...

r8ch . u should know by nOw that in ceRtain aSpects..we're rAther similar... and hey.. we shared the same spiritual birthday... (are u b4 me in the q or after me ah?) heehee... Our Spirtual birthday was 29 Dec 2001!
racheL...One of my dearest friend who knows almost everything abOut me... i guessed the friendship over these 3 years really went thrU' the suan, tian, ku, la... and ya.. it stood the test of time & the ultimate testing ~the Misunderstanding of the year ... over-riped berry tale... which in fact didn't sOur but deepen oUr friendship..(all partiEs inVolved in this Saga are still buddies...) Praise the LOrd!
ThrOugh laughter and tears..many memories we shared.. the countdowns at Meville's PArk... with euGene/long/rachel..

truly.. rachel.. I will miss ya when u're in down under... miss ya cream cream.. and heehee.. I still have the pix of ur cream cream taken on the day whereby i nearly backslided! :) [if u call me on the 9190 no.. creamy's cutie face will appear!]

hmmm 2005 will be a very different year for both of us... but exciting one.... i will still send u looooong emails.. and ya.. maybe can try the internet telephony ah?

am Sure Father God has great plans for you in AuSsie.. and the petite but mighty rAchel will shine ever brightly wherever she goes...so my dearest sweetie pie sister ( i sacrifice my nick to call u that.).. Thank U for being part of my memories... and being there for me when i needed someone..

Rachel.. trUly.. Thank U... I love U dear sister!! I'll miss U!

but today's ur 21st!! so.. happy birthday to you (x2) happy birthday dear rachel, happy birthday to you. God is blessing you now (x2) God is blessing you rachel, God is blessing you now..

ops.. meeting ivOry at 11:30.. flying off... :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 10:31:00 AM

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