He reigns.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

*"Healing"*

interesting "healing" testimony隆 My fossil watch got healed!
2 or 3 months back.. my dear watch committed sucide at the lift lobby area (marble-tiled floor)..(b4 that it'd fallen/ scratched/ slept on.. a no. of times.. ).. so b4 the sucide attempt... the face is rather scratched... so that contact with the marble actually resulted in a crack on the top left hand corner of the glass surface.. ya, the crack rather obvious... thought of going to service it but.. procratinated.. On monday, was still "showing off" the crack to IvOry... cUz told her that rachel was talking abt her eyeing a similar descendant of my watch...aniwae.. never really eyed the crack cuz a normal person will just assume it to be there...
Still remembered throwing that watch into my bag after cellgrp on thurs.. (i have the habit of not wearing watch..) so ya.. this morning... i took it out to wear... didn't really eye it much.. until... I was waiting for the MRT (after buying terence's present~ went to buy during lunch) and lo and behold.. I noted that the surface of my watch has only scratches.. no crack! I was rather amazed... I really dOn't believe my eye... and i rubbed the surface... and i was like... HUH?? REally.. the 0.5cm crack was GONE!!! Miracle ?
AnOther sign... God has mend the crack even without me asking for it... He does knows what I'd been going thru'.. cuz today (friday) woke up late.. had to be in office by 845 cuz gotta prepare for sharing session at 930... thought of taking a cab.. (i shOuldn't be..) so won't be late.. somehow.. i didn't manage to hail a cab.. and yah, I reached office at 835. (via mrt) and guess what.. the sharing has been postponed.. and.. I was supposed to hand a paper to my bOss.. who should be back from Bangkok today( i.e. friday).. I'd taken the work home on Thurs.. didn't manage to finish at work cuz gotta leave office to meet dexing cuz new songs.. (which was all together another story.. but praise the LOrd.. we will grow from glory to glory).. reached home from cell.. was tiREd... didn't get to do the write-up.. Praise the Lord.. boss on urgent leave cuz she was stranded in BK.. flight delay on Thurs.. immediately.. I know why i was prompted not to waste $ on cab.. (another reason why i wanna take cab was that i wanna reach office early to finish up the write-up) But thank goodness that I didn't listen to the "man" but yield to the still small voice prompting to take the bus/mrt.. this saved me.. $15! :)
So I know that what He spoke to me on Wednesday nite will come to pass..... :) Amen!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:37:00 AM

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*3 times... *

I was reminded of this thought/dream.. three times.. 1St: The Holy Spirit. 2nd: Max, 3rd: Stefanie.
1st time: in the morning.. while at work... can't concentrate... remember that we've to come up with a faith-theme song... thOught of what Holy Spirit spoke to me yesterday during cellgrp, on wednesday during bs.., Tuesday during Qt... came to mind... (the mule in me still want signs... )

Okie... 2nd time.. after choir prac: Max reminded me again.... told him dunno...

3rd time... shOrtly after my 2nd reminder... Stefanie (whO's currently at SOT, year1) asked me as well.. (ooo she doesn't really know my dilemma).. after talking to her... and relating my thoughts after attending 7 lessOns of GOTP... I realised one thing... signs....

Three reminders.. Three courses... (stepped into the house.. saw a letter from NTU MBA.... it was a brochure... on invitation to MBA course... boy.. 3rd cOurse withing a span of 3days... !) o.. the other course of study was advanced taxation course on GST... (ehhh having the puzzled look?) Let me extract from what i wRote earlier in another blog..
{On Wednesday.. went for a briefing on Advanced GST Course�� (note: only those that pass the in-dept course will be eligble for the course�� i.e. I'm the youngest person sitting in the room�� i.e. the most junior in rank�� ) guess what went thru�� my mind? Most of my colleagues only concern was: wa.. gotta write thesis instead of written exam.. me? hmm I guess the research was just like FYP.. and also, I have to do research on the telco industry as part of my wOrkscOpe�� oh my concern�� AM I still around at Sept? (the course will run from nov 04 to May 05. results out in Sept) Dilemma? why? Cuz, if I take this course and pass it�� it will definitely equip me with more knowledge for my work and additional edge over my colleagues.. and better prospect.. BUT I know that this is not the ultimate place that God wants me to be�� i.e, my calling was not to be a tax auditor.. it was never my intention to get into this line.. right from the start..(if so, I would have take acc in sec~ hey think my sch don't offer that.. or commerce in JC.. actually that thought never cross my mind!) My gift? it's definitely not my cup of tea to be administrator of tax.. it ain't a mere impulse feeling.. Sigh.. should have go with my gut feeling to sign up @ SIA La Selle dUring U admission.. instead of going with the most popular choice of having a degree�� aniwae this is not the focal point�� ya.. actually I think I have more joy interacting with people.. Maybe it's time to switch.. (no wonder my boss told me during appraisal ~ this was the 2nd time~ that have I considered going to corporate communications branch. . cuz she felt that I was good at organizing events�� ) }

Dilemma .... ? I don't think I need a 4th reminder.... how's it it coming.. Maybe it will cOme in form of my birthday pressie? THat' will definitely be the best gift I ever had...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:10:00 AM

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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

hmmm this is the cute mushroom character that i like~�� (the one with red cap!)... vist :http://www.san-x.co.jp/newcha/new139.html for details! :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:10:00 AM

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*wide awake...1am.. in the eastern end of SingapOre...*

Technically speaking.. pasir ris, though is 1st stop of the east-west line of the SMRT line.. it is situated more to the north then east.. ok.. northeast then...

yes.. i know the adverse consequences to staying up late... let me ramble a bit more...

r8ch... read yr interesting episOde on Mr Tan... hmmm what can i say... maybe i can applease u by singing... Jn 16:33 .. Ouch... Sorries ya... :)

am listening to cLass 95 now.. soppy love songs on air... Nothing gonna change my love for you... now another sad soppy song on air... man.. the songs getting sadder and sadder... but still enjoyed listening to them... Prefer the happy ones though... used to listen to the Dj-less slots on p10 when i was still studying... (ya.. the habit of staying up late was cultivated in Sec 3... mugging ma... though its only the exam period... it get wOrse when i started my bread days... heehee... old habits die hard... ) it was then i discover my knack in creating something out of rubbish... :) (which meant that I was distracted from my revision...)

Now.. why do i stay up late? old habits die hard.. and weird as it seems.. the ideas only come at nite... when it's all soooo quiet... :) yay.. i like this song now.. No matter what~ one of the last few songs that I like that was sang by boyzone (hahaha i was a grOupie... ronan keating... haha i was sooo smitten over him.. now.. haha... gOne are the days!)

ah.. let me finish transferring my scribbles to the nice notebook that ming gave me... hey i dOn't copy every single word that was preached... but ya.. i take a lot of notes.. me short-term memory mah.. (poor me, was "suan"ed by ming on monday... ) but that how i take notes lo.. ya..kaisu-spirit!
but sometimes.. it's not what pastor or cgl said... it's a spinoff thoughts as well.. like people are amazed at my scribe-nature... i'm amazed at the memory power of people who just take down verses and the headings... :) hey... to each his preference.. :)

ah... another song l like... YOu were there by the southern sons? (haha.. think this was my sec 2 era).. ops. now u know hOw aged I'm... yay... the big day on my birthday! I think I can get my mom down cuz she's not worKing that day!

yay... i like this song as well.. SClub7's never have a dream come true... at this rate... i'll be a walking zombie...
Ops.. i crapping... hahha...am in this chatty mode.. hey.. put it to better use.. i'll chat with Father God now... :)

thanks for ya patience for reading this far... :)
yay! Today is wednesday... Bible STudy!! GOTP ending soon... can go wed's prac soon.. but... no more bs le.. :( but giving bs always give me new insights...

okie... lights out... my fave time of the day... Quiet Time!!!!!

**it's cOmin... i know... patiently endure... I'll.. **

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:25:00 AM

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*a whole chain of thoughts,,, from sat to tues.or wed morning...*

Read an article in Streats on my way to work: the author was expressing her views on blogging. She ended with this statement: Bloggers are essentially lonely people.

Ha...I blog, so does it means I fall into this category? Well..Not really..Lonely? Nah, while blogging, I may be alone in the room, physically, yes, I��m alone.. but I know that the Holy Spirit is with me wherever I go...Amen!

haven't blog for a while.. a little update of my weekend:

Saturday 23/10/04
woke up 9+�� prepare for BS.. yay.. faith part(b). Just in time to refresh memory. Gotta come up with a praise song on faith by 1 Dec 04 with my choir grp. hey Rachel.. any inking yet? :)
boggler! Finances.. trying to make it right so that next year I can be freed up to do what I desire to do�� :)
supper.. went laoPaSat with emmy, ziv, jacelyn, shaoyang, ziyang, ,monique. food ah�� soso la�� but enjoyed the fellowship.. ;p Got a ride from Emmy home.. (so blessed to have this sister in Christ�� She stayed in By Batok but this is not the 1st time she sent me back to Pasir Ris!! )

Sunday 24/10/04
woke up at 9+. Fiddled with my hubby a while. think my tuner is spoilt.. ( it had suicidal thought and succumbed to them.. despite being saved after its fall�� I think the concussion effects remained..) gee sound out of tune after playing a while��. Ops�� Thought I could make it to church by 1pm.. meeting long cUz passing him ivory's card to sign�� made it to church at 1:15.. (took the redhill chartered bus.. missed the 1st one.. 1f I known, should have taken 1st bus of E1.)

Joined long and Darren for Praise and Worship for service. Fell in love with the new worship song�� Atmosphere was tangible�� left at after pnw.. :) waited till 1530 for Chinese prac.. new song.. scribbled down in Chinese cuz no lyrics sheet�� (oh.. promised faith to give her a copy.. let me jot it down in my notebook..)

went hall 5 after Chinese church cuz still got sometime b4 going to ziv's. Realised that I've been going there quite often recently�� hahaha.. ��retribution��? cuz I remembered that I said that I'll not step foot into NTU again after my convocation in 2001.. now.. burden for NTU? talked to lian a while�� (I realized I'm rather long-winded.. so my a while was like�� 30 min++)

hmmm went to ziv's with emmy.. what a difference from the last time I saw it.. (o, cuz I went there when it was still in its naked stage.) hmmm did the folding/ writing of invi.. :) it was fun�� :) funny how I became closer to jacelyn.. also dunno when..

reached home just b4 midnite (later if i didn't hail a cab!) fell asleep with the TV on again.. was awaken with dad opening my door and started rambling.. afterwhich was chastened by the Holy Spirit�� (will not watch TV while lying on bed again. )

MonDay ~ 25/10/04 :haPPie birthday Ivory!
worked till 1pm�� then zipped off to orchard to meet Ivory (ming joining us later).. hmmm jalan a while at wisma.. hmmm we had our lunch at Coffee Club�� hmmm guess who we spotted.. Nicholas Tse's dad! he was slipping coffee at the extreme corner..shortly, his ex-wife & the husband, and some taitais came and then left�� hmmm hahaha��

continued our jalanjalan�� ming deliberated for a long time to get the Phuture skirt�� well�� girl.. it's so U! ��

ming.. u asked me abt the NTU thingy.. had I thought about it�� hmmm yes..

bad case of cramps.. don��t feel like going out for dinner but was ��dragged�� to east coast park by mom�� man.. I thought the PO has ceased�� now it came from another parent.. my dad�� ( used to be mom nagging at my late nite home till recently�� cuz she knew what I was doing�� ) devil now using the other parent lo�� but then after he let off what was in his mind�� the nagging stopped�� I know that he was concerned.. (you know nagging that goes 濂冲�╁��瀹惰��涔��ャ��) well�� actually my block is rather safe.. (cuz it��s by the main road and brightly lit��PLUS.. I got His protection mah!) and he expected me to go home directly after work everyday! hey, I��m no longer 15�� (funny that I don��t have curfew when I was studying��) so told him that except wed/thur/fri/sat (which I told him wat I did�� dunno if he comprehend�� ) I was always home early�� and he don��t expect me to stay a swinging spinster rite.. (haha that��s when he stopped his nagging�� )

heehee.. had satay beehoon�� yumyum.. used to detest it.. but grew to like it.. except for the clams and the pig liver�� gross! caught the new channel 8 drama the champions.. similar to the Taiwanese teen serials��

had My QT and slept at 11�� !

Tuesday ~ 26/10/04
cOllected the gUest book.. yay.. It's what i wanted... now all i need to do is to grow rOses... lilac ones... went to spotlight Tampines after wOrk.. ( found out that i can oni change my mobile equipment after 17/12/04... byebye thoughts of getting fone.. hahaha good cuz no need to fight that temptation any more... ) aquired more material... yay.. sowed my rOses' seed.. :)

hahha... i think i might have get on sOme peeps nerves by sending out a self-procliaming cute sms out... It's so cute.. just gotta share.. :)

i pushed something that I oughta do but didn't... i feel bad now... i hope i got enuff time to do it later this evening... else let me sms this week and i will do what i gotta next week... (Ops.. ouch!)

having been pinching rOses all nite long.. let me take a breather 1st...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:47:00 AM

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Saturday, October 23, 2004

*blue... my blue friday.. literally blue.. in color.. not in mood... hehhehe*

dunno why.. i was clad in blue from head (scrungy) to bottom... my jeans... all in bluc... aNd even my choir folder (self-bought.. haven't filled up this blue one yet... got another yellow for chinese..) even bought a blue brolly... heeehee...

the new worship song was :) i love it... and yay! I'm singing s3.. actually stefanie asked me to replace her for s2 & s3 cuz she's having the flu.. but veron asked me to help her for s3.. cus she got father's bday.. and wedding.. think she need not pay me back.. i love to serve... :)

choir or cell? cuiqi asked me this just now... I told her both... and i agreed with her that there will be one of a stronger calling... but now.. am still exploring.. but utimately... it will be the latter... :)

What's faith? Faith is the substance of thing hope for, the evidence of things not seen... To live by faith, not by sight...

ooo... i really love the card i made for cat... (ya.. i very "C".. actually made one last morning.. but when i woke up.. thought it looked.. ekk.. so took the material and did it during lunch... hmm really love it..

Patience.. once and again.. a irritaing "something-rai" guy (TP)called... (he called the previous OIC while i wrote to him... ) guessed what time he called.. 11:55.. not that i'm heading out... but still... ah.. and he asked a lot of boh quesions & give boh answers....

but today is special.. His tangbile presence and the bears.. :)

okie... gotta zzzz... give bs.. go serve S3..

have a good trest!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:30:00 AM

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What's so special abt this pale blue Giodano Brolly? I bought this brolly today at JP after taking a step out of JP via the back exit and realised that it's drizzling...cuz me going to Hall 5 to visit lian & bring her makan 1st b4 i head to church for choir prac... so if the rain were to get heavier.. i'll be drenched....so head back JP and bought this brolly.. pink & blue.. i chose the blue? why blue? today's the blue day..(lit. color blue) read the other blog entry for details... aniwae.. was rather :( when 179 got out of interchange, the rain had stopped... so ya the rain ceased when i reached hall 5.. ( me inner thoughts " Huh.. if i know that the rain had stopped, i won't have bought the brolly...") .. the rain stopped .. good weather when i walked from yunan garden to church... rather near... reached church less than 10 min...and even after prac.. no rain.... i was still lamenting to cuiqi while waitg for E1.. "if i know it would not rain.. i won't buy this umbrella.." well.. when the bus was nearing bedok area.. i saw the wiper moving.. i.e raining.. i was like hmmm yay.. i got umbrella... then after cuiqi got off at tp, the thought struck me... " i listen to the small, almost non-existence prompting when i stepped out of JP at 18:30 to buy the brolly.. though my 1st reaction was drizzle only.. won't tear.. " by obeying the small prompting i bought the umbrella so that I won't be wet after alighting from the feeder bus to my block... God's ways are higher than our ways.. and by obeying the almost insignificant command, i was saved from getting drenched (rain rather heavy when i alighted) .. so why can't i just obey in other areas as well.... so this brolly will serves as my reminder to always obey and act... :)
sweetie leaves a mark on earth

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:06:00 AM

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Friday, October 22, 2004

Saw this picture in my DB.. courtesy of rachel... long time ago in the era of strawberry & blueberry...Now...strawberries galore!! one drip of strawberry juice splattered to another... Juicy ya! :)

sweetie leaves a mark on earth

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:53:00 AM

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*Village/kumpung... huts...people... kids ... tropical...me..(this was unsaid)*

Just came home from cellgrp... the same feeling arose b4 cg at redhill mrt and after cg at cityhall... p.s. was at redhill b4 cg cuz me took 33 from alexandra.. went AH to visit Lian, left off ard 430 (i didn skim work, i took my timeoff..).. hmmm lian was happily telling us (Pei2 came abt 15 min aft i arrived) her interesting encounters.. lian was telling us abt the cute doctors ard... (haha must be that bored cuz never heard her talk abt these sutff.. so she had the oppty to look ard.. hehehe).. anyway..she's fine... Just pain.. Guys.. pray for healing process to be accerelated so that she can continued mugging... okie.. back to the feeling..

reached redhill.. saw a member (rather "green" one, not ever green though).. am tired see..wanna rest a while... cuz talking to this member requires effort and patience {a fruit that Holy Spirit is guiding me to cultivate~ evident from the numerous hair-rising encounters on phone recently...} (ya.. the man won the spirit)..so thinking that will see this member at cg venue.. so ya.. didn't stop to wait for him... turns out that this member went to another cellgrp cuz saw another member from w285 and joined him... AIYOH!! ~ when i realised that after cell ended.. (ryan told us).. something pricks me.. i.e. the Holy Spirit.. "yee ah... u lo, if u had wait... " (man's voice covers the still small voice at 1835)... after cellgrp... when we departed our ways home at cityhall... I realised that Jerry was heading my direction... (man was talking... gee...wat to say ah?? but spirit took over ... PTL) so ya.. got to chitchat with him..and got to know him a little better other than ryan's tall friend from Mauritius. :)

the title... why the title.. ?? (this was the thought in me in words during the couple of minutes that Ryan asked us to pray B4 the cell meeting starts proper... as usual the "not vocal" me took over and just merely described them as things that I oughta do but didn't do... why ah? "shy" ma... man says very "duh-leh".. now as i blogged... illumination... (ting!! light bulb lites up!) why?

while walking to Ziv's... Max asked me.. so have i decided... gave him a flippant answer...actually see my blog last morning.. (i.e. thurs am.. tau kua parable) well... one intepretation: tau kua signifies~man's thought " I thought that was the decision.. yay! comfortable"; so soyabean milk mean.. nope that's not the way...aka... the taukua decision not firm at all.. i.e. not from God.. ehh... yi tuo wu shui? hahha... Max: it means.. I want.. but His time. When?.. I thought wasn't now.. but read on...

during the couple of min... I saw: kids running ard in kampung.. (like those indonesia/ malaysia rural areas... kumpungkumpung one... their skin dark colors.. so prolly SEA ctrys?) with ladies in kampung... walking... mingling... and i was supposed to be in their midst as well.. but i didn't see myself... -> Light-bulb One: if I'd acted in faith... this will be what I would do... [ in line with the Purpose ~ oh, what's that... to go into FTM eventually] and that will definitely be what I would do when the tau kua liquidfied... then.. back to people in streetwear... hmmm saw meself.. surrounded by kids... (ok not that young.. teenagers? ... ) and i was preaching with such conviction & eloquence... I admit I'm not that... yet! Why aren't I doing that... cuz back to wat yee failed to do... and is trying to.... if I'd turned 180* in June... can't miss the kairos time again.... :)

(eh... i'm more expressive with words... ) due to the verbal constipation that man had imposed on my tongue... what came out when ryan wants us to share.. was ultra-diluted...

first time i unrevelled my parable... the rest ah.. esp the berries one..hahha..discern is the word...

yay.. mon noon taking my reminder timeoff in noon... going celebrate ivory's b'day... hmmm one year ago... was at her 21st chalet... that was fun.... Ops.. gotta scout for idea for cat's card... her bday falls on same day as ivory...

November... wedding month... just got a invi... eh... it's my manager's dotter wedding dinner... BUT.. it falls on 18/11.. It's A THURS.. and it's the cgm immediately after the big weekend AND i got a wedding on 20/11 which means i won't see the new friends at all if I attend both dinner and go make-up cell & service .. also.. BS will mean cannot go choir prac on wed (if any) and service have to go sunday cuz 19/11 scheduled tobe ziv's rehearsal...(speaking of which.. ming i send u the stuff later)

So decided... I will not go to the 18/11 cuz.. eh the 20/11 one gotta go cUz promised my friend [one that I'm trying to reach out.. almost came once.. but.... aIyah... will one la... :)]

and it's ziv's on the 26... this will be fun... (haha.. doing more... heehee gaining experience for mine.. though I hope i won't reap what I sow... hmmm maybe for the sake of the honey-to-be, i should be a nicer "jie*mei" or some call.."ah-yee" (ahhaha that's my name in short anyway).. looking forward to that....

next week on... my bill will increase... for a good cause... :) and that's was my prayer answered... ohhh another thing i saw .. i saw myself discipling susan...and can see the transformation.. I was like wow.. huh? me ah? ~~ hahah this one sure cannot share one... sure kanna complain...

yay... choir prac on later.. meeting jolene... aiyah.. do cat's card.. if not during lunch time.. Meanwhile.. to fellowship with my dear Heavenly Father now!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:07:00 AM

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Thursday, October 21, 2004

hey kittykitty.. this is Smoky Quartz Kitty.. it represents: liveliness! :)

sweetie leaves a mark on earth

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:53:00 AM

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*what says me... ?*

hahha.... i caught bits and pieces of "get real"... think it was a re-run? or maybe not... hahaha.. this episode was on blog... well..thouoghts of how i began blogging came to mind... it all began with fruity story... but it was on another blog... let just say it's bittersweet memories... and true.. it kept me sane while i get some stuff off my system.. but then again... i went into my valley as well cUz I indulged a bit toooo much on it.... heehee... this blog was a offshoot "project" from that.. hahha.. it's till in use... just that the readership is currently capped at three... (hey.. a good no... Trinty!! hahah)

NUmber 3.. remembered during one of the games session. darren asked us to pick a no from 1 to 5, and to explain why i choose the no... eh... i chose 3.. Why? my idex no? nah... was either last (cuz pri sch they used hanyu pinyin) or first few (never 3 ) when in sec.. they used dialect name then... Three... I chose cuz ehh... i also dunno why... hahaha so thought of a crappy thingy.. i worked for 3 years le.. actually... that's not what i wanna blog... Three... I've been in CHC for three years +.. was in 3 cellgrp before w110.. Three years... what had i done... yee.. make the last quarter count! 2 more months before 2004 ended... hey one parable that triggering ..

To-fu or Tau Kau.... I thought that what was in my bowl was tau kau a couple of weeks ago.. it just seems so firm and still... suddenly... after GOTP... the tau-kau seems to have the moisture seeps in and became to-fu.... well if it's not from God... the softening process will continue... maybe to tau huey to soyabean milk... Je ne comprendre pas? (hahaha the only stuff i remembered from LF 80) Well... if it really turn to soyabean milk... watch out for the saga...

okie.. GOTP shifted to YMCA... well.. chit-chatted with a no. of pples... mostly choir members and zone-members/ cell members... yay... i bought a jewel kitty... let me post the pic later... didn't manage to get the pale pink one... (hahaha.. maybe God heard my "attempt" to wear off my pink fetish).. bought the third one.. hahah no. 3 again... :P

actually am very blessed... realised that since joining CHC and became more involved in ministry... knew more peeps... but then realised that I had spent less time with my unchurched friends... and weekend trips a nono for me... one of my colleague actually asked me join them for a BK trip over 1st week of Dec.. (man... weekends are nonono... unless it's absolutely essential lo... Aniwae.. had swopped my duty with Jolene cuz the week b4 was jacelyn & ziv's big day... ) but am saving for the Israel trip next year... but heehee.. i managed to inflitrate into this lunch grp... cuz i used to a special appearance character... now... am sorta part of their lunch peeps.. (cuz the other grp i used to be with all hardcore.. so.. moved on to new targets... ) though i don't see myself as a recipient of the long service award ( for 5 years of service).. i will make my time count... REvelation.. reminder while i was talking to Qiangren.. one of the brothers that I know thrU GOTP... was encouraging him... cuz was asking him plan after NS... he was like.. I dunno le.. Purpose.. Don't lead a life without purpose... My puRpOse... actually... I had already know it... REalisation.. came to know it 2 years ago... at the starbucks outside Orchard Cali.. ~ during a short discipleship ( think quite of no. of sisters were there... with brother Andrew.. it seems a ehh... really ah... sOunds good but really ah? ) and like what we learnt in cellgrp.. Desire... and yes... whatever i desire are actually directed to attaining that Purpose...

don't loose sight of the Purpose.. That was in His blueprint for us... the road to it maybe winding... get pass the hurdle and don't keep circling round the same obstacle... Just take a wider, higher step and it will be overcome... if not.. i will be stuck at that hurdle and never get to the finishing line...

Going thru GOTP really brings a fresh revelation of what I thought I know and appreciate every Word that's in the Bible...

God heals
hey.. btw... my eyesight improved.. despite that I'd spent hours in front of the PC.. and heehee.. my left eye is sightly short-sighted at 25* while my right eye's long sightedness is completely gone.. my astig though is still there.. but maintainin at 100*.. (hahha no wonder I can see the words that they flash during chinese choir recently!! used to squint... btw i don't wear specs and my eyes detest the contact lens.. ) never realised it till i went to make another pair of specs... Healing.. hahha.. remember that i said i laid hands on my scratch on face... heeheee... no scarring... and i didn't apply anything on it.. except make-up... so ya.. need to pray for one of my member... she's hospitalised.. I dunno why i sms her this morning... Glad that I did... if not i won't find out... I hope she's ok now...

WOrship.. attestation... (man.. i used to associate this word only to audit... ).. revelation ... my rod may not bud yet... It will.... I will know it when the tau kwa remains as tau kwa and... I cross the hurdle and see the finishing line nearer.. and the prize... Amen!!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:47:00 AM

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Monday, October 18, 2004

*Monday's Random thoughts*

haven't blog for a looooong time....

here are some of my thots that crossed my mind today:

* stairs : It takes less effort to climb down a flight of stairs then to climb up the same flight of steps. hence most people don��t mind taking the stairs down but moan and groan when u need to travel upwards against the gravity. cuz the higher the steps, the steeper the slope the more energy expedited. The same holds for spiritual walk. easy to backslide ~ not much effort or effortless and fast. To go up another level, it takes more time and greater effort.

* password: every 3 months, the system will prompt me to change my password. Gotta be alphanumeric with Caps and small cases. And the password cannot be reused or similar. Security measure. really dislike having the crank my head for the passwords. my password generator: heart & mind. HAHA!

* cynical: though this is not a good attitude to have, gotta have this (during my 0800 to 1730 weekdays usually unless on MC or VL).. cuz gotta think all circumstances & possibilities. CAF: consider all factors.

* sleep: I love my oh so comfy bed: packed with cushions/ stuffies toys and my Bible on it. Can��t bear to leave it in the morning..

* pink: had been wearing pink consecutively on thurs and fri. kinda sick of this colour. last thurs, during self-intro, we are to tell our fave colors: hmmm so ya.. peeps assumed that l adore pink~ okie lo�� actually I like arrays of colors.. when I was younger: pastel/baby blue& pastel/baby pink.. went into monochrome of black in JC.. then brighter shades on the spectrum :yellow ~ got this very bright yellow bag in uni days that I used till its dying day.. loved it cuz it��s sooo bright�� haha..very AS rite? (translate: attention-seeking, not ah-soh).. then blue/black/white. Remember that violet and I used to nickname a uni-friend as pink friend..cuz she very pinky/girly�� haha.. retribution�� I seems to went into this pink craze last year�� let me see what color do I like now�� 卞��涔��? hmmm dun think so�� cUz..haha��maybe I go lilac? heehee�� hey.. that��s a nice color for hair hor? Ops.. getting cranky! Yellow? Orange? heehee�� my sunquick baggie..

* free advertising: love these two advertisement bags that I had�� The sunquick pvc that I bought from far east.. and the fab canvas that mom got from Bangkok.. hmmm elliot tried to be funny and suggested to use the rice sacks as a carrier�� Oii!!

* young: heehee�� I love the look on peeps face when I told them my age�� (hey not that old la.. still less than a quarter century old��) peeps think I��m 22.. :) I think I look older when I first stepped into CHC�� Serving the Lord make me more youthful!! :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 9:22:00 PM

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Thursday, October 14, 2004

*Smoke... it lingers... *

hmmm always love wednesday... cuz it's either bs or choir prac... cuiqi sms me at 1620+ to inform abt last min choir prac.. was in a deliema.. to go prac or bs? eventually... I went bs cuz somehow I was expecting something different tonite...

Pastor Ming preached tonite... hmmm tonite.. was wow! The Holy Place... How do we get there... actually.. it will be easy if we just walk according to God's will... yes.. but many a times... we walked the wrong way.. willfully... to remain there..cuz refused to budge... ya.. the mind... gotta renew it daily... the Gold lampstand in the Holy Place... however... not only does it needs to be illuminated with the Word, with the Holy Spirit.. but our will gotta be yielding... never let will yield to the intellect nor emotions... hmmm am still digesting... might be chim for some... but I'm really thankful that I'm in the right time taking this bs now... if I'd taken this earlier... I might not take it or digest it...

Towards the end of the lesson...Pst Ming talked abt the Presence of God... Ever wonder why the atmosphere dipped suddenly when we transit from one worship song to another.. cuz we failed to linger in His Presence... our worship should be like smoke... that lingers around... not vanish into thin air suddenly.. when the song ended... (which explains why i like to sing acapella during my QT, not with CD.. freeflow mah...eh.. still can't play songs very well.. am on the way.. yay! am sure in a month time.. this will no longer be the case.. eh.. it's my bday! haha!) Holy Spirit was talking to me... Linger more... experience Him more.... and man.. i just felt a breeze across my head a couple of times when I felt His presence... and.. ya.. my coughing was like much better and stopped... (was actually semi-wheezing in the morning... was praying for healing.. (a) my cough/ phelgm.. (b) the scratch on my face ( Note: My nails are super short.. I suspect it's my hardenen fingertips that did the job.. sobsob... mus healed ah.. if not make-up not nice leh.. serving this week le)

I will give Him the most extravagant worship always...

Linger.... :) eh.. not the cranberry song.. cranberries.. yummy.. hungry now.. haven makan dinner... just finish a bag of kaka that ziv stuffed into my bag last week...

yay! It's thursaday.. cellgrp day! :)

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 12:52:00 AM

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Wednesday, October 13, 2004

*another loooon post... *

Phew...its mid-week again...

time flies...Sunday and Monday were the busiest...
Sunday.. woke up at 9+.. lazed around in bed�� and yup.. chiong to suntec at ard 1+ (face not made-up.. but then gotta do prep work la... so no need dress up yet..)�� man�� some of the helpers were late�� and ooh�� when I just oh so casually asked my friend, who I think she��s a Methodist, that hey so did u attend service this morning�� guess what��s her reply�� hmmm this morning I didn��t have the mood to do so�� so I didn��t�� (I was like�� HUH!! man�� not that there wasn��t ample time�� her service was 10+, and we only need to report at 3:30pm��. ) if she continue to compromise with her man.. (ha.. we are comprised of spirit, soul & man).. I would certainly speak to her�� hmmm it was fun la.. and it was the day which I smiled a lot�� cuz me at the registration ma.. so giving out the doorgifts and earlybird tokens.. and my sweet smile.. heehee��

the only thing that spoils it all was the theft of my friends�� handphones�� cuz 80% of my table was in the organizing com, hence we are often missing�� and we had the habit of leaving our mobile on the table (haha.. not me though�� ) so.. ya, the 1st mobile was lost after we hiao hiao went out to take pic�� hmmm reported lost�� then the 2nd phone was lost towards the end of the D&D, while my table left 2 ppl, some of us went to man the lucky draw collection booth while the other two went on stage to prepare the grand lucky draw. She had left her fone inside her folder.. however, when she returned, the folder was intact but the fone was missing�� both fones were definitely stolen cuz they were on before the theft�� when we discovered that they were missing, I called the nos and they were connected to voicemail�� well.. MORAL of the story.. Take care of ya personal belongings.. never ever leave them lying around��.

Hmmm after the event.. (actually it was went on quite smoothly, smudged by the case if the missing phones).. took more pictures.. actually wanted to leave early.. but then my friend ask wanna stay for the dance or not.. (actually the music kinda hmmm .. to put in words.. my friend described the music as very lian��well.. retro los�� towards the end was better�� ) well�� ya�� well I was at the dance floor.. it was a really long time since I did this.. last time was eh�� nov 02 (2 birthdays ago.. hey hint.. hint��its coming sooooon��pple having exam.. I dun mind a post birthday celebration... ^.^ ) when tien jio me to the devil��s bar��ya.. aniwae.. my thoughts.. I was like.. why people like to go chiong? hmmm they looked high and carefree ... but after all the hands in the air and prancing/ jumping around.. are they still J ? haha.. had half a glass of red wine��cuz me thirsty.. but haha�� no effect�� hmmm still the dancing help to digest away the yummy food��

Monday*11 Oct 04*
reached home around 1+.. haha�� played a while with my hubby while watching more drama serials.. slept ard 3+��. yikes.. it was 9+ when I woke up.. (o, btw me not late for work, just that I gotta be at NTU at 12nn) hmmmm read thrU�� the teacher��s guide, LF chapt 5 & 7�� Think that 5 is for vick and 7 for lian) .. ahh�� showered.. left home ard 10:45.. contemplated with the idea of cab.. but alas.. no $ & with 2 weddings next month.. I gotta save ya�� hmmm�� makan @ canteen 1.. ek..the kopi though cheap.. sucks.. think it��s the instant kopi�� :( reached lian��s room ard 1+.. haha to my surprise.. lian��s LF lesson stops at chapter 6! Didn��t really prepare.. but then�� Holy Spirit taught thru me�� J and it��s just on time�� ended ard 2:05 to 2:10�� hmmmm we then walked to north spine�� lian��s lesson was at 2:30.. walked to Hall 14�� aiyos.. got lost at blk 70�� cuz the exit sign was aligned parallel to the walkway and I thot I had head a dead end�� hmmm had another bs session at the TV lounge�� kinda funny to give bs in the lounge when pple are ard reading the papers.. thank goodness that they didn��t stay long!! hmmm chatted with vick until ard 450�� walked back to north spine to find joyce�� hmm�� then had zhi cha @ canteen 5 with Peipei, lian & joyce��J lian dun want cake sooo no cake lo.. (cuz she sore throat.. no chocolate for her�� )
Tuesday�� hmmm nothing special.. just that the phlegm get kinda more. :( highlight.. strawberries met�� generally.. tired�� ha.. my friend ask me if I��d ample rest on Monday? haha�� I didn��t tell her that I spent half of my at NTU! :)

Love this song�� just heard it on the airwaves: Kiss me by sixpence none the richer�� Hmmm this is one of the song that really got me hooked�� actually heard this song 1st before I saw the movie with the oh*so*yummicious Freddie Prinze Jr...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 11:55:00 PM

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Sunday, October 10, 2004

*drains... I will avoid..*

hmmm heehee... heeeheee... I think I'm goin kinda insane... hmmm yili commented that I was kinda high on "crab" today... see my moodicon? hmmm i guessed seldom let this not so sane me out of the bag ba... but i just feel sooooo free.... Ops! hey... I just added a section at the sidebar to inform/remind that my birthday is coming!! Yay!! I've been telling almost everyone that I know... hahaha obv only that I know better... And yay! Pastor Ulf is coming! I guessed it will be a great gift for me if I'm on choir duty during that week... It's really a different experience to sing at SIS.. had the oppty to do that for one of the easter service.. :)

heehee.. actually i thot i was rather wallpaper aka low profile.. apparently not... heeheee.. sweet ma.. arrest attention! hahha.. cuz after service... on way to supper with cell.. saw beixian.. heehee.. apparently her cell frequent the supper area that my cell usually go.. she saw me a couple of times... but me didn't.. then fri.. was talking to this sister from choir from s3.. well.. she had seen me ard.. but i didn't..

What is insanity? Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a change in the result... HOly Spirit has been prompting me to not do the same old thing again and again... In the Spiritual realm... and the natural realm...

Today I missed most of the praise segment... cuz was at the back waiting for huiming's relatives.. but it was worth it.. huming's aunt was really touched by God.. (ming told me that her mum said that her aunt was tearing the moment she stepped in... Praise the Lord..) ~ Just ended a conversation with ming... cuz she was overjoyed with her aunt's heart melting... and she had convinced me by her professional explanation of why i should not deprive meself of sleep... and ya.. ( I was brought to mind of this goal that I made in my goal card... To sleep more... cuz ya... it's not healthy to deprive body of rest.....) will try to reduce my early morning ya...

Stepping Forward & Reaching out.... yup... I will.... N i am...
I've rediscovered what I wanted to do.... :) I just need to take the 1st step.. let God guide the rest ...

Oh.. why the title... hmmm let say that I will avoid the drains if I'm not wearing flats... and thanks yili & rach.. :)

yay! Am going to have a celebration for lian on monday.. :) eugene u wanna come...? joyce n long going ... as for vick.. will try to convince her...

I better sleep...

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 2:54:00 AM

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Saturday, October 09, 2004

*hmmm I'm up for abt 23 hours le... OpS!!*

Hmmm.. am so happy with what I'd done... heehee.. got home aft choir prac... then watched epi13 to 16 of the tvb drama series "��惧��" that my bro had brought home.. (cuz he gotta do review so.. heehee.. get to watch this FOC and ahead of rentals/ cable in s'pore... ya.. very aunty hor.. but it's rather entertaining... and there is this guy, that really caught my twinkle... heehee... but it's the story that intrigue me.. sidetrack.. ok.. was ard 245 when i finished my tv feast.. (btw my tummy groaning.. but haha too lazy to go kitchen.. and it's like breakfast time... when i haven't even zzzzz) suddenly idea for lian's card came to mind... man.. I really like it a.. :) sooooo sweEt! ahhaha

Ops.. dad's up.. better type fast..

hmmmm somehow got reacquainted with childhood snacks.. On thurs.. ziv bought gaga for cellgrp refreshment after our monday talk of it... heehee... then joanna gave me a mini tube of haw candy.. (san-cha biang) heehee... childlike... yeah... i wanna be forever young... (was listening to this evergreen song on class 95 just now...) mentality yes.. to be childlike in behaviour.. .. BUT not in terms of foodwise.. I prefer to chew then to sip... heehee.. enuff of milk... and the gruey stuff... banana should be eaten in whole.. not mashed... ( but mashed bananas tasted good..especially when chilled... hahha.. nope.. i dun eat the baby food in bottles.. though the bOttles looks cute.. hehee.. but the fruit juice is harmless ma.. Ops.! )

ya.. was talking to a member.. updated me on one member whom i have yet seen for long.. seems that once backsliden.. the hatch of protection was gone... it's really dramatic... I really hope and pray that Holy Spirit melt the heart... Despite of all.. still rather harden... but at least shown interest abt the latest goings in cell... i will see this member again...

okie.. gotta go catch some winks.. and prepare the bs that I might have to give... and ya.. prac as well.. if not i no face see senseh... (sheepish face)
Aiyo.. the national anthem went on air on class 95.. It's 6am! Yay! I'm awake for 24 hours... ans still feel awake... but shall not abuse the temple of the Holy Spirit... I need to zzzzz cuz... sunday will be busy...

~~~~ My Mediation verse~~~~~~~
Hab2:2-3
Then the Lord answered me and said:
"Write the vision and make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.
For the vision is yet for an appointed time.
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry."
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hmmmm YAY! I will wait and endure... it will come forth... I'd seen it... so ya.. It will come.. I will not draw back...

Ops.. 6:07.. bette rzzzzzzzz....

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 6:08:00 AM

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Friday, October 08, 2004

*Unbelieveable!!*

I still remember my econs... cuz lian wanted me to teach her...her quiz is at 930.. so i talked to her from 1230 to 1+ on the econs ... thank GOd that I still remember... :) talked to lian abt 3+..

It was a good talk... :) and ya... both of us learnt from each other... am really glad that she felt encouraged whenever she talked to me.. :)

man.. this weekend will be a whirlwind..

Friday: meeting for briefing for D&D this sunday/ complete my cases/ meet lian for dinner/choir prac/ prepare bs
sat:meet yeeling/go CIC with her or BS?/ meet cat.. maybe/ service
Sun: D&D! (gotta prepare though...)
Mon: bs@ ntu... :) Am taking leave cuz ya.. will sleep late on monday..:)

am tired... let me rest!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:58:00 AM

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Thursday, October 07, 2004

*the sweetie speaks again!*

hmmmm am kinda tired now.. but... hahha... i guessed the busyness and the flu bug really got into me.. so ya... i left behind 3 parables... hmmm.. cannot decipher a.. then it's alright! Another eventful week.. hahha..certainly not as dramatic as max... but... hmmm to me... it's wow.... :)

parable one... strawberry stew continues..
as u know... stew takes time to be prepared... just a vase.. gotta be moulded/shaped/rest/put into the kiln... hahha... to sum it.. takes effort and process usually not bed of roses... this strawberry stew kept stirring... and stirring... went thru the sieve to make it finer.. again and again... hmmm maybe not stew.. haha.. became sauce... :)

parable two... strawberry got a nice sUrprise ~ monday & tuesday
strawberry was :) cuz... monday met and tuesday she was sprang with surprise for strawberry luncheon... however...... it was a subtle reminder... to what a strawberry wanted to do and gotta do...

~~~~~~~~*** enough of strawberry... notty rachel even use the word baldberry... keke.. u can read into my berrytales... (note: strawberry may or may not be the same... hahha! keep it light.. !)

Well... to sum it all... though it may not come to pass now.. it will... BUT... I must put it in aCtion.. the reminder is from subtle to a near audible warning... yes... i want to.. and.. there are things i need to do... and.. now... there will not be a "but" in my dictionary of what i gotta do... chances are.. i will still live and breathe novena air for the near future... ya..after tues' spinelle...
think a lot recently... and ya... if not now... when... gotta put substance to my dream le...

2Cor8:10-12 " ... It is to your advantage not only to be doing what you began and were desiring to do a year ago; but now you also must complete the doing of it; that there was a readiness to desire it, so that there also may be a completion out of what you have. For if there is first a willing mind, it is accepted according to what one has; and not according to what he does not have."

am mediating on this now... :) and somehow... the same thing keep coming back to me... so.. it's not the man.. it's the spirit!!

am really tremendously blessed by my Bible lessons... Am trully astound by the Word of God.. and am totally captivated by the tabernacle... Wow!! Eg.. today's lesson was on the Holy Place... item no one.. the table of showbread... Holy Spirit is reminding me to yield my will to His will.. and let the bread preceeds over the oil and wine... hmmm wednesday is always the highlight of my week.. cuz ya.. I really look forward to bible study... ya.. which explains my desire to go SOT.. but it's gonna be His timing.. not mine... cuz like what my leader told me..what do i see my life after SOT? (i.e. he didn't want me to go juz cuz it seems to be the right thing to do...) and a whole lot of stuff... sum it all... it will happen but not the near future cuz not the season... and now.. there are other things for me to do... and heehee... I'm really thankful for the new levels trials I'm facing.. some due to pple . they may or may not know it... but ultimately.. GOd has used them as my tests... whether they know it or not...
hmmm geetting makin my way there... 3 months too seems shOrt la..or... hahah.. i dOn't know... I will try my best.. let God do the rest.. hahha am so glad for the chastening... :) i sound like a sadist.. heheee .. but I'm not.... ok.. i need to go.. talk to God.. (heehee.. I'm wide awake now..) andcatch my winks.. and zap off to work by 7!

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 3:07:00 AM

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Saturday, October 02, 2004

*5days away..a truckload of events.... aNd it's now or never...*

yay! the parable factory is back in production again... am really tired after the whirlwind of events that sparks off at the absence of my cgl... blog... is this another san-fen-zhong-re du kinda thingy? hmmmm ??

this few weeks had been a real... hoooha for me... out of a sudden... things just happen all at one go.. just when i thought I was done at the playground.. I found my feet in sand again and nearly missed a step down the slippery metal slide... (hmmm brought back memories of the playgrd at pasir ris park... hmmm last time played at it was.. hmmm ivory's 21 last year... ) too many things brewing at a go ..
Strawberry stories
1.. the Jam
the strawberries brewing in the jar was boiling... overflowed and scotched the snowy white crumbly paper and caused a stain... wonder if the paper was strong enough... cuz was previously scotched and strawberry jam felt the strain... and sensed that the paper might tear... well... if it tore... not entirely the jam's fault...cuz if the paper couldn't take the level of density of the liquid... paper should not come into contact of the jam!!

2.. the Popping strawberries
aftering the stint at the jam production line, ms strawberry saw a white light... and subsequently was repetitively told of her task... it was left forlorn for long... she had thought that it was long forgotten... but... cuz the light was that strong... strawberry just started prancing abt! Ms Strawberry heard.. her destination.. and popping mad (happily) cuz she has not missed the stop yet.. btw she was on train to lola island to r&r... but was recalled back...

3.. the strawberries stew
really? is this edible.. recently... strawberry brews are getting common...

@@ hahaha parable galore.. (this is just the beginging.. when she is tired... : )

changeme.
princessmIone lalala @* 1:50:00 AM

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*Princess's reCEnt Dreams

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