NOTE: this is long...Pls get ready your coffee/tea... dun fall asleep.. HAHAHA!! Hmmm I haven't been blogging... well..it has sure been an eventful weekend for me... Once again.. I'm back to the busy lifestyle of serving God! Yay! it feels good...

Friday 3 Sep 2004

Friday evening, while I was on my way to Church to help out in service 1 choir. hmmm was dozing off in the train (note: I oni slept 2 hOurs that day) when I was awaken by the familiar ringing tone.. hmmm ryan called..cuz he would be leading another cell that night and wanted me to do the hounding for w110/e206 (the non-NTU peeps) I was like (ehh that's quite a no. of peeps and I only always called lian/vick/joyce).. cuz ryan had asked Eugene to contact the ntu peeps.. told me okies.. (can only do that after choir.. )

reached bn lay.. hmmm saw Stanley again.. wonder if he'll be singing yups..saw him at stairs.. then wonder if Rach will be singing tmrw (nope.. she didn't)

began calling peeps when Mario & Justin got off at jurong east. hmmm was really inspired by what Justin told me of one encounter their whole cellgroup had with Holy Spirit in midst of their cellgrp.. grace & him heard the door opened (but it was not la..) and felt something move through them and stood at the center of the whole cell grp... their cgl (think that their cgl was sister dorcas.. Elaine in same cell as Justin and Grace mah.) Initially she wanted to minister to all but didn't just bow down and worship.. all present was ministered by the Holy Spirit individually..& they were so sensitive to the Holy Spirit after that encounter.. man how I wished I could experience that in cell too...

okie.. back to hounding.. I was actually rather reluctant to call cuz some of the members.. I never call them b4 one, esp the brothers (thanks Eugene for giving me the nos of some ) well.. prayed silently in my heart and hmm actually I was beginning to enjoy it after calling a no. of people.. (though I got quite a no of unanswered calls and calls CANCELLED by peep and this person who cancelled my call never call back nor did this person reply to my sms) despite of the non-responsive members.. I did derived satisfaction from talking to quite a no. of them & encouraging them...

hmmm after completing my task.. which was like.. the whole journey from je to home.. Holy Spirit spoke to me: You need to know the members better (which was quite true ) one of the members had surgery on his ankle last Monday & hence could not attend cell nor svc ( but actually if he wants, he can la.. if not, won't be able to attend sch rite? just that.. hmmm..aniwae ya) and another area: to gel them together... (hmm most of the more onz peeps had went to w285...)

well.. what else did I do?? hmmm talked to ming.. until she reached hOme.. cuz I need to call ryan too..for the attendance (by then left 2 peeps that didn't respond either by sms or called me back...talking about accountability... btw my sms did requested them to reply so...hmmm) well.. I thought it was basic etiquette to return calls or messages... even if you don't have an answer. Well. I guessed it maybe double standards perhaps some would think I'm only accountable to the leader... well I thank God for the opportunity to stretch my heart & capacity not to flare up in the face of their replies.. (is it possible that u got a connected signal on your end of the call & the other person said that he did not receive any call~ for the record.. I called more than once) [btw I got my Victorious Living quiz and I have not studied then... ] went online.. chatted a bit with vick & Eugene & cat... then long ah? ya think I was like having verbal diarrhoea.. was talking to ming..then called ryan talk quite a while.. then chatted online with ming b4 she zzzzz and long (heehee.cat think my face looks smaller hmm panda diet (aka.. late nites.. few hours of sleep) not bad ah.. [NOTE: tis is not healthy...]

well... ryan once again confirmed what the Holy Spirit had been talking to me... yups.. i know that i've not reached the max of my potential yet... :) hmmm.. then... long msn me.. telling me abt the fri cell... and.. ya.. I want to go sentosa.. any ideas for the non-wOrking ntu peeps.. for an outing.. ? Long sUggested ktv.. (hmmm I dun mind la.. J ) sent an sms to peeps to ask them to go for ah lai's water baptism [well.. no reply from the two MIAs as well]

Saturday 4 Sep 2004 ~ a kiss from heaven

Gee.. woke Up at 9+.. [did not do the prototype box 4 jacelyn, nor did I make the cancles and card... I gotta stop my panda diet]and I'm meeting ming at 12 to buy lai's present ....finally sorta finish at 1120... quick shower.. quick make*up...took cab down.. . thank God for efficiency n shopping for gift.. decided on FILA.. bought a card & zipped off to hwachong (in midst of my hurry... I forgot my ezlink :( very haphazard day) found a candle from ming's colleague.. and thank God for creativity... I managed to make a last min candle holder out of paper!

hmmm quite a no. of peeps came for a-lai's water baptism.. hmmm gee.. just brought to mind.. on the day of 28 Dec 2001... not many came.. think only got Andrew, clement, long.. sad ah.. and no candles but got one big bag of salt... (fortunately.. long din perform the salt ceremony.. or else rach & I will suffer from kidney failure...) heehee... but at least got peeps took foto for me.. can't remember who le.. o.. Jason also got water-baptized with us that day... hmmm hope he's doing well in his new cell.. despite what might have happened...

Quiz time... very gee.. I mixed up the 7 seals in revelations.. Ops! think should be able to pass.. aniwae..signed up for going on to perfection le.. (yay! for once.. I got company for the class..with cat!)

Choir... heehee... Sister Val told me that she saw me at s1.. hmm improved a lot.. J well..felt encouraged that she said that I was one of the more enthusiastic ones... so.. ya lor(hahaha.. u should see me when I just came.. I was a ROOTed... like an age-old tree and my hands are extremely heavy... i.e. I felt stupid to raise my hands & to actually jump... BUT I was slowly uprooted ...think it took eh...months? but really.. if u will feel euphoric when u have the joy of the Lord... think I first came to truly enjoyed praising God was...With You) haha.. that's hOw I can actually pass for as a youth for the youth ministry (*and Eugene thanked me for being so encouraging during pnW for Chinese Service.. ~ brother I'mm not trying to look enthu or over*on-fire.. but I was truly overjoyed.. I elaborate later��� haha��� told u this is long!)

hmm...Saturday was a very happy day for me.. cuz: I told God.. I'm back!! And back to His loving arms... (eh not that I ever backslided.. but I came out of the ice age..) felt a kiss from heaven! and saw 2 of my dotters Brillyan.. (girl.. take care of ya ankle) & Mei! haahaa.. ming, didn't know u know my dotter and.. ya I'm back on my tracks again!

was actually rather upset when this brother (man.. I tell u.. u need some patience and BIG heart when u talked to him ) said wow.. like that u're a mamasan (eh.. does he know wat's a mamasan?) [ sometimes I really drag talking to this bro & can be rather draining he can give u that daze loook and u wonder if he understood what u're talking ] but.. after the peeps got down.. I was like gee.. I need to talk to him tlll next stop! so ya.. I did hmmm heheee managed to encouraged him.. and was prompted by Holy Spirit to give him a prep talk.. hahhaa in just hmm a couple of min (but it seems sooo long!) then I went to talk to mei after he got off hmmm I really like mei's hair color (hahha.. I saw her at the sound ctrl b4 svc.. never expect to see her on train!) hmm.. caught up with her a bitsy then was wondering.. wow.. I see my 2 dotters today how's the other one doing (haha.. then I saw Claire on Sunday evening after Chinese service. Kinda interesting.. that lately.. if I think of that person I will see that person...)

reached home ard 12:30.. went online.. chatted with Rachel... a while on msn... then on the fone... till eh.. 3? hmmm haven't talked to her 4 such a long time... but dear, u can tell me anything la...I sure will miss u... ( u know wat I mean) but.. not for long rite?? as Rachel was sharing with me abt her decision... the big decision... on the verse that made her execute that decision.. My thoughts...: yee.. what abt u ?? PAstor Kong preached a very good sermon this weekend ( the message was reinforced in me when I went for Chinese service.) PRAYER.. It was like Pastor talking to me hmmm repaired my altar of prayer &.. J Was actually immensely touched by the presence of the God during the last part of Chinese service [actually I had thought my mom would not be coming.. & my flesh was telling me.. yee. you very tired... take Sunday off.. and nua at home la.. somemore this week u not on duty for chinese chOir.. BUT.. my mom actually asked me abt afternoon...when I was awaken from my sweet dreams at 9am.. I fell asleep on my beanbag after talking to rach...wonder how I got onto bed ] BUT praise the Lord.. I saw my mom actually singing along to the pnw songs and lifting her hands during worship! AMEN!!!

hmmmm..back to sermon... what remained in my mind was "don.t waiver in your prayer... why do I say that.. wellwell... some of u guys would know what my desires are: (a) to be trained in SOT (b) to be a cgl (used to want to go SCA but.. no more le ) Pastor Tan was sharing.. Pt 2 of the seven steps. don't be double-minded. don't abandon that dream/desire at the face of difficulty... man.. I was like.. ya.. that's me.. If God has birthed that desire in your heart and it is according to His will.. He will see it through... I felt so encouraged... and during the ministry time ... God's presence was soooo tangible... ( I think my mOm should be rather touched cuz I sneak a glance at her.. ) and ya was encouraged.. and.. ya. I will go with His direction (ops. am I speaking in parables again?? )

saw cuiling after Chinese service... heeehee.. I didn't know I was that prominent.. she said she saw me during Pst Chu's meeting a few wed back ( that marks my 1st "appearance" after cold-storage) and on Friday service... (think Jolene's mom also saw me during pst Chu's meeting) and very interesting... someone just popped over (this male colleague of mine who I seldom talk to )... ask me if I was in jUrong west last fri.. hahaha.. I thought he saw me at bn lay mrt.. so told him yups.. but I didn't see him.. so he asked me.. are u attending city harvest church? he saw me in choir.. (hmmm I didn't see him cuz got new song.. my eyes are affixed on the chorus board! ops cat's out of the bag... ) hmmm think he just joined us back.. cuz he was a backslider.. cuz he dunno when s3 .(hmmm ..this gives me hope that there are still lost but open souls in my workplace) Hmmm.. I thought I was low-profile.. hmmm��� so haha..gotta maintain image.. so if think of sabo-ing me on my bday (WHICH Is 14 November~ thick skin thin heart ma) .. (hahha.. I dun mind la.. just don't do it in church!)

Okie .. back to work!!