Hmmm I haven't been online for days..was rather tired and realized that I was easily irritable cuz.. hmm cuz the cycle goes again...(din have any major outburst...but was tested by two incredible sisters..?one from POM/ one from my cell...

hmmm many thoughts flowed thrU my mind for the past few days...but more or less.. they revolved around the same topic...well.. I shall attempt to summarize...

for the past few months...I've been thru...some of the most turbulent times of my spiritual walk.. though the deep valley age might not been long...it did made deep impact...ya.. the plunge was rather deep..every time I edged towards some sort of victory, my complacency would result the slip to be even deeper.. well.. to the extent that I would have lost 2 of my very good friends cuz of my 'not-very-discerning-antenna'... and as a result given some mixed signals but glad that al's histOry now and that friendship with them have gone stronger...

During these 3 weeks break from choir...I realized that :

(a) I really missed serving in choir...
(b) I didn't get into this ministry by mistake.. I'm not void of talents to serve in this ministry... singing in parts and harmony not a difficult feat to me.. (though i'll prefer if beansprouts are given...)
(c) I can bring friends even if I'm involved in the production...(used to use serving as an excuse to not bringing friends...bad ah...certainly!! it's all in the mind... ) but glad that I'd a breakthrough of the drought since eh...X'mas 03...oh...nope...did brought mOm to service sometime this year...but ya.. c'est tout! hmmm ya...violet came for service 7 last week! yay!! hmmmm she didn't respond to the altar call...at least I can upgrade her from U4 to U3... she just find Pst Kong's sermon very inspiring ...but she see that religion ain't a priority for her yet...hmmmm I'll continue to work on her... preserve! (incidentally, that's part of the school motto for my primary school.. sincerity and perseverance)

was burnt out by the POM.. yah, I know that all i did was the cheerleading...but as a result of the 'heartbeat' move... think I stomped my right feet too hard...(hmmmm my right ankle kinda hurting...my old injury...) can't wear heels now...

after service 7's Pom.. went cafe.... heehee saw mei.. my youngest daughter (haha.. sijia was shocked to learn that I'm her mum!! heehee.. ) took a neo-print with her...J then ate with alvina...hmmm she said that he's ���甯����.. (haha... guess who is he??)

Watched fireworks at marina with mOm.. glad I did that.. (though the fireworks were not bad...but glad that I managed to pacify her bitsy by spending time with her..)

I,Robot

Took the day off on Monday...( partly to recuperate & partly of my cramps.. ) Went PS to catch I,Robot... before that I went to buy my medicine at bedok nth...then went Ps...I was like...so glad to be free..from work...I-Robot was great.. (notwithstanding that the male lead was Will Smith...yups...he's one of the actors that I'd like since young...heehee.. since fresh prince of bel-air..)
well.. as the movie progressed...the question that the robot (which I recalled was named sonny by the creator, which he fondly named as my father) 'What am I created for?' plagued my mind...
hmmmm prior before to hermione's dark ages, I'd been plagued by this question...which was what led me to buying "A purpose driven life"... but still due to the dark ages...I'd lost focus...lost direction.. and most importantly.. forgotten the ultimate fact.. I was created uniquely..by my Heavenly Father even before my birth...Was brought to mind of the bare fact that everyone was created by God for a reason at the scene where by Sonny was being examined by susan- a post mortem... and that he was told that he was different from other NS-5, eg.. his composite was stronger...than others...(sonny was built for a purpose..but he was unaware of his purpose.. He has many secrets hidden in him.. like his composite...he only realised his ultimate purpose towards the end of the movie...) and once again... whereby he related his dream to susan and spooner... that "I believe my father has made me for a purpose...We all have a purpose"... Everyone will be used by God.. to serve God in the way in his unique manner... each of us has a purpose in life! and ya.. I was immensely touched by Holy Spirit especially towards the end of the show...heehee...haven't teared in movie for a long time... Cuz...I felt the Holy Spirit reassuring me.. that I will reach that dream that He has placed in me...I may not see it happening...but it will.. in due time... The last scene of the moive.. I depicted myself to be sonny...standing on top of the hill... and... :P

"For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable." Rom11:29

lian called me (for once she called me.. heehee.. ) she sounded rather excited abt her soccer.. yeah.. her 1st session in female soccer... hmmm spent 40+ minutes loitering at my voiddeck.. ya! cuz not convenient for me to call at home... ya.. PO... even though it's my own hp... hmmm glad to see her breaking thru' in some areas... :) Jia you! sister!!! told her that if she has probe with her maths.. can come find me... (haha... that's used to be my stronghold... ya. my strength is mathematics... if only I'd been more diligent in my F.maths... hahaha.. then I'll have 3 As... but I'm contented with my B... heehee.. cuz it was an "E" in my prelim! haha!! btw my grades in As really a miracle... cuz it was a COEE to AABC... ( in this order) heehee... :)

okie... gotta zzzzzz.. may sing soon.. yay!! :) break might be over sooon.... :) sis val just sms me.... :)